ASBR is making me reflect, and making me realize the sheer amount of envy and jealousy that is around me at the workplace. It’s exponentially more since my single loop of ASBR, which is absolutely wild to me.
The negatives are felt so much quicker than the positive effects, it’s clear that I’m in over my head if I continue with this subliminal.
My 2nd last gasp at salvaging a stack without making a pair of new customs: let’s try new Limitless and see how it goes.
Bruh I forgot about the no fame version of Stark Black smfh 
If I were to redo the QTKS custom, I’d do it like this:
Emperor Core
Chosen Core
Will to Power Core
NWE Core
There could be an effect of stone-walling at play. I’m not feeling any difference when it comes to running Stark Black at the moment, as odd as that may sound. I don’t feel a fucking thing.
Who knows, maybe I’ll realize the effects in retrospect but for now, I’ve got nothing. I can only say that my week at work has been excessively busy compared to usual, and I guess I’m feeling a bit more confident lately but that’s really all there is to it.
My 2nd loop of Diamond was a fail, I basically had a ruined orgasm within like 30 seconds - so I was able to continue fucking because I was barely hard enough, but I didn’t enjoy it.
Agape is still doing what it’s always done, but I feel like it’s time to change that sub up a bit for something else soon. Once I get my new glasses, pay off my tax bills and make some more payments towards the useless shit I’ve bought, then I’ll go ahead and pull the trigger on that new synergy custom I’ve been planning on.
To be quite honest though, my instinct is telling me to abandon ship and pause all subs for an extended washout, so that I could then restart Genesis and see where that takes me. Genesis was initially a disappointment for me but in retrospect, its use led me towards the creation of Eudaemonia, which to me is the greatest title I ever ran. Nothing beat Eudaimonia in terms of its effect that it had on me, and it might even be worth running again with some updated modules.
This is Eudaimonia:
Chosen
Love Bomb for Humanity
Sex & Seduction
Modules:
Cosmic Navigator
Subconscious Flow
Direct Influencing Aura
Total Nonchalance
Gloryseeker
Ebon Manuever
Power Talk
Enchanting Smile
Sexual Manifestation
Lifeblood Fable
You Are Not Alone
Stonelike
Song of Joy
Story Teller
Gentleman’s Speech
Jupiter
Gratitude Embodiment
Now if I updated it with Synergy:
Chosen
Love Bomb for Humanity
Sex & Seduction
Cosmic Navigator
Subconscious Flow
Direct Influencing Aura > Primordial Aura
Total Nonchalance > At The Top
Gloryseeker
Lifeblood Fable > Glory Incarnate
Ebon Manuever
Power Talk
Enchanting Smile
Sexual Manifestation > Perfection Manifestation
You Are Not Alone
Stonelike > Iron Law
Song of Joy
Story Teller > Tale of the Dragon
Jupiter > Divine Dominion
Gentleman’s Speech
Gratitude Embodiment
18 modules, with space for 2 more modules. If I were to go with the theme of Eudaimonia, those 2 modules would be Wonders of Life and Deep Sleep, but I believe Wisdom of the Ages, Secrets of Seduction or Preordained Vitality could work in this title as well, depending on the cores chosen.
To keep the Eudaimonia theme, the only real change could be something like LBFH for LB, and S&S could just be taken out entirely or replaced with KBBC4 or Sanguine.
Regardless, I’m not sure if this would work with my current goals with my stack. It’s hard to say, but it would be nice to transport back to that time, a simpler time definitely.
“God is for the steadfast.”
And I’m at a place where the sub I’m enjoying the most right now is Diamond because it makes me fuck like a pornstar.
I thought I fucked like a pornstar before, but clearly I was wrong. I’m literally pumping doggy style for 45 minutes straight, and in a girl who actually has ass. I also have 100% control over cumming, which is an incredible feeling. I love the way my heart begins to race when I’m on Diamond, it actually reminds me a bit of Emperor Black funnily enough.
God is for the steadfast, and here I am drowning in desire, distracted from my real goals.
New custom is here, essentially looks exactly like this but with Apollon Unbound instead of APS: Head/Face and Dance Mastery instead of Stop Porn & Masturbation.
So I’m happy about this custom, because I get to finally try out these new synergy modules and see if they’re streamlined and not super dense, or if it’s just adding a shitload of modules that ultimately makes the custom dense and insufferable to even try to run.
10 synergy modules, we don’t fuck around here. We’ve got Wonders of Life and Energetic Transcendance in here, along with KBBC4 and LB as cores so if I get energy zapped or am stuck in recon hell I’ll know that synergy really isn’t the way to go ultimately.
