Hi everyone, my name’s Matthew and I’m not from the US or any English-speaking country, so forgive any grammatical error of mine.
I started walking to the journey of self-healing almost three years ago, and while I wished for it to be quick, I’m happy that I finally acknowledged something was wrong so I researched how can I improve my life.
Back in 2016, I was depressed, rejected and barely studied for exams. I was aimless in my life in that moment. Finished my first year in Middle school and then left school for two years.
Although the two years were relaxed, I could now wake up at the hour I usually wanted, but always woke up early. That’s when I had my ups and downs. Sometimes was sad, others relaxed, others happy.
So in 2016-2017 I found online mantras, some worked, others not so much. Didn’t change my life much.
In 2017 my brother also left school and spent a whole year with him in the house. Although I wasn’t homeschooled, this helped my father to get economically stable again.
In late 2018 I started again my education in Middle school, now 2 years older from everyone, 15 years…
However, my last year was absolutely better than in 2016. I changed and somehow matured more than usual. But I was blind to the fact that I was like a “nice guy”.
I was shy and made some friends, in December everything was awesome, I was in a major school play and made more friends as I showed more confidence in this.
In November I found for the first time subliminal audios. Didn’t really tried them until late December.
After the ups and downs, the tips or results really never appeared. I tried to improve my social life even more.
Months and months of changing subliminals all the time, wasn’t until July when I tried to use them for 3 months.
In August from this year, started again my last year in middle-school now with people near my age. But while I was searching for a good subliminal producer, found in a random video someone recommending this page. So I found it, and bought unaware a supercharger. A week later then bought Emperor ( It wasn’t until now I realized it’s one hell of a sub to start with) During all September used it and saw some big changes, mainly in business-like. I even wanted to work with my father in his own company and leave school! But he wanted me to stay. Now in October I bought a few days ago Ascension and now listen to it instead of Emperor, which feels it’s working even faster. I’m saving Emperor for the moment when my brother and I start our own cryptomining company as soon as I am 18 years old.
That was my story and how I got here, must say I’m really impressed with how these audios are made, absolutely love the ultrasonic ones.
So, one thing is bothering now it’s that I have only one bad habit I want to change, which is porn and masturbation. I reached two weeks but the arousal is really intense and don’t know how to deal with them urges. And now with Ascension I feel like it’s the perfect moment to kick this habit away. Can you guys help me in how to deal with these urges? Don’t want to offend anyone, but feel that the NoFap communities aren’t really helpful, they repeat the same tips.
Thanks y’all for reading and look forward to both healing and to be in this community. Cheers!