Sitting in the parking lot of the last job interview I have soon.
I’m feeling the “Embark on an inner journey to discover who you really are and what you want out of life.” in Ascensions objectives showing up.
I’m not just concerned with getting A job but a job that will improve my Quality of life and allow me to pursue the degree I stopped a year or 2 ago.
This job is on day shift I’m about to interview for but its a farther drive and if I break down the schedule it leaves only 4 or 5 hours before bedtime. Which, in future classes will be a challenge as they are in the evening but only once a week. This job is related to my previous jobs so less training/learning ect.
The other job I was offered is training on days until 2024 which I move to night shift, it’s a 20 min drive and has really good benefits though Health insurance is a little more $ than I like. I’d have to wait for an opening on days to switch shifts which could be an issue. The day shift hours are the same as the other job above but nights is 11p to 7a which is just very unappealing to me. This job is new to me so more unknowns and uncertainty.
I find indecision to be more intense lately however there is much more analysis and caution over making the best decision for me going forward. It’s much less fear based and more alignment with my future goals based. The hard part is I need to decide by tonight so I feel unnecessary pressure which can distract my focus a little and I’m working on subduing the emotional side of this.
After having a neurofeedback session yesterday I felt tired as hell. Slept 11 hours and today is somewhat better. I also found out that too much sugar in diet can cause one to feel mentally out of it/Cloudy thinking ect. I had binged all week on cheap sugar and now understand how that contributed to the cloud in my mind and inability to think clearly. I was chasing cheap dopamine while causing even more issues for myself. Lesson learned.
I still feel unnecessarily slow but it’s been 1 day off junk and counting. I feel that LotS is revamping me physically, the longer sleep comes and goes. I have to pay more attention to every choice I make when it comes to bed time, what I consume both physically and mentally. I will be adjusting my sleep schedule to days going forward which will need to be adapted to. Lots of changes going forward, I will focus on supporting myself versus running from life like I have been. I believe Glm and Ascension are starting to express itself in this way as I’m getting thoughts that suggest/push me into a more mature frame within my behavior.
I am curious though if Khronos Key or Yggdrasil or Tyrant can show up in a user’s life as brain fog, mentally taxing or giving surreal perceptions. I can’t pin point the exact cause of this mentally cloudiness and it could be diet, neurofeedback and subs all together. I just want mental sharpness back, being present and focused. I’ve been all over the place the past month and it’s understandable with all the sudden changes in my life but it can’t last forever and I would like to remedy this but don’t know what exactly is causing it or how to fix it. Starting a new job with a Cloudy mind and below average focus is not a good start.
I’ll probably skip tomorrow’s 3 min loop and run a loop Friday. That’s 2 loops a week, M/F at 3 mins. I really can’t say I’m over exposing. So what’s up with these effects.
