i feel boring
i want to write something, actually I’m not pleased that I’m writing it but anyway…
Yes, unfortunately i still have pmo addiction. Last time i hadn’t done for like 17 days and during that time i had felt quite depressed. Low libido. I’m not sayin i give up but pmo is really problematic, it’s a trap, maybe the most sinister trap ngl. And it’s not easy to get out. i have some problems too and it makes it harder.
I’m reading book about pmo issue and i hope at the end of the book ill be free. While having this issue i cannot be successful maybe others can but i cannot.
When i was doing my regular walking, i did sprinting too, it feels fuckin good. i love it. And tomorrow arm and delt day. I’m hope tomorrow will be good day. There are something too,but i should go to sleep
Back from gym, it was good, intense.
i did some arrangements. is it good or bad idk, but iv felt good.
After one set of cable lateral raise i did a few reps with dumbble immediately but i wait at the top.
it was like this I’m not gonna write all the details, but at the end of the set when i felt I’m not finished i did extra reps etc, but i see this reps not as a new set, but the extension of the first set, it’s actually against the advices that Mike mentzer gave. I’m sorry but if i feel I’m not finished im gonna do this extras idc.
when i see people in the gym posts saying “ofc if you have this genetics everything is easy bla bla”
I want to slap them hard, fucking losers. to reach your genetic potential, you should work like 7-10 years(apprx)(subs might reduc the time span,idk), you should work hard, good diet, sleep etc. (how many people do this???)
if you ask this people “have you done these”, its obviously no. but still they are complaining.
and I don’t think most people are working it right. they lack of the intensity. personally im able to workout 2times a week. no more. though im not expert im lifting weights like 10 months, i wanted to write these.
about dips… lol probably range of the motion of this excersice shorter than i thought. I went down a bit too far and ive some soreness still at my shoulders .
about fasting… yeah im ddoing like 2months maybe more, and its great its one of the best decision ive ever made(skipping breakfast), beside the physical benefits its good for the mental too. its best tool to get low bady fat and most importanly maintain this state.
sometimes i ask my self does it work? when i look myself in the gym, my abs are visible but when i look at the home its not visible, lol maybe its because of light. and i dont do abs works rn, if i do them they could be more visible, but its not im plan now.
neck pain… i have neck pain because the pillow i use, i hope i can solve it, its not good
twitter is killing me i saw a woman who claims herself as christian but at the same time she posts her bikini pics tight dresses etc and also rationalizations that this is not for the external attentions (ofc)
I’m not going to do boxing now but i thought if i have to do how can i implement to my current program?
Because i don’t want it to mess with my recovery.
my program is:
Monday-workout, 3days rest and Friday workout goes like this one day workut 3 days rest.
if i could boxing at the same day with gym day this would be best. But this could decrease performance of the upper body day. if i do this boxing on rest days then i might messed up with recovery. Don’t know.
But as i said I’m not gonna do boxing now, it’s just a thought for the future.
And i want to say, when i do random shadow boxing throughout the day i feel better, but still i have problems with my elbow when i throw the punch my elbow clicks and sometimes hurts
i completed the sprint workout, it was not exactly as i thought but still good; i was planning to do at the pitch but when i arrived the pitch i see kids which they were training, so i decided to go to gym.
i did some walking to warm up, then did 3 sprint at %50level. After the warm up i did 3 sprint at higher level but the machine has speed limit, max is 18. So i couldn’t do more, i was planning to do short sessions around 10seconds, but due to the speed, i did longer. And after this i did one set squat (squats suck), and calf raises.
Next time I’m gonna do at the pitch, and also at the en of the sprint workout the gym owner warned me that sometimes treadmill give errors and stop suddenly.
And books… I’ve still not finished book for prn issue, and also unread feeling good by David Burns, and there is one book too, idk also i have to study.
One thing more, i notice something,
in earlier(i don’t know when) i mentioned that i had knee issue and even when i walk i have pain, but know i can run, i dont have pain know, but my clicking hipjoint still give some discomfort, i should solve this too
i was relatively good mood, at least calm but i see some news that happened in türkiye, i wasnt going to look at it, but I’ve looked it, and i don’t know what to say, It really made me throw up. i was going to eat now, but i don’t want anything.
Country crashes economically, crashes in education, and in law. Also there are millions illegal immigrants i don’t know where this is going?. but i don’t feel good about it
i need to finish the book from david burns, when i read the book i realized that i have lots mental(cognitive) distortions, and probably these are my main reasons why i fail. This is reminded for my self
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i don’t know how i feel in these days, i will write some about gym.
yesterday was chest and back day. Since I’ve been doing hit( heavy intense training) the day after the workout out i have much more soreness than the old workout program. Also it’s against the recommendation of Mike mentzer but I added trap movement to my program, also i will add abs move in the leg day probably hanging leg raise and side to side knee up.
in the arm and delt day, i will make some changes too, normally i was doing superset with triceps push down and dips, but i feel that this two exercises targeted same triceps head, so I’m thinking change triceps push down with overhead cable extension so i can hit the long head. There’s also one thing i wonder how i should warm up before dips? Should i doing warm up for chest too? I’m doing weighted dips maybe a few reps of bodyweight dips might help, but also i don’t wanna do too much.
But i have bigger problems like my future, what I’m gonna do?
Fascia training is important
i woke up,i can’t do to studying or anything else, i should accept that I’m in some sort of depression for a longtime, it’s expected i live isolated life.
Also im not watchin p.rn like 12 days maybe i have withdraals from it