Day 7 Yesterday I went to the supermarket to buy some food, and I realized… How fucking toxic my pick-up mindset was and Why I felt Unfree walking around.
Before I had this thing that something in my head told me to approach every hot girl. Yet, I did not want to approach every single hot girl. So it created resistance whenever I walked outside. When I had a girlfriend, I had this thing that I should mass approach, yet nothing in me wanted to do it.
After the meditation yesterday, I realized how free you can feel walking around. How at home in your body, how relaxed you can be.
As I walked around, the old habit popped up once. But I just asked myself, is this a girl I want to approach… Nope, I Sent some love her way and kept walking.
I’m not going to let fear stop me from approaching girls I want to. But I’m also not going to approach just to approach.
My value is not based on how many approaches I do, How much lays I have, or how much money. I am worthy as I am, and so are you.
Just by holding space for the feminine to express itself, I let the feminine truly shine forth.
I also have a goal now of reaching 85 kg. I reached my goal of 75 kg after a long time. Now I’m 192, so 75 is not much, but I feel amazing. (Before, my weight was only 62 kg. I was a skinny little dude.
And I have also quit nicotine, now one of the most challenging habits to stop ever. There’s a great book about it that changed everything. So if you want to quit, I really recommend you to read Allen Carr. Easy way to stop smoking. It talks about the illusion of Nicotine.
It’s also funny one of the girls I have been texting with, I have been telling her everything that society sees as unattractive like I’m broke, Live at home atm. And all it does is to make her more interested lol.
It reminds me of when I was out and I met one of my old co workers who I had a bit of a crush on. She asked me how I’m doing and I was like I’m broke feels like my business is going nowhere but honestly I feel amazing. And she just sat next to me. Now she had kids and a husband but she was completely uninterested in me before. So was a really cool experience.
Anyway I’m about to meditate.
Have a fantastic day I know I will.