Separately, I’ve been keeping a dream journal close to my bed. I’ve been trying to write my dreams each time I wake up which is been really frustrating and annoying because I just wanna go to sleep. That said, I have way more dreams that I can remember when I write them down at each awakening. Do not know how long this will last for. It’s a bit disturbing to fully wake up that many times and have to focus on writing neatly because I can barely read my own handwriting.
Anyway, I’ve been trying to set intention before I dream so that they’re a little bit more focused. I don’t know if they’re listening to me yet, but the themes are still weird. I guess more mundane than I’m used to.
I purchased more moleskin cahier journals because I like that they’re softly bound and easy to write in. plain paper is best for me because I hate rigid lines. My writing is so tiny I don’t need to be constrained that way.
I like to do the bare minimum when it comes to writing. The smaller it is, the thinner the line, the .1mm HBB lead pencil that gets me my words out almost as fast as I can think them, but not really. Writing is so limiting because it’s so slow.
Speaking is limiting because I don’t want that kind of record. People would at least have to work to read my handwriting, maybe. Also don’t really like the sound of my voice recorded, when it’s not reverberating around my skull it sounds softer, more breathy and more childish. I did say I liked deep voices somewhere.
I change my mind mid sentence or mid spoken thought and writing seems a little bit better than that. I have been using the dictation on my phone to at least get some things down when I write enough.