God is for the Steadfast - Journal

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#13

Now that I think about it, running KBBC1 could be a huge reason for the recon I’m currently having.

Running KBBC 1 and 2 was such a painful process for me last year, but I didn’t realize that it would still be painful when revisited even after running KBBC4 for months straight.

I feel stuck, I feel unappreciated, I feel like I don’t want to do anything for myself and my growth anymore. I’m fed up. I just want to eat, smoke weed and cum all day. I’m doing my best to push through this but fuck it’s hard, and with subs it feels like I’m spinning my tires while my money goes to waste on customs. What’s the fucking point of this shit anyway?

#14

Khan Black: Stage 4 Core
Heartsong Core
Love Bomb Core
Daredevil Core

Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver
Total Nonchalance
You Are Not Alone

Song of Joy (can be replaced because of Daredevil) Alternative: Virtue Series: Dilligence
Story Teller (can be replaced with Daredevil in stack) - Alternative: Virtue Series: Temperance
Eagle Eye
Enchanting Smile

Moment Immortalized
Stop Porn and Masturbation
Gratitude Embodiment
Hegemon

Extreme Exercise Motivation
Deep Sleep
Stonelike
Dance Mastery

Kbbc4
HS core
DD core

Apollon unbound
Divine dominion
Energetic transcrndance
At the top

Secrets of seduction
Inescapable gaze
Machine totslity
Iron law

Preordained vitality
Primordial aura
Tale of the dragon
Synergy with gloryseeker/lifeblood fable
Synergy with the wonder

You’re not alone
Enchanting smile
Hegemon
Stop porn

Synergy wisdom of the ages

#15

What about taking 2 weeks away from listening to any and all subs?

#16

How’s Synergy: Primordial Aura so far?

#17

These are plans, haven’t actually pulled the trigger yet

#18

Some more planning before I pull the trigger:

Cores:
KBBC4
Heartsong Core
Daredevil or Love Bomb Core (maybe both, who knows - leanin towards Daredevil, but it would be a risk versus LB, which I’m familiar with)

  1. Synergy: Apollon Unbound
  • Apollon
  • Physicality Shifter – Sexiness
  • Sexiness Unbound
  1. Synergy: Divine Dominion
  • Divine Will
  • Jupiter
  • Yggdrasil
  • Current Invoker
  • Dominion
  • Tyrant
  1. Synergy: Energetic Transcendence
  • Energetic Development XI
  • The Architect
  • Metamorphosis
  • Energetic Restoration
  • Energetic Augmentation
  1. Synergy: At The Top
  • Lion IV
  • Alpha Body Language
  • Total Nonchalance
  • Rogue
  1. Synergy: Secrets of Seduction
  • Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver
  • Instant Seducing Tactician
  1. Synergy: Inescapable Gaze
  • Eagle Eye
  • Awakened Perception
  • All Seeing
  • Seducers Gaze
  1. Synergy: Machine Totality
  • Deep Sleep
  • Machine: Rest
  • Machine: Action
  1. Synergy: Iron Law
  • Steadfast
  • Iron Frame
  • Stonelike
  1. Synergy: Preordained Vitality
  • Asclepius
  • Serum X
  • Fusion Optimized
  • Health Codex
  • Radiating Health
  1. Synergy: Primordial Aura
  • Sphaera Magnetica
  • Entranced
  • Temptation
  • Aura of Craving
  • Direct Influencing Aura
  1. Synergy: Tale of the Dragon
  • Dragon Tongue
  • True Sell
  • Song of Joy
  • Story Teller
  1. Synergy: Glory Incarnate
  • Gloryseeker
  • The Spotlight
  • Lifeblood Fable
  1. Synergy: Wonders of Life
  • Spiritual Freedom
  • The Wonder
  1. Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
  • Wisdom Personified
  • Mimisbrunnr
  • Pragya
  • Wayfinder

You Are Not Alone
Enchanting Smile
Hegemon
Stop Porn & Masturbation

So I’m at 21/22 modules, depending on whether or not I go for both DD & LB or just 1 and not the other.

To reduce the density of this absurd custom, I think some smart ideas would include replacing Synergy: Machine Totality for just Deep Sleep and replacing Synergy: Glory Incarnate for just Lifeblood Fable to bring the synergy modules down to 12.

