Furkan's Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#146
#147

I’m not what happened to me I am what I choose to become
-Carl Jung
When I read this sentence again I realized that I put myself in victimhood this is why I wanted to run ascension

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#148

I have this little testicular pain again and I don’t know why,i’ve read today some testicular breathing stuff maybe it could help me but I’m sickening of distracting by things like that. I don’t wanna read this stuff actually I don’t wanna spend my time on this

#149

I’ve leaned my feminine side much more than my masculine side. This is why I’m struggling to take action. I have to develop this side of me. And for this I should take action regardless what I feel.

And I wish could learn some martial arts now. I think It would too much helpful to develop my masculine side cuz I don’t know how to defend myself I don’t know how to fight.

This necessary to creation, magic,mindbog results. Probably this is my biggest shortcoming,lack of masculinity.I wish I’d run Ascension earlier

Feminine + Masculine=Creation=Subconscious + conscious

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#150

After a long time I meditated today.it was strange kinda.

Towards the end of the meditation my eyes started moving fast. (my eyes were closed)

And I see some people here writing about numbers.
I don’t if it has meaning but when I finished the meditation my timer was 11:11

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#154

I ejuclated some joi video
Why??!?! It was bad. Not worth it. I tricked my self that it is not bad as p*rn. No. I shouldn’t have done that. And urinary problem makes everything bad, harder

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I was surfing the forum.and I noticed that @Skadoosh hidden his profile. I wonder why people hidden their profile,if they hidden can’t anybody see their posts,journals except selected users? Makes me wonder

#158

He probably doesn’t want anyone to be able to text him.

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#159

you will never find me

#161

efe

#162

its kinda sad though. Newcomers won’t be able to read your journals probanly

#163

Today my listening day I listened LE in the morning

Now 2 hours to the end of the day and I have no desire to run ascension.idk?

#164

what is LE?

#165

Limitless executive

#167

danger? go for spartan or genesis :joy:

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