Many good advice has been given.
I understand where you’re coming from. I also dealt with a lot in my life; thing is at my saddest moments I realized I had to be on MY side no matter what, otherwise it will be an even more uphill battle than it already is.
As for subs, all subs here are intended to improve your life in various ways. No matter what you use, the intent behind it is it’s a tool to add in your toolbox to assist you in your journey through life.
Many of the titles here worked for me. Some gelled better than others, I find it depends on my own personality and what my strongest and inner most aspirations are.
I would have also recommended Chosen, because with it I felt not only the world being kinder but myself as well. I felt people saw me in the best of light, and saw myself in that way also.
However, seeing that it’s not the best time to make additional purchases, I’d simply recommend for you to stay consistent with the titles you already have and just let them do their work on the inside while you do your work on the outside.
Just let them be, and when something truly doesn’t gel after a reasonable amount of time, try something else.
If someone spoke to me like I spoke with myself at my lowest moments I’d feel angry all the time. I don’t deserve that kind of disrespect from anyone, and I realize I’m not honoring myself by accepting such words even from me.
Regardless of my circumstance or what’s happening in my external world, I must be on my side.
It’s the bare minimum that I could do to keep me going. It’s that little gas in the tank that no matter what, it will never run out because I control it.
In the realm of my mind I am king. I’m becoming better than I was and on my way to becoming the best version of myself.
I’m using these tools to keep it that way.
What I’m saying is that I realized I’m only here once, and I owe it to myself to stay in my corner because no one will be there 100 percent of the time, just me.
I wish you well friend. Stay strong, be kind to yourself and again stay on your side. It’s hard, but only you can do it. You’re the main event of your own show, your stage is yours and you have to be your biggest fan.