High On My Own Supply

[Parsifal]

I think I might come from a similar direction. A few weeks ago I wrote in my journal that I feel like all Love is transactional (worth=usefulness)
Raised by a single mother that was close to dying between my 6-14 turned me into the classical softy that tried to never hurt anyone (stability= not hurting my mother so she wouldn’t die), always pleasing others, forgetting my needs over others.

And I feel like Love Bomb is working on that.
Putting my focus on me.
Putting me first.

But to each his own.
If you get what you need from WDB, great.

[Michel]

@Kandarpa

Getting more IOIs and not directly taking action isn’t necessarily bad. It means someone is moving from a place of scarcity towards abundance.

It changes your perspective completely when you know you are someone who has choices.

Imagine not having much choice and going for the first woman who gives you IOIs and then getting stuck in a relationship with her out of fear for not having other options.

You are flipping the script. Enjoy the ride!

You get it, I appreciate it.
And I have done the latter too. Such a waste but lessons learned.

[Michel]

Genesis: Joy - it’s the sub I didn’t want, but it is the sub that I needed. If I could describe it in a sentence it’s

Standing on (internal) business

Meaning that my existence in this corporeal body is valid. Not trying to appeal to others, convince others of my worth, nor imagining a higher being judging me.

• Why aren’t you pleased that I’m trying to help you???

• Why do you think I’m worthless? Look at what I can do?

• Why are you rejecting me? Can I change your mind?

Childhood shit.

In others words, other people (mother and father) held the key to my self worth. Or they did until Genesis: Joy. Now I can give myself my own joy and energy.

Results are that:

• Men who are uncomfortable with my presence try to fight me in order to hand my energy to them (superior complexes) and getting nothing but Joy. One got up from near me because he couldn’t hook into me. Other times I’ll leave because my energy is precious to me.

• I walk without scanning the area for disapproval.

• I own my presence, I feel the worthy of my body and own it, not run away.

• Teaching is freer, it students don’t want to follow along, I’m not pleading with them anymore, either they follow along or get left behind. Standing on business.

[Michel]

This week’s Wanted DreamBoi report:

Amongst the numerous IOIs I get on a daily basis, one was particularly striking:

A redhead decked in hi-vis gear, boots and reading a fashion magazine…

An odd combination, but construction women are still girls, I suppose…

Anyway, she saw that another passenger wanted the seat, so she voluntarily stood, but she stood so damn close against me in the train, with her back to my front , whilst still reading her magazine. I thought that she wanted me to read along with her. No. That was very close contact, no personal space whatsoever. It took all my will to not grab her from behind and declare her mine.

Then when there was enough space for both of us to sit down she sat, I sat opposite and gave her a good look up and down. It couldn’t have been more obvious she wanted some of this.

This is why I say a critical mass of IOIs lead to approaches. It sounds woo woo but once I accept my new reality of attractive women appearing deep down, the universe sends me more and jacks up the intensity. Just you watch…

[MAkh]

Just caught up your journal, you’re doing well

Happy for you

[Michel]

Foundation = better results

Since Genesis: Joy has built enough of a skill set to draw from within for self worth the Wanted DreamBoi results have changed. I know Saint keeps having users to build a foundation before tackling even the easy to run subs and he’s right. How can DreamBoi function at its top level without even the basics? But that’s what’s been happening now.

I think a lot of the men reading this who want a solid grasp on life and how good it can get can benefit from some simple self worth building. This is why red pill rage was allowed to fester online, just get a bunch of traumatised boys into the online rabbit hole and they’re lost forever - unless they pull back and focus on being calm, ok and fully embodied.

I am achieving levels of chill that seems impossible even a month ago when RSD’ing my face off over a non serious mistake (but enough to brand me a misogynist). Now I can redirect my interest elsewhere that I feel deserves it, not interesting it in people that never gave a shit in the first place. That’s true power.

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DreamBoi deals less and less observed IOIs, but something else entirely. Everyday I get someone standing, sitting, floating, gathering within feet of me - for no other reason that I’m there. I’m the soft moonlight in their faces. Presumably I’m the Neptunian archetype they feel real comfortable resting in. This is next level female interest language

• Rest > comfort > more feminine expression > bonding.

Personally, I’m not chasing anymore, I don’t need to now, DreamBoi is on sight. So the next level is just to be me, let the Joy become inner ecstasy and DreamBoi be the female dream catcher.

It feels good to be me.

[ABC333]

I copy you Michel. I start Genesis Joy tomorrow. With GLM and Paragon.

[Andythegreat]

What a great stack !!!