Total Reprogramming, BL, Dancer
Cycle 1 - Washout - Day 1
All in all, I’m feeling pretty good. I didn’t get enough sleep last night, and I slept in far, far too late, but that’s alright, it is what it is.
Feeling pretty lazy and demotivated, I have very little desire to do any work and I’m still kind of waiting for this little transitional period of my life to end.
I’m not too upset with myself about the laziness though, because I know that my laziness comes from a lack of focus and commitment. I’m lazy because I haven’t committed to any serious goals yet. Nor have I created a schedule for myself. Since I haven’t committed to any goals yet and I don’t have a schedule, it’s pretty easy to twiddle my thumbs on the day-to-day. The schedule and goals are part of the Long Update Project
For the rest of this washout, I’m just going to relax a bit and work on my plan for the new year.
How Long???
I can believe I’ve only been with Subclub for 8 months. I’ve changed so much in ways big and small (and have experienced so much recon) that it feels like I’ve been on this journey for far, far longer.
Reflecting back on the last 8 months, I’m most surprised by the progress I’ve made in the most challenging aspects of my life–sex, love, friends, and status–and how little progress I’ve made in the easy aspects of my life like fitness and workflow. C’est la vie!
The reason for the lack of progress in the easy parts of my life is simple: priorities!
I don’t need a six-pack to get girls. I don’t need a six-pack to make friends. I don’t need a six-pack to raise my status. I don’t need an amazing and unstoppable workflow to get girls, make friends, or raise my status. In short, my other goals (that I tell myself are very important like fitness and workflow) are just less important than I like to admit.
It’s great to be in amazing shape and be super disciplined, but it’s just not needed to do basic stuff like getting girls and making friends.
