High On My Own Supply

[Goldfinger]

@Michel what I’m going to say next is just my perspective, so take it with a grain of salt.

Every time I read your post I’m like “damn this dude is processing the script on a deep level.” Yes, this is recon.

You don’t need another sub to cultivate self love, Wanted is doing the job already. Any other self love sub will probably take you through this same recon, till you integrate it. If anything add a sub that helps you navigate through recon.

• Do something that keeps your body in slow consistent motion (eg cleaning) and be present while doing it.
• Then go back and write everything that passed through your mind while moving.
• Then read the sales copy again, @Fractal_Explorer has done a good job posting some parts. The underlying patterns behind this recon will jump out at you.
• Then all that’s left is to be patient yourself and consistent with the sub.

[Goldfinger]

@Michel

I get what you’re saying Fractal but if the stated aim of WANTED is to “be the man women chase” and I react in the manner of “no, it’s your self esteem actually”, then surely a self esteem sub would correct this in a more effective way?

You could think of it this way

You will cultivate deep self love and self esteem both for your “self” and physical form. Being chased is just the extra part of being that way.

[RVconsultant]

@Michel

Most of all tired of externalising my self worth.

This is deep!

[Michel]

Jeez, looking back at the posts above and all of your replies, maybe something really deep is about to be eliminated. Your keeping me accountable which I don’t know how to thank you all for.

I have an idea of what the monster in the closet is:

It inherently feels “wrong” to develop my own sense of self, as if doing so is disagreeing with my inherent “badness”. Developing self worth feels like I’m being a “traitor” to the “superior” people who prescribed my worth in the first place. I must appeal to and please the “superior” people to get a sense of approval and hope that I get it, instead of “illegally” claiming independent self esteem.

This is all childhood narcissistic stuff. Who was in charge of my self esteem? A woman. My mother.

So this is why it hits so hard, a painful neverending search for approval when the “illegal” shortcut is easier. I’ll give WANTED another cycle and see where this ends up, but this is gut wrenchingly hard.

[RVconsultant]

@Michel

looking back at the posts above and all of your replies, maybe something really deep is about to be eliminated. Your keeping me accountable which I don’t know how to thank you all for.

You are welcome. Remember, you are the one taking the steps on the journey of your path. I’m just someone who is some times off to the side of your path with an occasional comment, which may or may not be relevant.

[Michel]

3 days later:

I’ve given Wanted DreamBoi a spin for the past few days, knowing that New WANTED totally exposed my motivations for listening - for the validation and approval of everyone, especially women.

This feels a lot like the Genesis Joy title in that I can just have fun, feel chilled and just BE MYSELF in my own skin. The attention from others just feels weird to me, like “why are you leaning towards me?” “Why are you stepping aside for me?” “You’ve sat comfortably for a while next to me, why?”. Men more than women.

Maybe I’m telling myself the truth in that I really do not want a relationship at all - the last one completely fucked me up, couldn’t be me comfortably without a ton of projecting and accusations. So DreamBoi has got me so comfortable and cosy that I do not want anyone entering my life to fuck me up again.

Speaking of which, would I feel guilty for playing Genesis Joy for the hell of it?

[Michel]

The monster in the closet - the mother wound.

So it confirmed to me that the mother rejection wound was something I was carrying for a very long time and it’s affecting all relationships, especially with women. That’s what made WANTED such a difficult sub. It was picking at the original wound, the deepest most painful wound there is and I couldn’t face it. How could I ever open up and be myself when the one person who should have accepted me couldn’t? I was trying to complete the circuit with all other women and failing.

I did something about it by using hypnosis to clear the mother wound, shook off the trauma energy for 15 minutes, then felt an inner peace like never before. The old emotions left me and I felt ok enough to return to WANTED. The chasing approval was because of the mother wound, now that’s cleared, I’ll see what the sub can do for me now. Gotta admit, I do prefer the DreamBoi sub more.

