My recon is usually mild, some irritation, sleepyness, groggy, tired etc.
A week or so ago, I had the most intense recon I’ve encountered. Brain fog, more scattered thoughts than usual, irritation, anger, overthinking, feeling like the world was against me, all is lost, what’s the point… etc. Asinine thoughts like that.
The funny thing is I know I’m under recon, and the only thing I could do was continue with my subs and watch as Rome burns while playing a fiddle.
I knew I had to tough it out. Remember when I was reflecting about Dante’s inferno in my journal? That’s around the time.
I have some traumas deep inside my psyche, and I understand pulling these out would be akin to the comfort and luxury of a root canal.
I was ready. Punched in the gut but was ready.