Hello guys. I’ve been using Emp4 these last couple of days, and it’s challenging; a good challenge truthfully. I’d begun with Ascension back in Dec. 2018, stacked it with various stacking subs and other major programs. Kahn came on, and due to its potential and its healing capabilities, I jumped on early. In June and July of this year, my mom took a turn for the worse, and I sought old emotional norms. I returned to another vendor’s emotional healing sub and did well on it throughout this, as she passed in July. I’d been using another sub there as well, which led me back here.
I’m in a new spot, but maybe not. Emp4 has New Beginnings in it, and Saint said it’d focus on one’s deepest fears. As I’ve written, I’ve stopped. Thought. Wrote. Erased. Again and again. NB is checking my fronts I put on so commonly, and I’m GRATEFUL for this. Hiding is a game with no end in sight, creating fears of discovery constantly, so noone wins. Fuck that. I want to be me.
I grew up without a father and with an alcoholic mom. I felt unloved much of my life, though in years past, this was “normal”. I was married for 10 years, having divorced in 2014. Me having not dated nor approached any girls since then is evidence to me that…I need to love myself first. I’d been on that never-ending habit of 12 step groups, counselors, and therapists up to 2 years ago, but since finding effective subliminals, I’ve used only them. I grew comfortable in my previous cycles. 
Subliminals have really changed the direction of my life.
I chose Emp4 since I’d begun with Emp3 just weeks back with no reconcilliation at all. I chose it due to the Extreme Independence in it, among many other things. The positive self talk was my main draw to it, and finding out a sigma male wasn’t domineering (from the Emp4 hype thread) inspired me.
I’ll admit I did have it running all morning yesterday on ultrasonic, and my anger was ignited when some punk at work disrespcted me. I have all the reasons to cower (this guy was in a Fed penn for 15 years), but I’ll tell him to fuck off today if he wants to be an asshole. I was imagining all these bad outcomes of me standing up to him yesterday, so at lunchtime I traded Emp4 with Sanguine, and it shifted me. 
Nice.
I’m heading out of town to see my daughter and ex 24 hours from now, so I’m a little nervous–mainly due to the sub. I’ll likely run Emp4 a little less today, as I wish to control myself and not spit up on my 14yo daughter. I’ve done it once, and it was bad (before SC).
So, that’s where I’m at currently. I’ll share more about my Emp4 experiences regularly. (And Emp4 is changing my “motivations”, I see. I used to just write—so others would talk to me. I still desire that, but my temptation to lie (put on a mask) is challenged. Good stuff
@SaintSovereign or @Fire: I originally thought I’d mix Emp4 with Regeneration. I’ve not put it on since I wanted to see how prominent and effective NB is. I’m seeing it. But… I’m doubting myself. I’ll keep just Emp running for now. I’ve noticed a LOT of self doubt surfacing; I think it’s good that it’s being dug up alongside the positive affirmtions.