I think what I ultimately need to decide, is which to get rid of out of Hegemon, Synergy: Primordial Aura & Synergy: Apollon Unbound. I’m also tempted to add APS: Head/Face into this mix because the physical shifting benefits cover much more than Apollon.

With Synergy: At The Top covering calmness and poise in interaction, Synergy: Secrets of Seduction taking care of the actual act of flirting and Synergy: Inescapable Gaze ensuring that I don’t miss the opportunities, I think adding both Primordial Aura and Apollon Unbound is overkill.

I think I’d be better off taking Hegemon and APS: Head/Face, and using just Daredevil or Love Bomb as the 3rd core.

Wait a second, I just had a great idea: Love Bomb and Daredevil, and I get rid of Synergy: Tale of the Dragon because it would be redundant with Daredevil in the mix. Less Song of Joy, more Storyteller is a good combo for me.

So final plan for now:

KBBC4
Heartsong Core
Daredevil Core
Love Bomb Core

  1. Synergy: APS: Head/Face
  • APS: Head
  • Facial Morphing
  1. Synergy: Divine Dominion
  • Divine Will
  • Jupiter
  • Yggdrasil
  • Current Invoker
  • Dominion
  • Tyrant
  1. Synergy: Energetic Transcendence
  • Energetic Development XI
  • The Architect
  • Metamorphosis
  • Energetic Restoration
  • Energetic Augmentation
  1. Synergy: At The Top
  • Lion IV
  • Alpha Body Language
  • Total Nonchalance
  • Rogue
  1. Synergy: Secrets of Seduction
  • Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver
  • Instant Seducing Tactician
  1. Synergy: Inescapable Gaze
  • Eagle Eye
  • Awakened Perception
  • All Seeing
  • Seducers Gaze
  1. Synergy: Iron Law
  • Steadfast
  • Iron Frame
  • Stonelike
  1. Synergy: Preordained Vitality
  • Asclepius
  • Serum X
  • Fusion Optimized
  • Health Codex
  • Radiating Health
  1. Synergy: Wonders of Life
  • Spiritual Freedom
  • The Wonder
  1. Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
  • Wisdom Personified
  • Mimisbrunnr
  • Pragya
  • Wayfinder

You Are Not Alone
Enchanting Smile
Hegemon
Stop Porn & Masturbation
Deep Sleep
Lifeblood Fable

Looks like a healthy balance to me. Dense, thorough but with specific modules meant to reduce and aid recon should it arrive, considering how much recon I’ve been in lately.

#19

That would be a good idea, but it feels like I’ve been taking so many breaks lately so I’m tired of taking a break. I may genuinely need one though, but we’ll see.

It depends on how this next cycle goes, because my shit has been a complete mess lately. Ultimately though, my idea is to run my KBBC4/HS custom for good. I’ve been debating whether or not to stop my QTKS death custom of Emperor, Will to Power, QL4, Chosen with NWE and replace it with Stark Black, because I’ve been curious about the effect of Stark Black and I want to chill on fucking around with customs for a bit, especially with the new Synergy stuff making it too tempting for me to continue to run my now dated QTKS custom.

I think the biggest mistake with that custom was adding QL4 into it, because I completely forgot how fucking dense that sub was so now the result is that the custom is excessively heavy. It would have worked better with Limitless IMO, but even just taking it out completely and running Emperor/W2P/Chosen with NWE would be a fantastic combo. With the Synergy modules I could now add intellect modules that I didn’t have the space for in the past.

Again, this just makes me so tempted to buy 2 new customs which I think is a stupid use of money and part of why I want to just try Stark Black for the next 2 months and see how that goes. It also gives SubClub time to FINALLY UPDATE CHOSEN PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

So the Agape custom, Stark Black and a 3rd slot that I’ve been fucking around with for no reason. Last week I threw Sanguine in there for a couple of loops, it was non-eventful.

This weekend I used Diamond as my 3rd sub, and that shit was so fucking amazing (shoutout to @enigma12, I now understand why you were so addicted to that sub lol). Who knows what I’ll use next weekend, my 3rd slot has just been a fuck-around-for-the-weekend slot lmao

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#20

Enlightening moment.

I take even the slightest bit of negativity towards me personally and set myself out on these revenge quests, and I let these tiny minuscule affronts to my ego take up the bulk of my mental and emotional energy. Why is my sense of self so fucking inflated that I feel the need to try to absolutely obliterate any individual that even so much as breathes on me in the wrong way?

