If you don’t mind can you post your reading list in your next post, Thanks! No rush.
Any changes on st1? It might fix this…
Ah, well, my do nothing is less of the exercise variant (because I am very good at doing nothing there) and more trying to live in the moment (with my customs). I’ve definitely scaled back the try hard on the road of enlightenment.
Also my customs are packed with healing so not sure what EF ST1 is gonna do that those aren’t.
Hmm, the latest book I’m reading is Energetic Boundaries by Cyndi Dale. I’ve got a couple of her other books to browse afterwards (fair warning, more woo woo than practical for those disinclined)
The Inner Smile by Mantak Chia: the pictures make me lol.
Angels Unveiled a Sufi perspective
and Acupressure for Emotional healing.
I’ve got a bunch of videos from this group I like in queue but am totally vegging out reading Mo Bao Fei Bao novels.
Then on the checkout line in Whole Foods I picked up the seasonal cook’s illustrated because who doesn’t need another recipe for streusel?
2 Likes
3 Likes
AncestryDNA keeps moving about my percentages. I keep historical screenshots so I can track their progress. Another one of my cousins popped up in my matches list, but it’s still not enough for me to put my name to my profile or make my tree public. She’ll live.
I consider falling down the rabbit hole of tracking my family tree earlier than what I have but the notion fades as fast as it appears.
Keep being told I work too much, and don’t allow myself enough pleasurable experiences, so I suppose I should listen at some point.
The belief I have to get over: Everything feels like a chore when you have to plan your enjoyment too. I wish things just fell into place. If I don’t plan, my work calendar ends up controlling me vs the other way around. It’s not even like I intend to work incessantly. It’s partly the culture where I am, and partly I wanna get shit done and the day is full of meetings.
I’ve slowly been setting more boundaries… slack notifications go off after a certain hour. I’ll only work late if there’s a presentation due. Lately there’s just been so much, more than I can delegate without overwhelming others. It’s similar for my peers and those above me though so maybe the move is to move vs shift in place.
I talked to my executive coach about my work boundary issues and saying yes to too much. Then she turned right around and asked me to do something at the end of our session. I asked her later if she felt bad asking me for more knowing what she knew… even if I was the “perfect” person to voluntell for the exercise. Meh.
This is starting to feel like a whine so I’ll stop.
1 Like
Good for asking her that. What did she say?
“I did consider it but you were the only/best…” blah blah blah
2 Likes
It does sound like you’re in the midst of a shift or transition. Navigating the process of bringing different parts of yourself into the picture. You don’t seem limited by a lack of knowledge. It seems more like a legitimate negotiation of how much to change and how quickly.
Your erstwhile primary orientations don’t seem to be ‘wrong’ for you. So it seems like you are deciding how much to integrate factors like independence and spirituality without necessarily sacrificing other priorities such as achievement and recognition of your values within a group, (and possibly, safety and a sense of place?).
Seems like you’re moving and growing through your cycles. And doing it with class.
1 Like
What’s your line of work if you don’t mind me asking?
fintech, product
Have also been in:
Software development
Design, UI/UX
Ah I see what you mean about the culture now. Do you find yourself enjoying the work or does it feel like too much/an obligation you took on?
Enjoy is a strong word. I appreciate the people I get to work with and the problems I get to solve. It’s the unending meetings and other stuff that can be a bother.
1 Like
Of course it is fintech.
Meetings are fun. 
Of course?
Maybe, but are they more fun than other things I could be doing with that time? Nah.
Fintech is infamous for a work-life (un)balance that features these factors.
Ah I’ve been fortunate enough to be able to avoid meetings. I only know of them secondhand from others. They seem like they were designed for extroverts by extroverts.
Trying to figure out what would make me listen to my wealth custom more or what’s preventing me besides how comfortable the other two are in comparison. Also considering swapping in house of Medici for one of the subs but not sure which. Perhaps if I take out EOG1 since I already have 4.
With all these new ultimas to try and an extra rest day earlier in the week tomorrow might be ultima day.
2 Likes
Virtual Grace Hopper took up most of last week, though I barely got to “attend” the sessions live. Felt lost all week. Took a listening break yesterday. Keep sticking to my customs instead of ultima or anything else. Maybe feeling burnout at work and so it’s affecting my interest in everything else.
It’s conference season so this month will be full of trying to make sure I participate instead of doing work stuff.
1 Like
Hmm… inertia. I am listening just about the same though I needed a mid-week break after listening to rebirth on loop as I slept. Means I missed out on one day of chiaroscuro.
Was delving into astrology again. Finally finished the Lunar Nodes by Judith Hill and picked up Time Nomad app for some detailed aspects/planets.
Synchronicities occur but the thrill is gone. I feel like I’m underwater starved for air and just about to break the surface.
Lots of self reflection and reading for this long weekend. Though I feel like Brain answering Pinky since it’s the same thing I do every weekend.
Have to backfill my air table with this week’s listens.
2 Likes