@sei Imagine your fear of abandonment as a heavy, old coat you’ve been carrying around for years. It’s familiar, and you think it protects you from the cold winds of rejection. But in reality, this coat is weighing you down, restricting your movements, and keeping you from fully embracing life’s warmth.
Now, picture yourself standing at the edge of a beautiful, sun-drenched meadow. To enter and enjoy its beauty, you must shed that heavy coat. At first, the idea of letting go feels terrifying – after all, you’ve worn it for so long. But as you slowly slip it off your shoulders, you begin to feel lighter, freer.
With each step into the meadow, you realize the sun’s warmth is far more comforting than your old coat ever was. The gentle breeze caresses your skin, reminding you of all the sensations you’ve been missing. You start to see that by clinging to your fear, you were actually abandoning yourself – denying yourself the chance to fully experience love, connection, and joy.
In this meadow of possibilities, you’re not alone. There are others here, basking in the sunlight, ready to connect. Your fear of abandonment was a barrier, but now, without its weight, you’re open to forming genuine, nurturing relationships.
Remember, letting go of that coat doesn’t mean you’ll never feel cold again. But it does mean you’re brave enough to trust in your own resilience, to believe in the warmth of human connection, and to embrace the full spectrum of life’s experiences – both the sunny days and the occasional chill.
I get recon on cognitive enhancement titles as well and I think I figured out why, it’s kinda similar to yours. Power, I want to prove myself. I often imagine myself as being the most intelligent and brilliant guy in the world and I constantly want to prove myself to others, but reality says otherwise. IF I was, let’s say, the most intelligent in my friend group (or in a group of people I meet/met), I would be so arrogant and cocky. Sometimes I will think what other people/friends might start thinking of me, ex. why does he always have to be right?.
Haven’t yet discovered a way to deal with it. Limiting beliefs? Sure. But I think there’s more.
Saint.
I honestly dont think its that, thats just a by-product of things.
I dont have much faith in myself, feel undeserving in every way, shape and form.
I feel that happiness should not come my way. I havent given enough to the world to warrant it.
I havent helped enough, I havent given happiness enough.
I am a waste of space.
As noted, I have no money, barely enough to get through this period.
Additional help isnt possible… I have to survive until things change.
It is as it is.
Yes it is as it is.
Life is grey not black and white.
Sunshine follows Rain, enjoy the rain and you will love the sunshine even more.
Be happy with what is and what may come could be more happiness.
I understand you sei but as a young man I reinvented my outlook and made a deep change in how the man in the mirror acted.
I see a man who needs to change and live each day in a more joyful day as unfortunately you sound like bill Murray in groundhog day right now.
I understand how tough it can feel when you’re constantly swimming upstream. But think about the salmon—they swim upstream not because it’s easy, they do it because it’s necessary for their survival and growth. They embrace this journey because it’s part of their nature.
Your journey is similar, about reaching a place where you can thrive.
These subliminals are designed to respect your free will, which means they won’t force change upon you. For them to be effective, you need to consciously decide that you can change. If there’s an aspect of your life you want to change, it’s crucial to make that choice and believe in it. The subliminals will support you once you’ve made that decision.
Even if it feels like it’s too late, it’s important to know that change is always possible. Keep pushing forward, and know that you’re stronger than you think. You’re not alone—there’s always help available when you need it! 
Most of my life is gone, and I have to care for 2 elderly people. All movement is made with that in mind.
You are a blessing, act like your blessed enjoy this learning opportunity.
I have also done similar for one grandparent who has passed I wish now I enjoyed those moments more than I did as at times I let the dark thoughts rise.
I will message you privately as I have a lot of personal experience to relay.
I recognise the kind of self-talk I’ve seen in your posts. I have had a large number of events in my life that also seemed on the surface to be an indication of a solely external problem.
Yet, one valid perspective is that we all live in an interconnected universe, where actions that are taken upon us are not taken upon us as some passive object or billiard ball. We react to the actions of others, and they react to our (re)action, in a long causal chain. The process of self observation is how we take responsibility and ownership of our lives.
That sounds abstract, so I’ll give a few examples.