[Michel]

Overdosed on WANTED today but damn I feel so calm it is unbelievable. A year ago I was shaking so badly from a toxic relationship that threatened to end my spirit. Now I’m like the wise sage wandering the streets with a zen calm.

With WANTED back on the menu I don’t think about “setting out to get a woman” because that just means forgoing and abandoning yourself for that all important tasty morsels of female approval.

But I’m more than capable of flirting on sight, which is what happened at the art store - this time a tall rebellious raven chick with a direct confidence that would normally scare some men - but not me and that made her more attractive in my eyes and it seemed mutual. She gave several longing and tasty glances before serving me. I made a joke about 9 and 12oz being “heavier”…

So, I’m still not “looking for” anything but I’ll definitely want to develop that quiet manly swagger on this sub, physical shifting and so on. My attitude remains Take it or leave it, I don’t give a shit.

[Michel]

WANTED is not easy at all, don’t believe the hype.

I think I’ve successfully conquered the difficult roadblock of validation and approval as I got both sorted through energy healing and I can now truly say I’m over it. This is a pattern of at least 40 years, gone. For what it’s worth I do feel much lighter within, without the need to convince or cajole anyone in to changing their mind about me. I can separate myself off from others opinion of me.

As I’ve found in all of my past journals, the first realisation to be uncovered was the phrase "give love to get love is bullshit", then it was clear “give love” is an extremely deep, early conditioning pattern that couldn’t just go away without help, until now. It’s (hopefully) melted away and now it feels good. I am not giving my energy away. I’m relaxed either way.

I’m now testing a WANTED full loop as a dare to find more root issues - however I won’t find any as deep as that again. As to it’s effects, feeling so full within, a little more sexy in attitude and mysterious within.

[Michel]

@SaintSovereign

WANTED alone is powerful, but if you can accurately determine your personal archetype and then build a stack that enhances it, you’re now giving off a very authentic aura that naturally leads others to warm up to you.

I cannot accurately determine your archetype for you, since I only get to see one tiny little facet of you – what you express here. But many of you may have a hard time expressing WANTED’s goals alone and should consider adding something that’s very authentic to you in the stack to modify WANTED’s goals.

Let’s try Chosen + WANTED…

[Michel]

Chosen + Wanted is the master key.

Within two days this combo has changed me.

I am that guy.

Not only do I feel great, I walk slowly and act like a celebrity. I don’t mind the stares now, I welcome the attention. What? You haven’t seen a celebrity before?

Confidence through the roof, through my own self approval, not that of others. Calm, main character energy.

When it comes to women, it’s the exact same reaction almost everywhere with at least some interaction - she gets nervous and fidgety with a smile and doe like eyes. They look like I hit them with a 4000w floodlight.

I swear having returned to a crystal shop the same young woman who served me has had a complete makeover and she looked great. Could be a total coincidence though… Best thing is the complete non neediness - I could make her evening a great one, but I choose not to.

I couldn’t get the bastard sub to function for 3 cycles, but Chosen unlocked it in two days? What gives?

[heartmadeiron]

@Michel

I couldn’t get the bastard sub to function for 3 cycles, but Chosen unlocked it in two days? What gives?

Bloom effect?

[Michel]

It’s unusual for 3 cycles of any sub to produce little results (more external than internal) and I’m still using WANTED, so it’s more of what Saint suggested - Wanted working better with an archetype that fits in mind.

I’ve also switched from Name Embed to store version too, so maybe without the additional module more of Wanted can shine.

All speculation of course, but who cares as long as it works?

[heartmadeiron]

@Michel

All speculation of course, but who cares as long as it works?

That’s been my philosophy since day one. The ride’s more fun when I don’t know how it works.

[Michel]

Chosen/Wanted stacked is the power duo.

