Maybe one of the reason i failed because i have no friends
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i back from exam, exam was easy and u was smiling before exam, lol in the soon ill start lose my sanity, negative part about exam was i couldn’t breathe properly and it was so annoying. Yeah the exam was easy but I didn’t study for it and i couldn’t complete all the questions beacuse of time and lack of knowledge at some areas like science. And there’s a one exam too at tomorrow, maybe ill work little for this.
There were other things to write in my mind but forgot,lol maybe later.
But i noticed that i started to being more sensitive over the years and more vulnerable, to people to surroundings
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i feel different now not good not bad idk. i hevent study now for the tomarrow but ill study bit. but i read something about manifetation there are some points, i didnt understand but ill ask them tomorrow i cant deal with them.
but i should arrange which books will i read, there are 1-2 books now too.
Now i feel little discouraged because of something, i will look tomorrow
i saw cute baby kid while i was walking, when I saw them i want a kid in the future lol but i got upset when i saw how she’s father treated to her
some insecurites showed up i lose my hope, i lose to beilef to that anything is possible, tomorrow will care them because i should study atleast little bit like 1 hour, but my motivation is in ground. i feel broken, but now i should be more pricesly and be fast.
i feel like something inside hold grief and crying, there are little tears in my eyes, out of sudden
i took a shower now, and looked to mirror (i was naked lol) and i was like yeah I’m looking great, smelling great and i don’t deserve where i am at the life, i deserve good things,i deserve a good school, a purpose i deserve money, i deserve a beautiful lover.
i feel like I’m challenged. i need answers. is it really time for it? i should re think something again, i feel really weak and within a minutes i will entrance anaother exam
i back from the exam, it wasn’t bad i had little regret because i didn’t study for this and saw questions even regardless people say it was hard, it was easy i solved the questions in math that i found hard early. i had little regret because if i study other topic in math little maybe i could solve it. i solved 20 math out of 40, i couldn’t solve geometry which were 10 questions and i didn’t study for integral etc i solved all the questions that i studied early.
For the other subjects, like literature, history and geography there were 40 questions for them too and i didn’t study at all for this i didn’t know the topic etc but i marked 33 out of 40 it was wild lol… Negative part about exam was again breathing proplem, it was bad, I questioned life all over again because of this,lol. i haven’t had this last year exam, but why now? i don’t understand. Anyway what i realized today that one of my problem is perfection beacuse if i had stuied regularly for the year or a little, i could very good score I’m sure if I’d studied properly i would do math easily 35+, i’d do 40/40 other area.
I’m doing disservice to my self i know i have potential but I’m wasting because my mental.
Lol thank you for reminder, but everyone has different situations, paths, I think i need to college for another chapter in my life
Yes, i know, but for years i didn’t prepare for exam properly, i couldn’t push my self and i don’t know why, I should find this but thank you for words
This song is sick
i ran limitless and limitless executive past.
what if all is lie and matrix or simulaliton whatever decives us? i dont know but i believe that we are spiritual infinite beings, what if there is no such a thing, but if we think we are spiritual beings because we want to be this true and world, matrix etc decieve us to this ? what if it trick us and we geniuenly think its there is.
will doing astral projection give ultimate truth, is there such a thing as ultimate truth.
i want complete version of myself, this why iam here in the first place.
problam is, lack of sincerly beleiveng you are worthy of and not allowing yourself to experince it
little have low back pain while sitting on the chair, back extension needed.
actually when you look gnereally i chase things, this is issue. to gain what i want, i should be more, after that succes will come