Foundation of Freedom (AM for 180 Days)

Journals - Major Programs
#143

I feel pretty just lost. I had a hard time sleeping last night, I just don’t know what actions to take to improve my life. I feel absolutely paralyzed.

I am halting all subliminals until ZP preview is released. Letting my mind kind of clean itself out. This was a big up and down journey for the last 108 days. There is definitely a shift but I am too just mad and frustrated at the world to quite put it into words.

There was a shooting near where I live and I’m not scared, I’m just passed off. Why do people need to do that? I do not advocate suicide at all but if it’s either you shoot up a place or suicide, just end yourself. Don’t hurt other like an absolute asshole.

I am pretty sure this is what you call the dark night of the soul.

#144

Work was hell per usual, who knew how miserable I could be working from home (it would be worse in the office) I am so excited for wealth titles in ZP

My wife and I had a great time with Diamond processing last night. Most relaxed I have felt in along time after that.

The washout is bringing intense emotions to the surface. My chest area is burning up again with a real brutal tightness. Its usually what I feel when my body is letting go of mental trauma.

Not sure on my zp stack yet. I am thinking Stark, Mogul, RICH. Unless a zp wealth sub comes out. I am thinking of EoG will run once I actually get a business with cash flow set up and use that to accelerate and scale.

#145

I am having a real hard time focusing this morning. I am so fucking bored. I once heard that the opposite of happiness is not sadness, but boredom and I completely agree.

Rough day.

I’m thinking during the preview I am going to go with CHOSEN and RICH at least for the first month. I have a Vacation with the wifu in January so I will use wanted once January starts for the body shifting so I look decent in a swimsuit.

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#146

Deeper into my washout I am noticing I am getting more and more bores of the things I used to love doing. Porn and video games are becoming pretty meaningless and I am noticing a desire to work.

I also am more excited for ZP than I felt for some of my favorite series when they were coming out.

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