Homecoming [ASCENSION SOLO]

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#104

Day 51 continued

Today I met one of my old neighbors. She called out to me while parked in her car. She asked if I was still in school. I told her I dropped out. She then told me to get in the car. We talked for a short while. She offered lots of words of encouragement. She basically told me the opposite of what your typical parent would say. She said it was okay that I dropped out. That it’s typical for successful people to have difficulties in school. She said I was going to have a great future. And I shouldn’t listen to my parents cause they’ll never understand.

I don’t really need encouragement right now but I appreciated the kind words.

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#105

So I’ve reached the end of my 2nd cycle. I feel it’s time to make a change. My reasons are

  1. Productivity; I’ve been largely unproductive in my cycles. I feel I need a sub that gives me that kick in the ass.

  2. Wealth;

Asc mogul would be the logical choice since it has the internal changes i’m looking for in ascension + more wealth scripting. And from what I read it does give you that kick in the ass to get stuff done. But stark interests me more. Being smarter, more social and a focus on innovation. Tho being an introvert I fear it would make me outgoing and talkative. Not to mention the fame aspect. And idc for seduction right now.

#106

You could also add Stark to Ascension

#108

Day 55 (July 11, Cycle 3, Day 7)

I had a great jog today. Felt like a horse. Also had my first heavy workout today. I felt like a warrior during the workouts. Like they were steel plates on my chest and biceps. I did struggle towards the end of my reps but I pushed through.

Finally finished the 14 day bodyweight weight fitness primer. Took me much longer than 14 days but at least I stuck with it.

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#109

By the way I’ve decided to stick with ascension till day 94. Then I’ll evaluate.

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#110

So you know that girl that I said I thought was out of my league on Insta, I saw her. But it was bad timing. I was sitting down outside, recovering from the jog I just had. Then I saw her walking by the side. I wanted to go say hi, but I was sweating a lot, and smelling like shit. So I decided not to approach.

#112

Probably has nothing to the with the sub but today I woke up, eyes still closed, and thought what the time was. I then saw 7:41 in my mind’s eye. Next I open my eyes, check the tab beside me and guess what, the time was 7:41 am.

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#113

Also while meditating with my eyes closed a portal like window opened in my mind. I could see my living room through it. It wasn’t vivid tho and dissapeared after a short while. My first instinct was maybe it has something to do with third eye. Tho i’m not knowlegdeable on that subject.

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#114

So yesterday I was looking up on the best gaming laptops. I had a limit in my head that I wouldn’t get one over $1500. After a while I thought to myself, why am I putting money limits on myself? Why $1500 specifically? Is there a good reason for that? What’s the difference btw a $1500 money limit and a $5000 money limit? There’s no difference, it’s just numbers. Different amounts, but still numbers. It’s just a matter of what youre comfortable with. After that I just began looking up the best of the best laptops, not really paying attention to the price. If I like it and it fulfils my needs extremely well, then there’s no issue paying a premium for it.

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#115

Even while looking up phones I lost interest in one i’d been eyeing for a while. Felt it was too low for my standards. I had bookmarked it cause it was the best for my budget, not because I really wanted it.

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#116

Day 58 (July 14, Cycle 3, Day 10)

Second intense workout. I hated working out today, but I did it anyways.

I’ve been inconsistent with meditation for the past few days. I’m going to fix this cause I know that consistency is the most important thing. I was happily doing it at the start cause I was feeling the good effects, but recently I’ve been mentally resisting it.

Bulking goal is also in the mud atm. I’ve barely put in effort towards that.

I’ve been reading an energy book(about standing still, forgotten the name) and that too requires everyday practice, and it’ll take months/years to see results.

Though since I’ve managed to incorporate exercise into my schedule, I’m sure i can work this out as well.

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#117

I’m clueless about my life. I don’t know my passions or interests. No direction. I don’t know the kind of life I want to live.

#118

*The way of energy by lam kam chuen

#122

So I escorted my nephew and niece to spend the day in my cousins house. Before we took off I thought to myself “Why not bring my laptop along to study so the whole day doesn’t go to waste?” I remember Dan pena (who’s an alpha male) saying he works in his car to save time.

So I worked on the road and in my cousins place. They offered me their study so I spent most of my time there working. This is an effect of ascension cause I dont think I would’ve done this before. Tho it’s kind of hard to acknowledge it since it came so naturally.

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#123

I feel i’ve been too passive while running Ascension. I don’t think i’ve done my best to ascend in life. My next goals are to get a job and to complete Harvard’s Cs50 course. I feel getting a job would help push the sub more. Tho it needs to be a decent job in a decent environment. I’m also doing Cs50 so that I can at least have a skill to offer. I almost finished the course last year but I dropped it and never went back. So part of my motivation to get the certificate is to prove to myself that I can finish stuff.

I still feel like i’m stuck in the deep end of life. And i’m just kicking to stay afloat. Tho it’s better to fight to stay afloat than to let myself drown.

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#124

Day 70 (July 26, Cycle 3, Day 22)

So I also ran a loop of LBFH yesterday. Had a dream today. So there was a time in the past where my brother was talking about how much he hated me in the living room. My mum and sister were present. I was 10 - 13 yrs old at the time. I left and went inside my room. Laid down face first and cried into a pillow. In the dream I confronted him about it. He denied it. I told him he was lying. Can’t remember much else after.

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#126

This is deep!

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#128

Day 84(August 9, Cycle 4 , Day 11)

Effects i’ve noticed on some days;

  • Fear of confrontation way lower than normal

  • More respect. One morning I was greeted by a guy and a woman. The guy in particular is like twice my age. I see him a lot for years now and he’s never greeted me before. My elder brother also seems to be nicer and more respectful towards me.

  • My mum told me that she could sense I was stronger now and if I went back to school i’d absolutely crush it. I agreed with her. Tho i’m not planning on going back anytime soon.

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#131

Day 9 (August 31, Cycle 1, Day 9)

I’ve recently switched to Ascended Mogul.

Dreams

I was in a job interview and I got hired on the spot. The interviewer then showed me how much I would be earning in a month and I was delighted cause it was way higher than what I was expecting.

Second dream I was in an event talking to one of the cool guys I knew back in high school. He looked really good. Was the only one there that dressed corporate.

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#132

I feel i’m starting to relate more with my future self. I’m dissapointed with how I started learning web dev last year and I just gave up and stopped. If I had kept on going i’d probably be in a better position right now. The fact that its been five years since I graduated from high school and I haven’t even acquired a profitable skill is unacceptable. Five years gone down the drain.

I’m starting to take my days more seriously. Everyday is an opportunity to move forward. If i play with my days i’m basically playing with my life. There’s no point in trying to distract myself from what I need to do. I know what i’m saying is common sense but it’s the first time these words have resonated with me.