Hurt people hurt people. By thriving I put hurt people in a position where they feel that the only thing they could do is drag me down. Why should I even give them that power or energy? It’s either them or me, and I made myself suffer for the sake of others for too long when I was younger. But I still have this small-minded mentality, because a part of me still sees myself at that low level or else I wouldn’t stoop to that level.

Quarrels with people like that (specifically one individual at my workplace) is beneath me I need to treat it as such, because it should not be a concern for me; the games of peasants aren’t suitable for kings.

I believe this realization is a direct by-product of Stark Black. This realization is priming me for the inevitable growth I shall experience with ASBR, because these types of “attacks” always happen to people of higher standing. That’s just the way it is, you need haters; as banal and basic as that may sound, it is the truth.

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#21

ASBR is making me reflect, and making me realize the sheer amount of envy and jealousy that is around me at the workplace. It’s exponentially more since my single loop of ASBR, which is absolutely wild to me.

The negatives are felt so much quicker than the positive effects, it’s clear that I’m in over my head if I continue with this subliminal.

My 2nd last gasp at salvaging a stack without making a pair of new customs: let’s try new Limitless and see how it goes.

#22

Bruh I forgot about the no fame version of Stark Black smfh :joy:

#23

If I were to redo the QTKS custom, I’d do it like this:

Emperor Core
Chosen Core
Will to Power Core
NWE Core

  1. Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
  • Wisdom Personified
  • Mimisbrunnr
  • Pragya
  • Wayfinder
  1. Synergy: Divine Dominion
  • Divine Will
  • Jupiter
  • Yggdrasil
  • Current Invoker
  • Dominion
  • Tyrant
  1. Synergy: 42
  • Wheel of Creation
  • Void of Creation
  1. Synergy: Breath of the Storms
  • Foundation
  • Eye of the Storm
  1. Synergy: Carpe Vitam
  • Carpe Diem Ascended
  • Joie De Vivre
  • Unrelenting Wealth Motivation & Energy
  1. Synergy: Harmonic Conflux
  • Harmonic Singularity
  • Stress Displacement
  1. Synergy: Machine Totality
  • Deep Sleep
  • Machine: Rest
  • Machine: Action
  1. Synergy: Master of the World
  • Mastermind
  • The Lines
  • Submodel Alpha
  1. Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
  • Merger of Worlds
  • Information Releaser
  1. Synergy: The Golden One
  • Wealth Limit Destroyer
  • Positive Being Attractor – Wealth
  • Financial Success Reality Shifter
  • Secret Source
  • Secrets of Akasha – Wealth
  • Debt Annihilator
  • Sultan
  1. Synergy: Winner Overdrive
  • Natural Winner
  • Overdrive
  1. Job Seeker
  2. Dopaminergic Revival
  3. Ebon Manuever
  4. Lifeblood Fable
  5. Victory’s Call
#24

There could be an effect of stone-walling at play. I’m not feeling any difference when it comes to running Stark Black at the moment, as odd as that may sound. I don’t feel a fucking thing.

Who knows, maybe I’ll realize the effects in retrospect but for now, I’ve got nothing. I can only say that my week at work has been excessively busy compared to usual, and I guess I’m feeling a bit more confident lately but that’s really all there is to it.

My 2nd loop of Diamond was a fail, I basically had a ruined orgasm within like 30 seconds - so I was able to continue fucking because I was barely hard enough, but I didn’t enjoy it.

Agape is still doing what it’s always done, but I feel like it’s time to change that sub up a bit for something else soon. Once I get my new glasses, pay off my tax bills and make some more payments towards the useless shit I’ve bought, then I’ll go ahead and pull the trigger on that new synergy custom I’ve been planning on.

To be quite honest though, my instinct is telling me to abandon ship and pause all subs for an extended washout, so that I could then restart Genesis and see where that takes me. Genesis was initially a disappointment for me but in retrospect, its use led me towards the creation of Eudaemonia, which to me is the greatest title I ever ran. Nothing beat Eudaimonia in terms of its effect that it had on me, and it might even be worth running again with some updated modules.

