Sometimes life doesn’t feel fair
Still my digestive is not like what I want though I pay attention my diet and I run paragon
What do I do wrong? People likes to feel themselves that they are special but look at the under the roof, you are needy and have no energy. So you cannot get what you want because you are needy? So what then? Not wanting any fucking thing, fuck it. God should have drunken when he created this fucking world
I need to be free from p.rn I can sleep on this or I can’t pretend that it is actually okay
You are misarable so don’t want any fucking thing and beside what happen if you want, do they realize can you get them? No.
I just endure this life.
And Istanbul makes me tired especially being student at here
And yesterday I studied very well but today I’m lacking of sleep, I should be disciplined about my sleep but stayin at the dorm makes it hard but still I have to make it because it affects lots of things
I don’t want to numb myself with pmo, so I want to have sex like most of the people. And to find a girl I should be more social I need to define my problem and should solve it.
I feel that there are some blockages that keeps me from taking real actions. Especially about dating. In dating area I have zero experience and I think I have lots of inhibitions
I need to change my self, and the change is uncomfortable, n I don’t wanna look like stupid when I’m challenging myself
What are your thoughts about listening to DR: Regeneration and Paragon?
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Idk mate, rn my stack is rich WB and paragon and I want to stick to this at least for 20-30 days more.
But i have to say I’m sickened of everything. I’m exhausted things dont go as I wanted. And I feel pessimistic I need a reset, some positivity
WB is an advanced title. How is it going?
Actually at first it was giving me recon but now i dont feel anything
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I might return to Wanted after it, on wanted I think I was receiving more looks but also it was giving me recon, with my stack generally I don’t feel anything it’s like I don’t run anything.
My mind is running and runnig, it doesnt stop and i have closing exams which i need to focus on at first perido my gpa was 3.77 in this period i want to make it 4.0 but i couldnt study properly yet and how could i have done while i have lots fo things in my mind, and tired. Im in different emotions but they are not nice, and also i have to solve my situtaions with the girl i have crush on her, we have very little converations but i keep thinkig her this is not fucking nice it creates attachment my mind thinks she is my girlfriend but no this is not the reality and it creates conflicts, but today when i headed towards to classroom she aprroached to me and said good morning to me i had earbuds and didnt notice her at the first iwasnt expecting that. But this situation steals my energy and i dont know what to do i was chatting with ai about this topic but the chatting never and it goes and goes, and yeah still i need to study
At my heart i feel heaviness and my mind always creates something also iwas talking nietzsche’s philosophy with ai it was giving me soem good insights
And i need to be more social, and from the todays incident it came to that im not invisible the girl i liked but i have to be more close to her but i dont want to do this out of neediness and i dont wanna apper like one… and finally just fuck this shit
I don’t feel good, I feel like I burned out, I think about that girl constantly. But I need to study.
And so far I couldn’t see any result from paragon.
I just wanna sit and cry at somewhere but I cant do it , and I really get obsessed with that girl fuck it I feel desperate my internal state fucked up, maybe I should run regeneration instead of paragon or rich
I expected it to make my digestive better and prevent illnesses, but rn for instance I have urinary issues and I’m thinking maybe it’s side effect of paragon idk.