I have a tendency to run at the first sign of internal conflict. So last night when I listened to Genesis instead of my usual short loops, I let it play without a limit. I got to about 10 minutes before I felt like I couldn’t handle anymore.
I have a theory. In the moment of listening there are chances to open up deeper areas of your consciousness to influence. It’s like a gathering of parts inside you. Each listen can serve as a sort of unification to more easily communicate between each part. It’s temporary, but it’s good to take advantage of.
As I was listening I noticed this pattern. 30 seconds, a sort of swirling feeling like going up on a rollercoaster. 1 min and 30s, emotions start to arise, usually I turned it off at this point because I told myself it was overexposure for me personally. 2mins, relaxation sets in and the former emotional conflict isn’t as strong. 3 minutes, more emotions coming up. This continues until about 7 minutes. This sort of wave like feeling of things emerging and subsiding. After 7 minutes the calm returns, get a little tired, feels like I’m reaching the end of what I can process in that short span of time. So I sort of nodded off/entered more of a hypnagogic state until 10 minutes where I felt that sort of feeling where you listen to a song too many times and it starts to sound weird. In producer terms ear fatigue, you know it’s the same song you’ve been working on but it’s not conjuring up the same feelings/perception.
I’ll see if this bites me in the ass. But I’ve been suspecting for a bit now that I need more exposure, not less. Not sure how to describe it but I have to hit a threshold so internally parts are on board with each other and nobody is lagging behind. It’s not linear how the subs reaches deeper parts of the mind, so this might vary listening to listening.
To me this would explain why I do so poorly on micro loops. It’s influencing the easily influenced, but leaving behind the more challenging parts. So there’s a stronger push pull dynamic that results in recon.
All theory of course. I could be completely wrong. Hope the masterclass touches on some of these concepts a bit. I think s dynamic approach to listening time makes the most sense for me personally. Within limits, I have to be careful not to cut off exposure because of fear which is what I did in the past.