after reading something few days ago i realized that most of the people in the soceity no have moral values, character, i dont remember now why i thought like this
this is what i need looking up to stars always gives me some reliefs
because when i look the stars i think that truth, our real home is there, i feel foreign to here
lol is the solar plexus brain of the subconscious mind?
my relationship with god is not good, i think god is douchebag
i think its duty of the man to build himself, i mean if i go from physical beatuy, to be attractive, aesthetic man have to build himself while the women just have to be careful about not having excessive fat, if she eats health she is good, but same goes not for man as well. its asymetric.
while the man build himself, they(women) dont need for this if they are fat they should destroy excessive weights , but if you are man and fat you should do both destroy and build.
anabolic v catabolic. i think even this shows too much about two genders basically men should build themselves and women first should protect themselves.
im training like 5-6 months im trainig hard but when i wear my shirt the muscles are not visible i should take some weights
even if life is not hard, it’s brutal.
i think
there is a thing also about gender thing but i will write after gym
i back from gym it was legs and abs day.(also did some additional moves)
Legs moves were okay i did it good.
But abs exercises were disappointed.
i was hopeful for the day. Cable crunches i did it but i didn’t see anything efficient. i don’t know i started with 20 kg and increased to 60kg but i was not satisfied. Also did knee rasies, but same thing again
i started hate the abs moves, bodyweight exercises were more effective but still not good enough. i don’t know i will try this moves again but with more weights.
Disappointing. I’m frustrated with this
i wanna see, 6packs or 8packs
tomarrow pull day but ill start with biceps then back and rear delt and after that i will do back extension
and fucking cable crunh i have to this.
and lol today i mixed ice cream with protein powder and its tasty but i dont know if its safe to use protein powder with this and i shoul measure my calories i will buy a food scale. i dont know how much protein i take or calorie. but i eat good for 2-3 days, can it increas my body fat lol i dont know but i should gain mass, but im not gonna something like bull excessive eating, its not for me
Something felt me weak today i hope i can solve and overcome this.
if look to my life, like there is no progression.
i can’t really get benefits from sub or it’s very small i cant see but i can’t see any difference in my life. And one of the things that hinder my progression is pmo, I’m not in easy situation and I’m making my life more hard with pmo
Found myself beautiful at the gym, it’s shame that I’m in this situation I’m looking in the mirror and no.
Breathing issue still continuening, i thought that yeah it’s hardening my job beacuse it’s high effort thing but can it hard at sex too(I haven’t had sex yet) i don’t know but best thing i can do learning how to use sub mind and utilize it
i did it and no need more weights.
good contraction, improved from the day before. but I have to get used to it. Some thoughts occured in my mind during gym. Not good things it happens like this but passes away after gym
What is the truth, meaning of the life? Will doing astral projection get me closer to truth? Can i stop reincarnation if I do ap. i read some texts about this in past some were positive some were negative i don’t remember clearly i need to read again.
Some were like you are here for learn lesson and ascend. And until learn all the lessons you will come back to earth again, something like this but in more positive manner, others were like you are here because of demiurge beat him and be free from endless suffering, stop reincarnation, like this.
But i was thinking like you don’t need anything external(?) Your subconscious mind will lead you. i dont believe the negative thing. i don’t know i cant think properly now.
God show me the way
But still i don’t know why God created us (if there something like that) let’s ssy we are spiritual beings buy why we are existed, why? Why we are on planet earth? Why?
One mistake I’m doing is i don’t sharpening my mind, i can find excuses but it’s not good, in the high school i was reading some philosophy, Schopenhauer, Aurelius, some Sartre, Camus but i stopped it, i’d say because of exam, man fuck it. Really. Even if i don’t agree with that what philosopher wrote, i should read for sharpening my mind, see what they thought.
Lol i don’t buy books for a long time and when i looked to the internet saw that book prices have skyrocketed
