Friday 9:35am
1 loop - Custom, 3 mins
1 loop - LBH, 3 mins
Getting some low level recon from LBH but also I was very extroverted yesterday, went to buy work shoes for new job. I was quite chatty and positive, enthusiastic I’d say. Built rapport with sales guy, found out his brother in law lives a road over by me and this store is an hour drive south of me.
Then later went to barber for haircut and I was open, talkative, friendly and even flirtatious. I had everyone in the barbers attention without even trying. Just very receptive to others.
Recon wise, Internally I was questioning my value. I recognized also how much I like to give to those around me, time, energy, compassion, advice, presence ect. I seem to fulfill myself through being of service which is interesting. I’ve spent decades bitter and isolating from all the hurt I’ve carried in my youth, while thinking that was who I am. Now since running Dragon Reborn, finding and going through neurofeedback, building Masculinity and using LBH…I’m beginning to uncover my real self, my real values. Authenticity is starting to express itself.
I’m hovering around 137/138lbs now. I’m a little bit more consistent in exercising but much less overall exercises. I was doing 7 to 8 different types of bodywork/weights, now I do about 3 or 4 but more often. I’m starting to think EF will be needed to build a consistent plan but LotS is working. Extreme Exercise Motivation, idk…I have the module but maybe my mind hasn’t gotten to it yet. Or maybe my expectation of what I thought I’d experience is off.
My facial hair, I basically have full goatee and neck growth, but a chinstrap cheek area, but I’m noticing maybe 20% more growth above the chinstrap line so I’m considering minoxidil but I’m not fully convinced. I just want these areas to grow in and I’ll be set. But I do see minor improvement just off LotS.
I’ve been counting calories the past 6 weeks and it’s been good. It was crazy how many excess calories I was consuming in the past let alone how much we actually need to eat. VS: Temperance is a real gem. I don’t think my lifestyle lately would be possible without its effects. I’m much more moderate in everything I do. I think more before acting. Impulsivity is way, way down. Appetite is funny, some days I don’t even want to eat. Shopping is becoming more selective/discerning. Online browsing has decreased, I’m also less affected by advertising it seems, my first thought is cynical followed by, do I need or want this, most time I don’t need or want it.
Over time I hope to experience every module in my custom but so far I’m having great results. Some goals are happening slower than I’d like but as usual that’s on me and the choices I make each day.
Speaking of choices, I had to turn down my last job offer and for some reason I felt really bad about it. Even though the benefits were much less than the job I took, I didn’t want to run cnc machines anymore and it was farther way. It paid $2/hr more but I still turned it down. I find it odd how affected I felt by rejecting it though. I’m thinking LBH had me thinking about the situation on a deeper level or something because on the surface, it just wasn’t that great.