Furkan's Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#1020

sometimes somthings really get me off, fuck why? why i am living this life, i dont really care much about subs now, im more focusing on myself. when i read all the stuff here sales page results etc then there is expectations occuring. i dont really care now. if it helps me to get results, all right thats all. if it brings nothing thats okay i dont expect anything now. mayeb they are fine but from my viewpoint and from my experiences i overrated them. i will focus more on my manifestation skills.

actually i was going to write different thing anyway. my surrondings not good for me, i should leave them leave here immediatly. i read at somewhere that you chose your family before incernating to this world for your progression. i think its fucking bullshit. huge bullshit. sometimes i dont want to live, i dont want to live this fucking life this fucking world. im sickinig of this people

#1021

i dont want do anything

#1022

im saying to myslef keep your feet in the ground, be more realistic. what is one that realistic. everyone lives their reality beliefs. and for my reality life is not easy, life is not joyful and if there is a god out there i hate u m.fucker

#1023

i deserve this i deserve that, no you don’t, if you would have been, you would have had this things. i don’t care about that you are infinite being etc. Your life doesn’t say so.
i want that i want x, but life don’t give you what you’re not.

#1024

i ejaculated, bcs before that i felt so frustrated, I don’t feel bad or good, i wrote this because I will never write something like this here again, about masturbation or p.rn

#1025

Wow man, I read the DR: Red’s sales page, and I have to say it’s look fantastic, I didnt read gold one yet beacuse shortly afai it’s for after the Red. And Red contains all the things I wanted before bought khan.
When I was buying khan in my head there was something like this. I whis I could run this over khan. But no money lol, I don’t want to spend money on this now. But man, I haven’t read gold’s one copy but probably running this 2 subs will cover lots of area of life, like a end subs, complete subs for life. But there prices are around 260$. Idk but they looks cool

#1026

Before you buy both, I’d encourage you to have a think about it.

You may not need both.

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#1027

Lol im not going to buy both, I know I don’t need both (just red one) and I can’t even buy one of them like said I can’t afford now. Only one program is 130$.
But if I could, I would run the Red over khan

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#1028

But even if I have the money, would I buy it now? Yeah the Red one looks fantastic (didn’t read the golds copy) but I should spend my money carefully too. And I’m not gaining money too now.

#1029

Dr red looks to best sub for changing core beliefs, and it makes it so valuable

#1030

end of the cycle, washout-2, maybe i could extned to 7 days.

My stack will be same as before, but i will run khan st2 over st1(ran 3 cycles) and maybe ill run khan black st4 over st3(ran 1 cycle) and legacy of the spartan and love bomb will stay. from now on im not gonna run a stage for many cycles first iwill finish the stages 1 to 4 for one cycle, and then maybe repeat them.

today morning was different. like i was more detached from somethbing it made me little surprised. i dont know i dont care.

im thinking about DR:RED, is there a way to buy it. im not needing it now but it’d be good to have this in my arseanl, this sub looks like that is my favourite now. khan looks pale beside this

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#1034

lol ive changed my mind im not gonna do washout now iwill run new limitless and see how i respond to it maybe in my next stack i could run this too. (5 subs :grimacing:,?)
lets go :slight_smile:

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#1038

i was researching out of sudden that can what you it effect your smell? yes, obviously. i was thinking that too becuase im not using deodrant(probably only used it when i was 12-13) beacuse it seems to me not healty thing and i always thought it make your smell bad if you dont use it again. probably genetics, general hygiene, and food play roles in how to smell but what are them percentages?

#1039

I was very distracted today. Most of time went to the search for parfumes.