Memories from be embarrassed or pushed around pop up from recent and even further back in child hood. Things I did or said resurface. I make mistakes and beat myself up for it after everyone is either over it or don’t remember. Horniness is also a part of it. Paranoia, anxiety, fear and occasionally anger. Finally, and this one never goes away… wanting to switch or order another custom.
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I think you got all your reconciliation out of the way when your ran T2 customs for 8 hours a day, every day
Everything is a walk in the park after that.
I get what I would call brain sensitivity, subtle doubts, questioning everything, thinking I’m running the wrong subs or nothing is happening etc…
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Actually, when it hits me hard it causes significant social anxiety, it makes me socially inept and passive. I think the reason is social anxiety tended to be my biggest issue when I was a kid and teenager.
Incredible sadness and depression. The best I can explain it is that my “soul is weeping.” Headaches, grogginess. I start doubting our mission. It’s one of the reasons @Fire and I don’t both run / test subs at the exact same time. SOMEONE has stay focused.
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In light of Saint’s very aptly put and poetic response, I’m going to amend my reconciliation
as the experience of my Soul throwing a massive temper tantrum
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That was poetic? I missed that part
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Same.
My soul having a root canal
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I wasn’t being sarcastic, there is a poetic nature to that statement as I hear it.
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Weird. I read that part and threw up a little
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to each their own, I appreciated it.
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Hahaha 
I was being sarcastic
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damn- was hoping for a 100% record in determining your sarcasm
alright I’ll be on edge from now on lol
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last year when I first listened my custom which it is terminus squared level…I just felt tired and unmotivated…especially I mixed it with QLQ st3
I just always felt sad and empty…everything is in vain…then I took a break…something magnificent happened…my life completely turned around after that…and I am feeling I am on the upward spiral…just getting better and better …now with DR in my stack…I just dont have those really hardcore recon anymore…usually something light…I dont even realise it until I write my daily journal…
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And all this time I thought that was a sign the subliminal was working great.
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I’ve noticed an increased water intake resulting in a lot of toilet visits. And also I feel a craving for way more salt when I eat, think that has to do with the increased water intake 
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That’s good. I have to force myself to drink water even though I feel dehydrated at times, specially when listening to a heavy stack.
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Yep happens to me as well that i forget to drink water. But when overloaded with subs I have this heavy feeling in my head and that’s when I get really thirsty, so then I’m just naturally drawn to drink water.
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