This is Eudaimonia:

Chosen
Love Bomb for Humanity
Sex & Seduction

Modules:
Cosmic Navigator
Subconscious Flow
Direct Influencing Aura
Total Nonchalance

Gloryseeker
Ebon Manuever
Power Talk
Enchanting Smile

Sexual Manifestation
Lifeblood Fable
You Are Not Alone
Stonelike

Song of Joy
Story Teller
Gentleman’s Speech
Jupiter
Gratitude Embodiment

Now if I updated it with Synergy:
Chosen
Love Bomb for Humanity
Sex & Seduction

Cosmic Navigator
Subconscious Flow
Direct Influencing Aura > Primordial Aura

Total Nonchalance > At The Top

Gloryseeker
Lifeblood Fable > Glory Incarnate

Ebon Manuever
Power Talk
Enchanting Smile

Sexual Manifestation > Perfection Manifestation

You Are Not Alone

Stonelike > Iron Law

Song of Joy
Story Teller > Tale of the Dragon

Jupiter > Divine Dominion

Gentleman’s Speech
Gratitude Embodiment

18 modules, with space for 2 more modules. If I were to go with the theme of Eudaimonia, those 2 modules would be Wonders of Life and Deep Sleep, but I believe Wisdom of the Ages, Secrets of Seduction or Preordained Vitality could work in this title as well, depending on the cores chosen.

To keep the Eudaimonia theme, the only real change could be something like LBFH for LB, and S&S could just be taken out entirely or replaced with KBBC4 or Sanguine.

Regardless, I’m not sure if this would work with my current goals with my stack. It’s hard to say, but it would be nice to transport back to that time, a simpler time definitely.

#25

“God is for the steadfast.”

And I’m at a place where the sub I’m enjoying the most right now is Diamond because it makes me fuck like a pornstar.

I thought I fucked like a pornstar before, but clearly I was wrong. I’m literally pumping doggy style for 45 minutes straight, and in a girl who actually has ass. I also have 100% control over cumming, which is an incredible feeling. I love the way my heart begins to race when I’m on Diamond, it actually reminds me a bit of Emperor Black funnily enough.

God is for the steadfast, and here I am drowning in desire, distracted from my real goals.

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#26

New custom is here, essentially looks exactly like this but with Apollon Unbound instead of APS: Head/Face and Dance Mastery instead of Stop Porn & Masturbation.

So I’m happy about this custom, because I get to finally try out these new synergy modules and see if they’re streamlined and not super dense, or if it’s just adding a shitload of modules that ultimately makes the custom dense and insufferable to even try to run.

10 synergy modules, we don’t fuck around here. We’ve got Wonders of Life and Energetic Transcendance in here, along with KBBC4 and LB as cores so if I get energy zapped or am stuck in recon hell I’ll know that synergy really isn’t the way to go ultimately.

I like that I’ll still maintain the HS element in my stack, but without NRE the whole custom isn’t going to be tailored for that so it gives me room to express modules differently. Then again, I’m also concerned that the custom won’t execute as well without the NSE core script because my experience so far has been that an NSE custom without the NSE core script just doesn’t hit as well as the OG ZP2 customs.

Feels like running the store subs is the way to go, but I’ll decide once and for all once I’ve ran this sub for as long as I need to.

I am really excited to see the Daredevil element in this sub, combining with Love Bomb and HS could be very interesting. I’m calling it “Suavemente” because it just gives me those vibes:

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#27

I feel like the biggest problem I have with the new NSE subs (at least their custom versions) is that I don’t get that notable trailer effect from the first loop, like I did with ZP2. That trailer effect is truly an inspirational feature that pushes me to go deeper with the sub, and without it it kinda feels like the Q experience all over again where I basically have to retroactively look at my progress to determine whether or not something’s happened.

The positive is that it encourages less stack switching, but the negative is that if you don’t identify the issues with a specific sub you end up just running it for awhile not realizing that you’re spinning your tires.

This experience hasn’t been felt at all with the NSE store title, only the customs.

#28

Suavamente, besame:notes:

Casual conversation is inevitable. Embrace it or forever regret it.

The wisdom of the ages is really working the way I wanted it to. It’s making me contemplate my approach to love and the pursuit of a partner.

I can also feel the synergy between HS, DD and LB doing its thing. LB’s effect is truly instantaneous, but I’m still waiting for DD’s insight to build further within me. I want to stick to DD in my stack for awhile, I don’t see myself dropping that anytime soon. I’m currently running Stark Black on top of this, so I’m hoping that the special DD insight can get expedited as a result.

