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#14

Went to the Gym to do a heavy workout and it was amazing. God I missed training… hopefully, my recovery will keep having a steady line that I will perform at the top level soon. Interesting to see that on keto it seemed I could lift heavier. I didn’t feel weak, but I just didn’t have a feeling to push to 15-20 reps which I normally can do. This time I was more in the 6-8 range and it felt great. Still, a lot of stretching and massaging is necessary to open everything up.

I thought my libido was going away because of getting closer to God, well I made a wrong assumption😂 Been supplementing with a testosterone supplement (not the real deal, just some herbs) since Monday and it makes a big difference. Things like waking up with a morning wood and feeling more sharp and focused (of course has to do with Chosen and LE as well). But after doing a hard workout, I really started to feel horny again, which makes sense after not training for a while. It’s a nice feeling to have when you know how to work with it. Now I’m just using that energy to do some research and read on the couch. I remember years ago I would go nuts when I was feeling like this.

Another realisation how much I have grown these couple of months.

#15

Been also feeling a bit pissed today in a good way, maybe it’s a little bit of recon it feels more like that power dominance from the workout this morning. Will see how heavy HoM will be tomorrow with NR and how much of that alpha is coming up. I don’t want my students to get scared of me lol.

#16

Woke up a couple of times tonight because my earplugs and my sleep mask kept falling off. This has been happening a couple of times in the last week and it’s not good because I live in the middle of the center. Still, I’m grateful that it is Sunday and that I can go to the gym and have a massage afterward.

Because I slept poorly, maybe it was a better idea to listen to HoM and NR tomorrow I thought. On the other hand, I’m free today so why not be in recon today instead of tomorrow? Now something strange happened. I did 15 minutes of HoM and 15 minutes of NR without any problems. Normally I feel the pressure in my head after a while and sometimes stop the subs between 5-10min to have no over-exposure. Maybe it was because I was sitting in front of my red-light therapy and was really focussing on the intention I had with this stack. I don’t know, it felt less heavy then Chosen (What I think is more like my archetype). Let’s see how today will go and how much recon there will be. It could also be because I took 2 rest days in between instead of 1.

Another great thing happened yesterday. I had no idea how much discount I would get on my taxes this year :sweat_smile: I was saving 37% of my total income on the side and did not think that the discount would matter that much, I was wrong. I thought I had to pay around 18-19k this year of my profit. Apparently with all the discounts it is around 8.5k. I saved around 11.5k already and there is another invoice coming for around 6.3k which makes 17.8k cash that I just could put aside. How amazing is that! An early Christmas gift for me haha.

Because of this, I invested in custom ear plugs and €50 ear masks to hopefully cancel out all the noise and light to improve my sleep. The better I sleep = The better I perform. Also feeling the urge to start spending even more on things like a laptop, water cleaner, maybe a grand coffee maker, or something. Luckily I can resist the urge nowadays. Maybe HoM and NR are helping me with that already.

Really looking forward to what this day will bring!

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#17

Interesting day. I had no idea that HoM and NR would have this type of effect. I thought it would give a lot of recon because of the Wealth scripting, but apparently, I already cleared out a lot of that. I heard there was like 90% of Emperor in the HoM script, but it felt almost less masculine than Chosen to me.

It was funny to see because I don’t listen to subs for attention, but when I was going to the gym the girls couldn’t stop staring :joy: One girl even came up to me and started to talk about how the wall was hypnotizing here and if she could move closer to me to exercise. Another girl kept staring when I was doing some cable pulls that it almost became uncomfortable haha.

Did a 90 min message after that (She killed me again), went home to chill, and watched UFC. But for some reason, I just needed to keep busy. I really wanted to make my keto chicken stew for the next 3-4 days so that I can focus fully on my business work this week and just don’t have to think about anything else. Had no idea what a calm kind of vibe and slow motivation this stack would give. Will definitely keep running these 2 subs this week and see how different my classes are compared to Chosen/LE.

I like both combinations so far. Will run them for a couple of weeks to see if it’s really what I need. But if so, will deff make 2 customs with those combinations.

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#18

Another things to add, the power that I had today while doing some weightlifting. I was pressing being able to press easily 60KG while being on keto. I ate some berries and nuts before training, but still it just really clicked for me while I was training.

Can’t shake this feeling that maybe Emperor is way more aligned with who I am then what I thought I was. Especially because I’m doing HoM that has this social influence with it. Feeling very powerful and dominant in a good way. I always thought that I was more of a Stark person. Especially because it gave no recon which is really weird.