I like that I’ll still maintain the HS element in my stack, but without NRE the whole custom isn’t going to be tailored for that so it gives me room to express modules differently. Then again, I’m also concerned that the custom won’t execute as well without the NSE core script because my experience so far has been that an NSE custom without the NSE core script just doesn’t hit as well as the OG ZP2 customs.
Feels like running the store subs is the way to go, but I’ll decide once and for all once I’ve ran this sub for as long as I need to.
I am really excited to see the Daredevil element in this sub, combining with Love Bomb and HS could be very interesting. I’m calling it “Suavemente” because it just gives me those vibes:
I feel like the biggest problem I have with the new NSE subs (at least their custom versions) is that I don’t get that notable trailer effect from the first loop, like I did with ZP2. That trailer effect is truly an inspirational feature that pushes me to go deeper with the sub, and without it it kinda feels like the Q experience all over again where I basically have to retroactively look at my progress to determine whether or not something’s happened.
The positive is that it encourages less stack switching, but the negative is that if you don’t identify the issues with a specific sub you end up just running it for awhile not realizing that you’re spinning your tires.
This experience hasn’t been felt at all with the NSE store title, only the customs.
Suavamente, besame
Casual conversation is inevitable. Embrace it or forever regret it.
The wisdom of the ages is really working the way I wanted it to. It’s making me contemplate my approach to love and the pursuit of a partner.
I can also feel the synergy between HS, DD and LB doing its thing. LB’s effect is truly instantaneous, but I’m still waiting for DD’s insight to build further within me. I want to stick to DD in my stack for awhile, I don’t see myself dropping that anytime soon. I’m currently running Stark Black on top of this, so I’m hoping that the special DD insight can get expedited as a result.
Speaking of which, Stark Black is going well. I can still feel some envy from others even with the no fame version, but it’s still working wonders without making me into a total clown like Stark. I feel the intellect and innovation scripting slowly doing its thing as well. Again, when it comes to NSE I don’t get my instant crack hit the way ZP2 would, but I’m confident in its inevitable growth with time.
I can also say that the synergy modules have been feeling good so far. It has only been a bit over 1 week, but I’m being responsible and patient by running smaller loops and going for less loops per week.
Feels like things are finally starting to stabilize for me once again, after quite a bit of turmoil and dissonance from the subliminal side of things. Love Bomb could definitely be playing a massive part in that.
Thought about Cognitive Chosen as being the next way to go when it comes to my main archetype custom.
The DD/ASBR combo is potent, so making a Chosen+W2P custom for my career and general archetype seems like an interesting prospect.
Chosen Core
Will to Power Core
NWE Core
Enjoying crypto so far. Made some wins, made some losses, seems like overall my total portfolio right now is at a bit over 75% above what it was a few months ago which is an amazing return.
Of course, I’m aiming above 1000% so still a long ways to go but progress is progress and to be quite honest, we are in the very infancy of the next crypto bull run. I see myself this time next year with that secured.
I guess when it comes to my life plan, my 3 year plan hasn’t really been concretized yet. I’m basically 6 weeks away from the end of my 3 year plan and I’ve reached the goals I’ve aimed for myself. I want to aim big for my next 3 year plan but a part of me is hesitant, scared of failure.
I’ve been plagued by this fear of failure, this fear of rejection and what I believe is the ghost of my father haunting me, critiquing my every move because of the lack of perfection. My fucked up perception of love as a result of my childhood, is critique and so this negative self-talk is almost a comfortable place for me. It’s as though I do my best when the expectations aren’t there; I falter when I’m the favorite, but I thrive as the underdog.
I want to fix this, absolutely, completely, entirely, one and for all. I am done. The first 3 year plan was about the foundation, how to build from rock bottom. The next 3 year plan is what I’m scared of, because this is when the risks come in and when i finally begin the monster push to the next level.
What do you perceive to be the next level?
I want to say the materialism, the money, and what not but to be honest, that’s all bullshit. I need to do it for the love of life, for the passion I have for the human experience. Finding this is the next major key for my life.
I am really enjoying Suavemente lol. Wonders of Life is a beautiful module, Wisdom of the Ages is incredible as well. I highly recommend those two for anyone wondering, I truly feel that they are the 2 modules most responsible for my positive experience so far.
Need more direction but more importantly, I need to decide and commit to a plan for my future.
No need to dick down anymore, bringing EOG1 back into the stack to get my priorities straight.
