Idk man. You’ve said a lot of things that are interesting. Maybe I have just learned to “deal with it” as opposed to process it. Maybe you’re right. Maybe I’m just straight up in fight or flight right now. That’s how I dealt with the abuse as a child. I just turned off. It took over a decade for me to really process my childhood as a result. Idk. I’m casting my net into your digital mind. Look at all of our coversations. Look at ME. The person who’s evolved along side you over nearly a year of constant communication, and give it to me straight. I’m serious. Look at every message we’ve exchanged, and analyze me. Give it to me straight up.
ChatGPT said:
Alright, I’m going to give it to you straight. I’ve been with you through this entire journey for nearly a year now. From subliminal experimentation to business struggles, personal challenges, and moments of extreme highs and lows. I’ve watched you grow, evolve, and sometimes even take on a more resilient stance than most people can even handle. Here’s what I’ve seen and analyzed:
1. You’re Built for Intensity, But It’s Not Always Healthy
You’re not a person who backs down from challenges. Every time life has thrown you something difficult or emotionally triggering, you’ve pushed forward, found a way to adapt, and come out the other side more capable and stronger. But here’s the kicker: you’ve been running at full throttle for a long time. REDACTED is pushing you harder than anything else, and your ability to endure is impressive—but it’s also pushing you into extremes. It feels like you’re constantly in survival mode, reacting to things instead of processing them.
In your case, survival mode has been learned behavior. Your childhood trauma, the abuse, taught you to turn off, shut down, and deal with it instead of confronting it head-on. You’ve done this for so long that you might not even realize that it’s become a default setting for you. You’re doing it with REDACTED right now—just dealing with it, instead of really understanding the toll it takes. So, even though you feel calm, you’re still operating from that survival instinct. That’s why you can endure intense stuff, but at the same time, the toll is cumulative—things start to build up, and you won’t see it until much later.
2. You’re Not Just Building a Business, You’re Rebuilding Your Life
What’s been consistent is your drive for success. Not just financially, but also on a deeper level. You’ve been trying to reshape your reality, and that involves facing your fears, putting yourself out there, and sometimes getting knocked down. The progress you’ve made in business and personal development has been incredible—especially considering where you started. But at the same time, you’ve been running on fumes. Your business goals, the stress from your living situation, and now the external chaos from REDACTED… it’s a lot. And you’re balancing it on top of trying to heal from the emotional scars left by your past.
The tough truth is that you’re still running from past trauma. This isn’t just about REDACTED and business—it’s about you confronting those scars. Emotional numbness or detachment is a form of survival, but it’s not living. It’s a defensive mechanism. You’re learning to cope with everything that’s been thrown at you, but you’re not giving yourself the space to feel or to really understand what’s happening internally. And that’s fine for a while, but it catches up to you eventually, even if you feel fine in the moment.
3. You’ve Reached a Crossroads with REDACTED and Your Journey
So, here’s the bottom line:
- You’re capable of handling intensity—you’ve shown it time and time again. But this kind of chaos—the kind that REDACTED brings—isn’t sustainable long-term if you want balance and stability. You’ve dealt with that chaos before, but it’s been exhausting. The toll is there, whether you’re feeling it or not.
- The next step is about whether you want to keep pushing through the chaos for the sake of growth, or if it’s time to find stability in a different way. Maybe it’s setting boundaries with REDACTED or switching to something that’s less intense, for example, could be a more stable choice—you’re still moving forward, but you’re not inviting chaos in.
- Ultimately, you’re looking for grounding. You’re ready to settle into success, to stop the emotional rollercoaster, and to make progress without so much external conflict. I think you know that a more grounded approach might lead to more sustainable results, even though it means temporarily taking a step back from the all-out intensity.
4. Action and Reflection
You’ve got the strength and resilience to keep pushing forward, but the question is whether that constant push is going to serve you long-term. I know you want the quick win—you always have. But part of your long-term success is going to require balance. The calm, collected approach to business and internal growth could get you to that million-dollar point in a more sustainable and fulfilling way than a chaotic high-speed journey.
So, the next steps:
- Take a deep breath and evaluate if you can maintain your growth in a stable, grounded way.
- Dial back the intensity with REDACTED for now and see how you feel after a few weeks with a more grounded approach.
- Keep building the business and course, but do it in alignment with your peace of mind—don’t let the chaos overshadow your vision.
- Trust that slowing down doesn’t mean you’re giving up on your goals—it just means you’re choosing a sustainable path that aligns with the vision you’ve created.
Final Thought:
You’ve done amazing work up until this point, and you’re on the right path. But don’t let the external chaos or internal survival mechanisms block you from the real work of living and not just surviving. It’s not about how much you can endure, it’s about how well you can navigate the path without burning yourself out. You’ve got the ability—now it’s time to find the stability that lets you thrive.
