I was swinging between the states of Imma go and curse saint on the forum and I will go and apologize.
Now I am in the state of cursing, but since I came out of recon a lot these days, I noticed it was due to the recon. So that is why I am thinking about extending rest days.
As I said I am in crazy recon mode now and intense anger.
So spare me
First of all, sorry
Second, I have an opinion and most likely I am wrong. The self-improvement and Growth path has a lot of resistance to it, and resistance on energy or mental levels can be misery (recon) which can lead to crazy behaviors. And this company and this forum is THE most intimate place where people share their Growth path. Imagine going to therapist, I read here that co-founders said we are not your therapists which is totally legit, but I’ve seen you guys behaving in a very CAREful way towards those who spend sometime here.
But it is good to not look it as a burden/responsibility but as a behavior which you may do it or not.
My point is that there may be sometimes which people have recon and intense anger which will make them say(in forum’s case) crazy things even if they received their final warning.
It there was not @SaintSovereign or @Fire ‘s sparing, I should have been banned this time. But thanks to them.
Honestly I did some crazy thing in the external world, I slapped someone with a rifle in his hand so hard that he fell on the ground. The beating intensity was mot from recon but what started it was recon. So yeah those behaviors was my fault.
You guys have done a lot of good and thank you.(I am having recon now)But I think forgiveness in this forum would be great, and this does not mean sparing someone like hermit, cuz you obviously know that his motives are evil.
The FINAL reason I got banned was not that mean text I wrote to saint but posting the support questions as a distinct topic, since I did not want the Brandon’s thread to get derailed with irrelevant responses.
But I got banned. Anyways.
Recon hit me hard to the point I could not maintain a journal, let alone exercising and training my will routines.
Regarding my support ticket; I just can ask the question but I cannot specify the answers from agents. So I wanna ask from you to answer my questions as much as possible, if you pay attention to the text it does not contain as much questions as it seems, most questions are redundant and interrelated.
Another matter regarding therapy thing, I don’t there is any other better therapy than subliminals out there. Subclub is therapy but just 1000 times faster than a therapist.
But I suggest sth like counseling, like which subs who should use and going a bit deep in their goals. I have seen saint done it sometimes like talking about personality types etc. but an organized approach won’t hurt. Like when I share my concern with WANTED’s mischievousness’s effect on my goal such as being the president of a country(I read about Mao being somewhat coquettish but is that what wanted gives you), a friendly and empathetic approach would help me very much quickly.
There is a LOT to say
But I will stop here