Man, it’s so much fun to figure all this out!

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#19

I did an interesting test today

  • Last week and today there were exam discussions with my students. During these conversations, students must justify their practical assignments and substantiate them in a conversation. This is based on criteria such as “How have you adapted your communication to the client” or “How have you expressed the client’s wishes/needs?” I’m a social work teacher by the way. On Chosen, I was very inspired and profound. I was really curious about what they had done, what cool things they had experienced, and was a really positive leader. In HoM, on the other hand, this was also present, but it was much more of “Get to the point”. 1 student wandered off during the conversation and I kept repeating the question until I had an answer. I really didn’t feel like digressing and just wanted a concrete answer, much more businesslike. Still was eager to help them, but I also had other things to do that I wanted to fix.

  • The art of getting (…) done is also much more present at HoM (I listen to it with NR). Today I had a to-do list that I have expanded much further. I would actually check 10-15 reports today, but ended up with 27. In all honesty, this was purely motivated by money. It’s going to be a holiday soon and I really want to make a big profit and cash in. Suddenly the urge to make money is much more present, and very interesting.

  • At the end of today, I had to stop by school to discuss something with a colleague. I walked in and 3 of my female colleagues were there. Suddenly I was much friendlier and made more jokes. The intensity suddenly disappeared, as if I could suddenly switch to what was necessary. I’m guessing this is the social aspect of HoM.

  • The Emperor script is very much alive. I felt a lot of drive and motivation today. Even after doing more than I intended to do. In the end, I still cleaned my apartment and did the dishes. It just had to be crossed off the list otherwise it would irritate me.

Tomorrow I’ll try the New Emperor to see the difference between the 2. Looking forward to that. Especially because I have classes on Wednesday

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Main Disc. Thread - Emperor: House of Medici v2
#20

Another thing I found out when using these productivity subs. If I’m procrastinating or doing things that don’t really matter or have anything to do with making money. I get this feeling of recon.

The moment I started working again (Was just doing some extra work emails), I was good. Seems that’s why they made the module Machine rest lol

#21

Woke up early again, around 4:30, and well rested. Went to the gym, did cardio, sauna, and redlight therapy. I feel restored and ready to smash this day into productivity pieces.

One thing that I notice instantly while switched HoM to Emperor:

  • More focused on females. There was this beautiful blond who started talking to me because she needed some type of wait. I had a strong urge to start talking to her and having some fun. I did not because I was focused on my gym routine. But it was vastly different than Sunday when I was training on HoM. → Could be some self-sabotage that I didn’t speak to her tho.
  • I feel motivated and clear to start my day, but not like the HoM/NR combination. With that combination I was super motivated to make money, I was mostly focused on that. Let’s see how today and tomorrow go with the given class while being on this new Emperor/NR stack.
#22

Had some recon in the morning, but it cleared after I met some friends of mine. Talking does clear recon, that’s for sure.

Been feeling out different subs these last 2 weeks. Enjoy the combination of HoM with NR. It’s that business-driven, no-nonsense type of vibe without getting too sexual. Will do a 3 day washout and work on my custom in the meantime.

Let’s see how the subs will bloom the next 3 days.

#23

Caffeïne is the last thing that I’m still doing while deep down having this feeling that it’s taking my freedom. I’ve quit multiple times in the past, even going 2-3 months without it. But for some reason, I’m always coming back to it, especially because I link it to productivity and focus.

Have been doing some research and it seems that it’s really bad for your sleep, digestion, and your brain. There is some evidence that coffee is healthy because of the antioxidants, but you can also get that from other sources and decaf.

The thing is, I’ts the only thing that is not clean. I really enjoy drinking a cup of coffee in the morning, but I do not like to be depended on it. And if I’m honest, I am. For instance, I don’t like exercise as much without caffeïne. With caffeïne, it gives me this huge boost of feeling good chemicals and power. Like I can tackle the day and just be insanely productive. The same with using caffeíne as a focus tool while working on my business. I have the feeling that I will let go of something that I hold dear.

Maybe this is the talk of an addict lol.

#24

Try to switch to green tea, it is healthier.

#25

Thanks for the tip, did that a while ago but I don’t like tea. I rather take a caffeïne supplement.

Decided to quit again tho, will wean off a bit this week and then remove it from my life again. Since I made that decision, I felt this calm and serenity feeling coming over me. That’s always a good sign!

#26

I’m not quite sure how to start this post, but I’ll give it a try.