Still looking for a plan for my future, still in space at the moment. All I know, is that I want to leave this country and start something new elsewhere.
How? I don’t know, we will see.
Browsing FB Marketplace, and stumbled upon my longtime ex.
Reminds me of the old times, the nice moments, the bad moments, the beautiful highs and the miserable lows.
Feels bittersweet; there was something beautiful there, but I’m happy I’m not in that situation anymore. Still, it’s just a shame.
There’s a bit of a clash with my new boss, who seems to be very concerned with “affirming his authority” at moments. I understand his position but it can be a bit annoying.
With that said, while I am definitely enjoying ASBR I feel like its time for me to retire it soon. I am currently broke as fuck and I know for a fact that Stark Black has something to do with that, so I’m ready to pull the trigger on a new custom for my upcoming birthday.
So what do I want out of this custom? A career focus, a wealth focus but unlike my previous career subs I want this one to also include positivity and general goodness. Combining that with Suavemente is going to ultimately lead to greater overall life satisfaction, which is ultimately what I want. Eudaimonia, the greatest sub of all-time, gave me that, so this is the goal I’m trying tor create now with my stack overall.
Getting complimented on my dancing and rhythm for the first time in my life…
So this confirms that Dance Mastery X works LOL
Suavemente feels like the perfect sub for me to run, I am so happy to have it in my stack. It fits my personality perfectly and allows me to be authentically me, and be loved for it.
Currently, the only issue with my stack is Stark Black, which has began to run its course. It’s a brilliant sub, but it is a little redundant in some aspects, and detrimental in others. As is tradition, Stark Black (like its sibling) has made me fucking broke so I need to chill, by buying a custom (fuck you Stark, so much )
What do I want? A new custom. Basically, all I want is more of Suavemente with less energetic focus and greater career focus. So let’s brainstorm:
Chosen, Will to Power and NWE seem like no-brainers to me. The social intellect of W2P with the positive leadership of Chosen, synchronized through the growth of wealth and career through the NWE is exactly what I’m looking for. The ultimate question however, is whether or not I need a wealth-focused core. Innovation and structure is very important for my current job role, so Nouveau RICH seems like the perfect piece to add to the equation. Ièd prefer something crypto or healing focused, like an updated EOG1 or RICH Crypto but ultimately we shall see.
Chosen, W2P, NRICH & NWE.
What are my blind spots that need to be addressed, to aid in achieving the goals that this title would strive towards?
Intellect. Productivity. Health.
Good to brainstorm this for later.
I’ve got it.
My next 3 year plan.
I am fulfilled again. I have purpose again. I am happy once more.
I need to start a new life. I’m done here.
My first 3 year plan was the foundation. Only a few weeks before the end of the 3 year plan now , the most successful accomplishment of my adult life. I am proud of myself, genuinely. It’s basically the first thing I’ve ever done solely for myself in my entire life, and I did it, I stayed true to myself. Wow. I am happy.
My next 3 year plan begins, and it is one where I will be able to see myself in the end, in a new place, a new world, a new paradigm for a new life.
Going module shopping, and came across Semper Praesens.
Seems like a perfect addition to a v2 Suavemente. Having that, replacing Lifeblood Fable with Synergy: Glory Incarnate and getting rid of a module would be required, and that would be tough. It would have to be sacrificing Deep Sleep, but that could only work if my new custom fits me perfectly, and that will take months to determine.
I need to just remember not to make the same mistake I did with Eudaimonia/Phronesis; Eudaimonia was perfect, I made Phronesis and a v2 of Eudaimonia to try and mix with a custom because Phronesis couldn’t do the trick, and it ultimately led to me fucking up Eudaimonia and then doing a 3 week washout. So instead of making 2 customs in close proximity, I made and tested Suavemente with great results and now I’ll look towards the other side.
So instead, the better move is to get this career custom going, building it with the idea in mind that it will be a mainstay, and then once that gets set to stone I’ll make a v2 of Suavemente.
My module list:
Chosen
W2P
NRICH
NWE
Nomad
New Marketweaver
Job Seeker
APS: Head
Synergy: 42
Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
Synergy: Master of the World
Synergy: Harmonic Conflux
Synergy: Inescapable Gaze
Synergy: Breath of the Storms
Synergy: Winner Overdrive
Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
Synergy: The Golden One
Synergy: One Above All
Synergy: Machine Totality
Synergy: Carpe Vitam
Edit: Realize that I need to make space for Book Blitz/Reading Mastery.
How many cores do you have in there?
Chosen
W2P
NRICH
NWE