My first employer was an angry, bitter man for whom everything was a fight to get what he thought was rightfully his. He would swear at representatives of the business’ partner companies in all upper case in emails, and made a female work experience student cry by chewing her out, in an event that came very close to workplace bullying and harassment. Real piece of work. When all three of his employees ended up quitting at the same time, myself included, he put all of his assets into his wifes name and declared bankruptcy rather than pay out to the Fair Work Commission all of the legally due superannuation he had refused to pay his employees, believing that bankruptcy would prove him with a way to one up the commission.
Another person involved in my life drank heavily and abused his partner, would smoke marijuana and then become paranoid and call the cops on other people, at one stage actually telling them someone had stolen the cone-piece from his bong, much to the hilarity of the officers. He was also paradoxically a practicing Buddhist and believed himself to be a high level practitioner. When I started manifesting abilities during a devotional practice I did, he first started literally worshipping my feet and bowing to me, then when I did not respond, became incredibly angry one night after a trivial accident. I found myself in fear of my life and rather than stand up for myself, this precipitated a six month long period of hostel hopping and living a life of hardship and abject poverty while still working for a large government department, all the while getting angry that no-one where I worked seemed willing to do anything to help me. Then I ended up coming back to live at the same place on the understanding the guy was gone or reformed, which he wasn’t, to do the whole thing again.
If I were to look at these and other hardships I experienced on a surface level, it would be easy to say that people were out to get me, looking for easy prey to get what they want. I could look at these folk, another manager who made a backroom deal for his friend to take my job away from me, and so on, and say yeah, there’s a lot of shitty people out there, and I just seem to be cursed, blah blah blah. But you need to look at your own actions as well, and the root cause of your actions.
A key event for me turned out to be one in my childhood where not explaining or speaking out to family about what I was doing to improve my life ended up resulting in a beating, which was then not called out by the other parent. As I examined the structure of this event and compared it to others, I found that the key similarity was the not speaking out, the keeping silent about bad behavior becoming an excuse for the other people to perceive me as weak or useless, or someone they could walk over.
Here, my own actions repeated in a pattern caused events to unfold the way they did. Had I spoken truth to power and called out bad behavior or false statements when I encountered it, things would have gone differently. But violence I encountered from a very young age which I was powerless against at the time, created a pattern of action where flight from bad behavior rather than fighting it was the way of coping.
This was a very difficult realisation, and one that I’m still learning to turn in the opposite direction. I could have chosen to blame it all on others or external forces and disown my own responsibility in the situation, like the statements you have made on several posts. To start turning things around for myself, I had to confront these things. You can start to do this yourself as well, by examining all of these situations of seeming abandonment and your actions. Go back as far as you need to in your life to find the cause. Usually you’ll find it in childhood, during the years our habitual patterns are formed.
To do it successfully, you need the courage to confront things at a deep level rather than peeking through blinders over the eyes.
I have noted this before… I dont think or do things in esoteric ways.
black and white… I talk this way, I think this way, 60 years of doing this…
This is how I do things… I dont read stories… I only read facts…
you can all say this is wrong… and I know you will.
“I don’t read stories”?
Wow, that’s condescending.
Look at all the advice of the people who have tried to help you on this thread. It’s all stuff you could choose to take on board to help you move forward.
“I don’t think or do things in esoteric ways”.
You say that by not defining what the word esoteric means to you in way, other than to be condescending to others who have beliefs you consider “esoteric”.
Do you think that your negative attitude might be part of why others choose to stay away from you? Because you can change that attitude. Your choice.
“I can only show you the door Neo. You’re the one who has to walk through it:”.
I thought that was straightforward… I dont read non-fiction… only fiction… facts.
that is how and why in the past I have been employed… because I get stuff done, based on facts.
everyone is always judging me for being me… please stop it.
Because you’ve made the part of the problem as “you”.
You think it’s your identity.
And when someone points it out, you think they are going against you, instead of your problems.
They are separate.
That’s the fact.
Now it’s your choice as a factual man to explore the facts.
A factual man doesn’t only choose facts that fit his narratives while excluding the facts that don’t. They explore & experiment to uncover the real facts.
This will be my last comment on the thread, because I choose to use my time and energy in ways that are actually appreciated by others.
You responded to a post I made directly where I was using stories (real facts recounted in the past tense as a way of illustrating a truth), to demonstrate one way that you could approach the repeating patterns that you were and are directly complaining about. You responded to that post with the words “I dont read stories… I only read facts”.
When I pointed out the clear dismissal which you have also displayed to others, you tried to claim your words meant something else.