Speaking of which, Stark Black is going well. I can still feel some envy from others even with the no fame version, but it’s still working wonders without making me into a total clown like Stark. I feel the intellect and innovation scripting slowly doing its thing as well. Again, when it comes to NSE I don’t get my instant crack hit the way ZP2 would, but I’m confident in its inevitable growth with time.

I can also say that the synergy modules have been feeling good so far. It has only been a bit over 1 week, but I’m being responsible and patient by running smaller loops and going for less loops per week.

Feels like things are finally starting to stabilize for me once again, after quite a bit of turmoil and dissonance from the subliminal side of things. Love Bomb could definitely be playing a massive part in that.

#29

Thought about Cognitive Chosen as being the next way to go when it comes to my main archetype custom.

The DD/ASBR combo is potent, so making a Chosen+W2P custom for my career and general archetype seems like an interesting prospect.

Chosen Core
Will to Power Core
NWE Core

  1. Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
  • Wisdom Personified
  • Mimisbrunnr
  • Pragya
  • Wayfinder
  1. Synergy: Divine Dominion
  • Divine Will
  • Jupiter
  • Yggdrasil
  • Current Invoker
  • Dominion
  • Tyrant
  1. Synergy: 42
  • Wheel of Creation
  • Void of Creation
  1. Synergy: Breath of the Storms
  • Foundation
  • Eye of the Storm
  1. Synergy: Carpe Vitam
  • Carpe Diem Ascended
  • Joie De Vivre
  • Unrelenting Wealth Motivation & Energy
  1. Synergy: Harmonic Conflux
  • Harmonic Singularity
  • Stress Displacement
  1. Synergy: Machine Totality
  • Deep Sleep
  • Machine: Rest
  • Machine: Action
  1. Synergy: Master of the World
  • Mastermind
  • The Lines
  • Submodel Alpha
  1. Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
  • Merger of Worlds
  • Information Releaser
  1. Synergy: The Golden One
  • Wealth Limit Destroyer
  • Positive Being Attractor – Wealth
  • Financial Success Reality Shifter
  • Secret Source
  • Secrets of Akasha – Wealth
  • Debt Annihilator
  • Sultan
  1. Gentleman’s Speech
  2. Job Seeker
  3. Dopaminergic Revival
  4. Ebon Manuever
  5. Lifeblood Fable
  6. Victory’s Call
  7. APS: Head
#30

Enjoying crypto so far. Made some wins, made some losses, seems like overall my total portfolio right now is at a bit over 75% above what it was a few months ago which is an amazing return.

Of course, I’m aiming above 1000% so still a long ways to go but progress is progress and to be quite honest, we are in the very infancy of the next crypto bull run. I see myself this time next year with that secured.

I guess when it comes to my life plan, my 3 year plan hasn’t really been concretized yet. I’m basically 6 weeks away from the end of my 3 year plan and I’ve reached the goals I’ve aimed for myself. I want to aim big for my next 3 year plan but a part of me is hesitant, scared of failure.

I’ve been plagued by this fear of failure, this fear of rejection and what I believe is the ghost of my father haunting me, critiquing my every move because of the lack of perfection. My fucked up perception of love as a result of my childhood, is critique and so this negative self-talk is almost a comfortable place for me. It’s as though I do my best when the expectations aren’t there; I falter when I’m the favorite, but I thrive as the underdog.

I want to fix this, absolutely, completely, entirely, one and for all. I am done. The first 3 year plan was about the foundation, how to build from rock bottom. The next 3 year plan is what I’m scared of, because this is when the risks come in and when i finally begin the monster push to the next level.

What do you perceive to be the next level?

I want to say the materialism, the money, and what not but to be honest, that’s all bullshit. I need to do it for the love of life, for the passion I have for the human experience. Finding this is the next major key for my life.

I am really enjoying Suavemente lol. Wonders of Life is a beautiful module, Wisdom of the Ages is incredible as well. I highly recommend those two for anyone wondering, I truly feel that they are the 2 modules most responsible for my positive experience so far.

#31

Need more direction but more importantly, I need to decide and commit to a plan for my future.

#32

No need to dick down anymore, bringing EOG1 back into the stack to get my priorities straight.

Still looking for a plan for my future, still in space at the moment. All I know, is that I want to leave this country and start something new elsewhere.

How? I don’t know, we will see.