Today was a fantastic day while teaching a social work class. I never realized that the New Emperor subliminal was so effective for teaching. I am already a highly motivated and social teacher, so sometimes the Chosen subliminal can make me a bit too hyped up, I suppose. What I appreciated about the Emperor subliminal was the clear-mindedness and groundedness it brought to my teaching. I was still enthusiastic, but more focused and concentrated than before. Currently, I am creating a customized subliminal for teaching, using Emperor instead of Chosen and incorporating additional modules like Torchbearer to see how it enhances my experience.

Something really strange happened today. Two weeks ago, I visited a school that could potentially become a new client for my freelance business. It felt very promising, and I immediately connected with the students. I have always been a likable person, and people are naturally drawn to me when they meet me. This is not to boast, but it’s just my personality. I am very adaptable in that way. However, I couldn’t seem to connect with one of the teachers.

Today, I received a message expressing their interest in working with me, but one teacher mentioned that they didn’t click with me. This has never happened before with any client or job, so it was completely new for me. It was quite surprising when I read the message. It didn’t provide a reason, and it ended with “I wish you good luck with your future endeavors. With your CV, there will be no doubt that there are great things ahead for you.”

As I rode my bike home from the grocery store, I reflected on the situation and spent some time in prayer, wondering if I had made a mistake. When I arrived home, I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude for my life. I can’t quite explain the feeling, but it filled me with belief and strength. I just knew that I was doing well in my life and striving to become a better person to contribute positively to the world.

Then, I heard a faint voice, almost like a whisper, saying “I have other plans for you,” and suddenly I was taken aback. I have been making significant personal growth in the past few weeks. My health is improving tremendously, my teaching has been enhanced, and I am growing even more because of these subliminals and this community. Perhaps that job was beneficial for me, but due to my personal growth, I may no longer need it. There is something even bigger and better coming my way, and taking that job might hinder what I need to achieve.

I can’t fully express the peace I feel right now; it’s truly amazing.

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#27

This morning, I found myself still thinking about yesterday’s events. I woke up feeling energized and focused, eager to dive into work. I realized that I crave more freelance assignments to not only make extra money, but also to stay busy. It dawned on me that I am quite extroverted and I actually enjoy teaching and giving classes, so I don’t need as much free time as I thought.

As I was about to reach out to some old clients, I had a strong feeling to hold off and be patient because something is on the horizon. This frustrated me at first because I want to take action and make progress, not wait around. Then it hit me - amidst all the efforts to improve my life, I’ve neglected to spend time studying God’s word. While I do a 3-day Bible study, there’s a difference between studying and truly being present with Him. That’s when the verse came to mind: “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”

A sense of calm washed over me as I understood the message. I need to trust that the Lord will provide what I need at the right time, but I must prioritize Him above all else. Sometimes, in the midst of focusing on my business and personal growth, I forget to include Him.

I’ve noticed that since rejoining Subclub, I seem to hear His voice more clearly and understand my path better. Perhaps there’s an intuitive module in some of the major programs? I’m not sure, but I’m truly enjoying this newfound connection. It feels like the subs are enhancing my health and wellness routines in a special way.

This journey I’m on right now is both fascinating and exciting. I find myself so enthusiastic at night that I struggle to sleep because I’m eager for the next day - it’s like being a child who can’t wait for kindergarten.

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#28

Today’s recon was quite intense and challenging. I had numerous online discussions with my students to assist them in completing their exams before graduation. Due to being on a keto diet, I had to avoid sugar, which led me to consume two sodas and around 400 grams of peanuts, which is unusual for me. Despite this, I managed to cope while listening to the subs, but now, on my 2-3 rest day, the effects of the recon are weighing heavily on me. I hope to have a good night’s sleep and wake up feeling refreshed tomorrow.

On a positive note, I delved into researching A.I for the first time today. I’ve noticed that my students heavily rely on it, which I believe hinders their own critical thinking and creativity. I wanted to understand the reasons behind their heavy usage. After a few hours of research, I find it amazing. However, as Spiderman famously said, “with great power comes great responsibility.” The potential of A.I to generate ideas and aid in creation is remarkable. I intend to use it to enhance my creative thinking while developing lessons and courses for my business. This doesn’t mean that I will solely rely on A.I to create my courses, which seems to be a common practice nowadays. Rather, I find it intriguing to explore how much it can assist in various aspects of life. For instance, as a non-native English speaker, my English proficiency in writing is around 60-70%, but with the help of A.I, I am able to communicate my thoughts more effectively. It’s important to note that I don’t write in Dutch and then translate; I write in English and then utilize A.I to enhance my writing. This, in my opinion, makes a significant difference.