Finally getting to grips with WANTED, adding Chosen has helped me embody a certain powerful yet classy demeanour, without changing anything about me at all. I feel full within and I’m walking around like some sort of ethereal guru, yet other people are looking at me like they’ve seen a celebrity Even so, the sub has me so convinced I am thinking of splashing out on designer clothes. Safe to say this is my archetype that works best with WANTED.

Noticing regular subtle looks from women, even times where women applied makeup, clearly coupled women sat opposite or next to me, even blatantly doing low passes. The difference this time round is women’s attention no longer feeds me - I’m already full from self work.

I’m even considering picking up Limitless: Polyglot to remind me of the massive achievement of speaking near fluent French and forgetting it like it was no big deal. I must big myself up more and treat myself like a big deal, because the shit I’ve been through, I deserve it.

[heartmadeiron]

@Michel

Even so, the sub has me so convinced I am thinking of splashing out on designer clothes.

Style scripting at work. This weas my favorite part of new wanted.

[Michel]

The things I’m attributing to Chosen seem to actually be from WANTED, like the royal aura, inner sexiness, wanting to dress up, unhurried stance and the push-pull. Also self-care is taking root - today was a chill in the café and wander moment. No-one else, just me. I’m going to see if I can upgrade my wardrobe on a budget. That may well be the future - riches coming my way, abundance and deservedness, like my whole status got upgraded.

Today’s Wanted report:

It feels weird to be desired - but those are the blocks yet to uncover. I guess if you listen to titles called Chosen and WANTED, what else did I expect? But still… Whilst about, a young, rich woman walked past me by the docks and for a brief second she melted and gave me a look of "if only I had you right now", and I definitely would have, she looked sensual yet classy.

[Michel]

Blimey, 100 posts already…

Wanted and the confidence conundrum

Right now I am experiencing a Wanted self confidence boost, it seems real this time and I know why… Beliefs that popped up at the start of my subliminal journey have returned to be challenged:

"How dare you think well of yourself, who the fuck do you think you are?"
" You think you’re a big man now?"
“You were never loyal to this family” (Mafia vibes here)
“How dare you be better than mum and dad”
“How dare you want more out of your life?” You think you’re better than us?"

I knew my parents didn’t know what to make of me. But instead of trying their best, they chose to cut me down before I could realise the emotional control were putting me under. They’re my parents, they were “right”.

But Wanted seem to love challenging this childhood prison and start saying “so fucking what”.
What would happen if I just thought:

"I am the shiznit"

Would I be beaten, exiled, abandoned again for daring to challenge the gods?

Not anymore.

Because those that beat me, exiled me, mocked and abandoned me - are dead.

It’s now safe to come out of the wardrobe.

And women do see me. I’m getting lingering eyes and looks of lust, accepting it and deciding to experiment with it. How bloody dare I…

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EDIT:
Once again the results are still coming in thick, usually when I’m so serene and chill

• a blonde woman with headphones could not keep her eyes off me.
• My art store regulars were keen and happy to chat. Twice today I decided to just poke fun at their setup and they loved it. Both are blonde.
• I’m easing into being more flirty.

[Michel]

Wanted is straight up sorcery.

Awkward situations happen when travelling. Imagine you’re minding your business when something catches my eye to the right. All I saw for a second was a woman stood up, head turned away from her man, giving me “that” look. Then I realised something profound.

I am actually powerful.

No-one should have that much power 🫣

How does it feel to literally turn heads?

How does it actually feel to have women indulge themselves whilst tilting their heads and give you that inviting longing stare? When I can comfortably embody the push/pull archetype without shame or pretense?

This is for real. I get so frustrated with these subliminal programs as they initially give small results before hitting a brick wall so thick that I could never break down. Not one program ever gave me maximum results within a month or two. But I think this is the real deal.

I’m in uncharted waters.

[MAkh]

Ah yeah, the brick wall feeling is so real

It takes a lot resilience, discipline and self awareness to keep pushing through I think

Probably another thing is faith. Faith that these subliminals work. But I think that comes with experience on them