I envy people who has good relationship with god, lol. Because i have not one. I don’t think there’s a certain god, billions different god for billions different god, I think this is more related your relationship with yourself
Fuck sex, fuxk girls, fuck urges, fuck just everything,
I will take 3-4 days rest I will run Ascension instead of wanted, probably my stack will be paragon, Ascension and GLM or maybe I could run KB instead of Paragon it depends on my health situation. But I can rotate Ascension regularly with wanted or glm
It’s just the second week of the university but I’m thinking to go Erasmus at my second year if it’s possible, for this I need good GPA and English. Erasmus on CV would look good with this maybe I can find more internship and with more internship better Jobs maybe. So that’s my plan.
But this plan I think, is putting me off the idea of getting a girlfriend. Let’s say I have a girlfriend but I’m going to Erasmus for 6 months etc we will be separate, probably this would create a lot of conflicts and longings…
I will continue tomorrow I need to sleep…
I feel so fucking bad
School is boring and feels empty
I need affection but I cannot make this my primary need, purpose I’m student and have no financial freedom, but I want affection but I cannot. It sucks