That’s my custom
It’s going very well
Finally hitting some recon, bubbling up predictably as feelings of loneliness and avoidance of my own lack of self love and feelings of lack
I see myself talking more with my ex, missing her and feeling jealous that she’s not mine anymore even though I was the one to end things.
I also see myself leaning more on a girl who I am pretty sure likes me, feeling frustrated when she takes all day to respond and basically only sends me a few messages, and being anxious about whether I actually like her or if I just want her to like me.
No idea how to resolve all this shit lol, hence why I’m listening to the custom
Also, in an attempt to… get more?? I listened to 30 sec of DRR1 and LotS each today, after a full 15 min of my custom yesterday. It only made the recon worse lol, so I won’t be doing that again
Heard a great lecture yesterday that posited that every human’s greatest ambition is to get something for nothing, aka shortcut to wealth, love, happiness, etc without putting in the effort to actually sow the seeds that you can eventually reap. Never seen that more clearly in myself than today, overexposing on subs hoping that just listening to trickling water will solve all my problems for me
These products are amazingly helpful tools, but at the end of the day still only tools, which we must use wisely and with prudence to conquer not the world but really ourselves
Sigh
I just don’t wanna hurt anymore guys

We’ll get there though