So this morning I listened to a 30 seconds microloop.
2 nights ago I slept better, but last night had nightmares, so my intuition said to me to listen today in the morning, as it seems that low levels of testosterone might cause my lack of sleep too.
I’m also a very spiritual person, and I have been through a big spiritual development during the last years. So last night I had a nightmare where the spirit of my mother was tormenting me (I don’t talk to my mother, and I’m going through a huge battle with her). It looked like her spirit was needy of me, and I was just telling her to go away and leave me alone! When I woke up I was still feeling afraid, so I had to get up during the night.
In the morning, about the job test, even though they said my performance was very good, they said the position has been filled by another person, but they had another position they wanted me to fill (which is for something I don’t like to do). I said I was not interested, and the guy tried to insist like if they were needy. I said “NO, NO, NO”!
But anyway I got really annoyed with that outcome, because once again, my performance was very good, but it seems like I never get what is mine by right! Life is being totally unfair to me!
I had much more energy today to do things I wanted to do, but were always being delayed.
I felt full of rage against all the injustices that have been made to me during the last year, and started to take action to claim my throne! The main action is that I’m packing my bags to go abroad and look for a job! Many companies already said to me they won’t consider me nor thinking I’m serious when I say I will relocate for a job, so packing the bags is to show everyone and myself that I’m talking serious!
Of course I still have to organize a few more things before leaving the country, but packing the bags is the action that most represents my will, and the bags will be prepared while I organize the rest of the things.
I listened to Rocky songs all day!
I noticed also that today, lots of unknown people disrespected me on the streets (I don’t know why, because last time I did the 30 seconds microloop I didn’t see any of this), but I immediately put them in their places. For example, a man didn’t let me pass (and they have to) on a pedestrian crossing, and I said “Thank you” loud and in a sarcastic and authoritative way, and he was considering fighting back, but he quit when he saw my face. Normally in my city, if I would give out to someone because of something like this, the person would immediately challenge me for a physical fight, but now these animals just run away.
Today, maybe I overdid it due to the high volume of the loop, so I’ll try to listen to a lower volume next time, or decrease the loop duration to less than 30 seconds.
Also I have a question: should I exclude the break days from the 21 cycle days?
Thanks