I am looking forward to do more research and experimenting with A.I. I am considering integrating the A.I module into my custom.

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#29

I believe I experienced some self-sabotage today, which is something I’ve done before, but it’s quite subtle.

I had my Bible study today, but it turned out to be a Christmas dinner where they also asked if I would join. I initially thought it was just dinner, but it included a lesson as well. When I arrived, I noticed a girl whom I’ve seen numerous times online during the study. She had that natural beauty and a pure vibe, something I find very attractive in woman. Throughout the class, I felt her gaze on me a few times. As the class ended at 8:30 PM, I immediately thought, “If I go home now, I can still wake up early and work on my business tomorrow!” Additionally, I felt like I had bad breath from being on a keto diet and didn’t bring any food (of course, the only white guy didn’t bring food to a Christmas dinner :joy:). So, I told them I had to leave and wanted to work in the morning. As I said goodbye, the girl seemed a bit disappointed and said, “Wait, you’re leaving? Oh… Well, have fun in London for Christmas!” Some of the others also expressed interest in getting to know me better and said Are you sure you want to leave?

As I walked away, I realized that this was a form of self-sabotage to avoid getting to know people. It’s strange that I do this, and sometimes I don’t understand why. This is a new community that has been very kind and welcoming to me. There was a girl there whom I genuinely liked and wanted to get to know, yet I chose to go home because I needed to wake up in the morning. It doesn’t make sense. I think it has especially to do with this girl, maybe that’s why Emperor is given me this recon. Healing this self-sabotage with woman that I like.

I hope that through prayer, self-reflection, and introspection, I can identify the root cause of this behavior. While there are some “valid” reasons, I truly want to expand my community and make new friends. I hope this doesn’t happen more often; it honestly makes me feel a bit sad.

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#30

Wow Jim. That could have been my story.

Pulling out before anyone gets to know me.

You’re not alone there.

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#31

After some introspection this morning, I realized that I have developed a mild form of attachment anxiety, possibly stemming from my past when I used to smoke weed frequently. Subconsciously, I still have thoughts like “If I leave now, I can still smoke some weed,” even though I haven’t smoked in years. This has become a habit and does not accurately reflect my current desires.

I am not shy and enjoy being around people, but I struggle with being alone. This could be due to old habits and a bit of attachment anxiety, but I am working on healing it slowly.

I believe that you can overcome this too!

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#32

I’m in the process of healing mine. I’m on Phoenix solo right now, and the very issues that have escaped change all my years are being worked on daily.

I’m growing from the inside out. Stubborn fears and useless escapes I’m suddenly given choices about, as if I’m asked, “do you want to keep this?”

It’s glorious growth. Sometimes terrifying, sometimes exciting, but I’m growing each and every day.

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#33

Today I met up with a friend who is also an entrepreneur. It was great to catch up with him again. He has been very successful and has already achieved financial stability. We had a brainstorming session about the courses I am developing, and I valued his opinion. Tomorrow, I have a small business meeting with another friend to finalize our plans for the upcoming weeks. While iit’s weekend, I like to stay busy.

I’ve been researching various nootropics lately, especially today. I’ve been experimenting with testosterone supplements, and I’ve been using Mindlab Pro as a nootropic for a while. I decided to switch to Qualia to see how it compares, and the effects were quite intense. After conducting some research, I realized that most premade nootropics have insufficient dosages, and it’s hard to determine their effectiveness. I used a chatbot to identify the most researched nootropics and then conducted further research to find natural options that are commonly used. I purchased them from a website at a 60% discount compared to Qualia, and they seem to be effective.

Now, I have to test each of these natural nootropics to see if they work. Honestly, I’m not looking forward to this process as it requires a lot of effort and research. I would prefer to just take Qualia or Mindlab and be done with it, but I can’t ignore the fact that you mostly pay for marketing and the dosages are not accurate. Part of me just wants to be done with all the preparation. I sorted out my customs and was planning to purchase the QTKS today, but then I realized that my credit card has expired. Another thing that I can’t cross off the list and it’s irritating me.

I believe Emperor and LE are working. It’s important to be well-prepared before diving into anything new. I look forward to focusing on learning the trading business, building my coaching/training business, maintaining my faith, and handling my regular work after the holidays. Right now, dealing with various miscellaneous tasks is starting to irritate me. I just want everything to be organized and completed. I need to be patient and figure everything out. When I return from London, I will have a whole week to schedule everything until around February or March.

That’s great to hear! I wish you all the best on your healing journey It sounds you made some major process the since the last time I spoke to you in 2022 :wink:

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