The feeling is “this is the best sub ever”. Totally foundational for any being.
Genesis was my favorite, but this one makes me look at my own life very kindly, with a sense of peace that I deserve good things, and that the main person measuring that is me, and always has been.
I feel like it’s helping me develop self-love much more than LB or other titles, for example.
As for recon, what I felt was a desire to sleep more than normal and give my mind a kind of rest that I don’t feel like giving myself with other titles.
My dreams are very revealing and I had a recon through one.
In the dream, I had this powerful experience where I accessed a trauma from past life. I was going to die because of something bad I had planned and everyone knew I was going to die.
I found myself saying goodbye to everything I knew and seeing my life end without 1 person by my side. I was very sad, I wanted to cry with this physical body.
As soon as I woke up, I realized how afraid I was of dying in this life and how much the fear of ending up with no one by my side hinders me in everything I do, in all my interactions with friends, family, partners and colleagues.
I also connected in seconds and with great clarity the fact that I avoid so much planning in this life because of the trauma of that life.
Soon after, I went to study the material for a training course that will take me 3 years to complete.
I woke up and just wanted to study, knowing that it’s something I really enjoy doing and that it’s very much in line with my life’s mission.
It wasn’t a “planned” action, it was a natural action.
Curiously enough, I chose to study for something that required this long-term “planning” energy.