Running my second loop
Still feeling really bored and frustrated . I’ve been like this since I reduced the loops to the recommended listening schedule. No idea what to do other than ride it out. Any input @DarkPhilosopher @SaintSovereign @Fire ?
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Well, I’m about as far as it gets from being an expert on reconciliation, but for me I had to stop listening for 2 days before things started to get back under my control again. While I kept listening, it stayed just as bad.
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That’s a huge change!
How to fill that space.
I did post something like this.
Your invitation…
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Sorry to hear that bro. You’re right, just ride it out. I’m feeling I’m coming off the tail end of this massive recon, but regardless, something deep is definitely being done there.
I’m back on my previous stack, except with the addition of DR. Perhaps the familiarity will also foster some sort of equilibrium.
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@DarkPhilosopher @Apollo Thank you for the input. Sometimes it feels like it’s I just have that much to work through and feeling this way will be worth it long term. Maybe that’s wishful thinking. Listening to some old school style death metal to see if that helps.
I used the word regret earlier and I now feel that wasn’t accurate. I feel that as I grow and mature I am obviously aware of how mistakes I made in the past could have easily been avoided.
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It was suggested by @SubliminalUser that I not run Elixir but I may give that a shot later to see if it helps at all
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You could try it, maybe the familiarity will also trigger some comfort for you. I used RebirthU yesterday and today, but I am not sure if there’s anything there that could address recon specifically. I feel better though.
Music helps, but for me when the intrusive thoughts and internal dialogues are severe, I combine listening to subs to either watching a very engaging movie, or gaming. My mind has no choice but to focus on something else.
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Running a third loop . May run a fourth.
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Running the third loop is definitely helping. I don’t feel as agitated or irritable. Either that or the death metal
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Isn’t it awesome having a brain that decides for itself what you’re going to focus on?
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Oh yeah. Specially when it’s a stubborn angsty rebellious teenager kind of mind like mine.
Great. Just great
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What do you mean by that?
For what ever it is worth on the quest for the loop amounts
after much testing my experience is that running extra loops
adds recon in a certain way but also cuts recon from bloom.
It adds physical symptom-tiredness head pressure symptoms to up loops, but
lessens emotional recon. Then when given the time to process that emotional recon will come out eventually.
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I cannot refer to that since I’ve got recon only twice, when I stacked too much stuff (Aura, StarkT, HoM and CommanderU - 6 loops in total) and when I ran 3 loops of StarkT every other day. Now I can run 19 loops and I get no recon nor do I get tired.
This was more for @James
You seem pretty solid with your sense of what works for you.
isn’t recon not resistance or negative symptoms, its the reconciling of new programming with what is.
It’s a term that’s come to reflect ‘challenging/negative’ symptoms but doesn’t necessarily have to be.
Sometimes its literally the effect of the sub
that’s not recon?
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I don’t consider it recon since it doesn’t affect me in any negative way, at least that vulnerability. That moodiness was temporary (two days only) it might have been caused by an argument I had with my gf and my usual thought of cutting off from people who “hurt me” (she didn’t but the thinking pattern seems to have repeated itself). It looks much better now but it’s still there.
Of course, I’ve been heading that way for over one month and got excellent results on DR St1, in my post I wanted to point out how different St2 from St1 is.
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I think I just have to cool down since I’m starting to feel as if I was preaching my approach to using SC subs. 
Thanks for your questions.
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@Azriel one way to counter the recon is to run the subs close to sleep. That way, most of the heavy lifting will happen during sleep and in dreams.
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haha, nice self catch 
It’s great if your happy and settled in what works for you and I’m happy to always hear you share about it …and what works for one person may not for another-especially in your case!
19 loops might kill some people lol
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