I’m weighing in a little late deliberately; trying to stick away from being the advice giver for a bit.
I read through what others had said already to see how it compared to my own perspective and I have to say I seem to be on point with what others have said as well. That’s a good thing, if you’re getting consistency in the answers here it at least suggests a consensus, even if a consensus isn’t necessarily objective advice.
My take on it is that you only gain a balanced outlook on women (or “sexual partners” to be more generic for the other persuasions) after you master other aspects of your life.
I’m going to take a leaf out of my own personal, extremely limited experience to try to illustrate what I mean in respect to your situation, as well as looking at how your worded your original post.
You correctly pointed out that on a fundamental level, your problem/question related not just to women, but to your self esteem and identity. You also wondered whether the path of seduction was “the wrong one”.
I would suggest that most of the time, you are correct it is the wrong one, and often the desire to (punta punta) multiple beautiful women is a self esteem issue in and of itself (or a predisposition to pleasure in other circumstances). It is often done in order to seek validation or to compensate for experiencing feelings of lack of self worth.
For the first 26 years of my life I was a virgin, and not wholly out of choice. I don’t count online fooling around with desperate forty or fifty somethings as a twenty something year old on early video chat here
then, when I took the initiative for myself 20 years ago on a trip to the States, meeting several women I knew online, I broke that streak for all of a couple of weeks. Then, for several years, I returned to my motherland and it wasn’t until I met and interacted with my first long term relationship three years later (who saw enough in me to fly halfway around the world to meet me) that the dam broke and I was able to spent eight years with consistent access to the VVV, until circumstances changed things for me in late 2014 and I spent five years without a woman in my life, until I was ready for number two. And that lasted for a year or so.
Why did it take me that long to enjoy a long term relationship? Well, back in high school I would watch what others did or experienced, and analyze it like you might analyze a science experiment. And I saw all the idiocy and craziness people experienced around social relationships. All the ridiculous manipulation and social games. The temporary nature of it.
I examined the PUA and seduction community years later, and learned a lot from it, but to be brutally honest PUA stuff and seduction materials have never helped me land a woman. That’s not to say they can’t, but ultimately every experience is different.
Lets just put it this way: who you are a person, and your confidence which comes from the experience of every day slogging it trying to survive from day to day, that is what is going to attract you to a woman. In the game of survival, the seduction community is only about pointing you in the right direction to be able to stand up for yourself in a playful way to pass the tests women throw at you, by explaining how to defuse tension. What is going to give you the advantage is having that rock solid confidence in what your personal value to others is. Knowing that you have value to the world, something to offer it, even if you haven’t made that offer yet but are just preparing to provide it. And know right now, that everyone has some value that they provide to the world, even though the average schmuck might look at the value you provide and think it non valuable.
You wrote: "The enormous obstacles I have are to the perception I have of my personal value, which I am convinced is non-existent. "
With that perspective, you will never pull a woman (hey, maybe a man, if you swing that way). Why? Because you have no understanding of your self worth!!
You’ve come to this forum and to these subliminals because obviously you have the willpower to make a change. That indicates one thing about you which you can use to point out to yourself your own self worth. The willpower to dig yourself out of a trench is in itself valuable to others. Especially in the current time that we live in, where we are in the midst of what might be called a “great depression”. Focus on the fact that you’ve made that first step. Focus on the fact that you are more than those people who haven’t even bothered to try to figure out what makes them valuable to others. As you learn more about your value, you will naturally have more confidence, not just around women but around your peers, and that will naturally lead to attracting others who have perception of that that same value.
Given what I know about this forum’s available subliminals, even though I’ve never used it, I would recommend Genesis to you, which I understand you’ve already started. That will give you the understanding of your true goals / path which will help improve your confidence as you work with it.
Good luck brother.