I am the Emperor 🤘

[James]

Main Disc. Thread - PHOENIX: A Dragon Reborn Experience (Free Upgrade Now Available!)

This title frightens me almost with how much clarity I have gained from it so far. For a long time I was more or less convinced that in order to be successful I had to pursue everything I thought I wanted. That’s so fucking exhausting. It feels like for me becoming more content means most often not doing those things. As weird as that may sound. It’s having restraint to know when something is a necessity for growth or just a random desire. For someone with severe ADHD this is huge I remember fo…

[James]

I just realized that it’s OK not not care about something. I know that may seem strange but for most of my life I have felt this weird obligation. Now there are often daily moments where I can’t be fucked to care about something.

I just realized I don’t care about being religious or spiritual. It’s just not for me. I just want to clear all the shit so I can live my life and hopefully contribute in a positive way although I’m not sure yet what that " way" is

[James]

[James]

Main Disc. Thread - PHOENIX: A Dragon Reborn Experience (Free Upgrade Now Available!)

I can’t believe the emotional control I have with this. I know I have mentioned it before but I have had so may instances in the last week or so where I would definitely have lost it emotionally. Maybe had a bit of a meltdown or tantrum. It’s hugely embarrassing and I didn’t know how to resolve it. I get frustrated internally but I don’t really show it outwardly. Especially when I make mistakes. I just stop and ask myself how can I fix whatever the issue is? @Fire @SaintSovereign

[James]