Here’s a fact for you: other peoples experiences and stories are facts. So no, I won’t “stop it”. I won’t not point out a truth just to make someone feel good. That doesn’t make it judgement. It makes it pointing out the bleedingly obvious, that the emperor has no clothes.
Take people’s advice or don’t take it, but for God’s sake stop complaining and start acting!
Good post here, and an excellent example of digging deep and finding the cause, as @emperor_obewan puts it.
"It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness; that is life.”
- Jean Luc Picard
I will write this but expect nothing buy hammering in return…
Twice in my life did I see someone… spent thousands (when I had money) and they said nothing was wrong, and that seeing someone was a waste of time.
I have tried what I have tried, psych tests and the like… but no understanding other than I am a cross between a ENTP and ENTJ, a very small subset of society… loners…
When I have tried to understand, i dont know where to go, have no direction, and dont understand this all. I have prayed and prayed but to no avail… as that is all I have.
YOU said do things, I am… but I have no idea of what is inside… I have tried to look… but I see nothing.
only disgust in myself… if you cannot look after those you love when they grow old, you are not worthy of living.
All in all, over 30yrs of trying to understand… and I have no idea… I just know failure…
as you said, results… no results ever, to change the status quo… I make decisions, or try for myself, typically they end up not being the right ones, after planning and planning… I ask for help from others… and they end of also not being the right decisions… I cant remember a real win that I played part in.
An endless circle of trying and failure.
@sei did you ever felt an urge to buy a certain product after seeing a commercial?
Subliminal titles where dealing here refers to visual and auditory information delivered below the conscious mind.
The word “subliminal” comes from Latin, where “limen” means threshold. In simple terms, it refers to things that are below the level of your conscious awareness. For instance, when you’re at a grocery store and a music played with a hidden message like “buy lemon juice” , after wards you might suddenly want to buy lemon juice.
Our brain can be selective though and determine which information will be process first. Subliminal stimuli may capture attention subconsciously.
A subliminal message is a message that is not consciously processed by the brain, but still yields a reaction.
Subliminal messages work by suggesting a behavior or action that a person is not aware of.
Subliminal messages stop working when You stop being subtle. As soon as it becomes obvious, the brain stops only perceiving them and starts processing them. Subliminal messages can vary in their form of transmission.
So the concept of subliminal influence is based on the idea of perception. When you are influenced, you are provided with a perception to either agree or disagree with something.
In what we are and given the choices, the unconscious prefers the positive, favors the attractive, values nonverbal cues, and may select the irrational.
How these ‘messages’ are delivered (transmission) to our subconscious is important.
I get the result/s when I totally ignored the subliminal - I just listened and often times I miss out lots of listening schedule.
I remembered things and sometimes forget - things that you don’t hold interest with, you will forget about them. So when you learned to forget about having nothing, you’ll be at peace then you’ll start having opportunities from nowhere.
Don’t get so desperate on doing multiple loop listening to the titles (it will only make it worst).
When I get mad I go to the gym, I had a kicking bag and send every blow that I can think of to release all the the tension that I had. This will send oxygen to your brain which is also beneficial.
Just listened, carefree. Don’t mind the day as if you had everything even though you lack a lot.
I know how hard it is to manifest lots of money when you don’t even have something in your pocket. But if you allow you mind to be at peace you are allowing yourself to receive opportunities from nowhere.
Practice gratitude, good diet, and a good night sleep.
Bro can you start studying about copywriting.
It’s basically just writing like how you talk to people with just certain tips and tricks to improve the quality.
If you can write scripts for youtube videos, they are in very high demand for decent writers with proper english.
You can go on YouTube and look at any video like how to write scripts for youtube.
Then immediately start writing scripts for any topic that you can.
If you have 2 or 3 scripts for 8 minute videos which are slightly above average, you can sell them for about 70-150$ per script.
Depending on quality the prices changes.
If you have such scripts you can cold email any youtube channel in that niche and just directly sell it.
I know people who do it and they have shitty english. You actually have a head-start because you english is solid.
Just have to understand certain nuances from youtube and immediately start writing based on what topics you like?
Heck you can even write about your failures from a third person perspective. As long as it’s interesting, you can sell the script for good money.
its hard to practice gratitude when you have almost no money for food… and I miss meals… so then sleeping is hard…as I am worried about stuff.