btw I am on my first cycle of Khan TB and so far so good.
What was your problem with it? And maybe two cycles of TB helped you diminish obstacles and therefore Wanted could be integrated better.
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LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO
This journal is a movie hahahaha
You get em champ lol
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In the long run, I think TB has helped me. It was how I discovered my tendency toward delusional thinking, my fear based thinking, and many of the deep psychological issues that were harming my further development.
My problem was that it was too hard, too fast, too damn intense. The recon was mild boggling and I was so depressed and emotionally destroyed that I quite literally could not function. I had to drop out of school (a good thing, ultimately) leave my girl friend (also good, now I’m getting laid in Europe), and nearly lost my job.
So it’s probably helped me, but I’m just not in a position to run it (because I’m so sensitive to it) and I’m getting great results without it, albeit, probably slower results. Maybe if I could handle TB I could get in 6 months what might take a year without it, but the slower, more stable growth is better for my particular life.
Or I could be wrong, the title might just be scripted in a way that my subconscious won’t put up with it and fights back like mad. 
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We’re all the stars of our own movies 
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Waiting for a rating on IMDB 
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Travel Journal 7
Now that I’ve come to this new setting place, celebrated, and integrated, I’m ready for further expansion.
It’s a priority that I’m a “good man.” I don’t know what that means. I guess it just means that I’m kind, caring, and protect people regardless of who they are. Yes, I will still have fun, but today it’s really on my mind that I need to be a good man.
I know that I can be a good man and still hook up and have fun, but I just need to figure out what it means to me to be a good man. I don’t know what else to say, it’s just important to me to be good. I mean that in an almost spiritual sense. Maybe what I’m talking about is acting from a place of love no matter what I do and never from a place of cruelty or anger.
I can already think of a way to square this, hooking up and having fun can absolutely be from a place of love and kindness. We all want to have good safe fun. We all want to let go into our Primal nature. We are often scared, but we don’t need to be.
In Other News
Not much else to report. I’m changed in ways that probably won’t be totally obvious until I return home.
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Travel Journal 8
I’m a bit sickened by myself. There were 4 girls at the bar that went out of their way to show interest. I botched it will all 4 and now I’m sleeping alone. Never again. Yes, I cleared one level, but there is further to go and I need to go now. All the girls were 8-10, I guess I’m still scared of women in the far upper range…
The vacation has ended. The body count is 2 girls, sex 3 times each, in the span of 8 days. This is a new level, but I’m far from satisfied…back to the work boys, back to the work…
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It’s the transitions.
The man definitely writes transitions very effectively.
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A Decent Rule of Thumb:
The more that you have to lie to yourself to do something, the more it’s probably not the right thing for you.
By this standard, the exact same action may be good at one time and not good at another; based on where you currently are in your understanding of it.
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I read over this from @Sub.Zero and it got me thinking.
So what is my holy trinity?
Wanted is here to stay. It’s so funny to look back to a year ago when I was scared, actually scared of running Wanted. Long before I made an account or bought a subliminal, I looked at Wanted again and again. It was so enticing, so taboo, and it frightened me. I actually remember when I bought it a month into this journey, I pressed the pay now button late at night as if I were ripping a bandaid off. Sometimes fear is a guide. Sometimes it leads you away from what you don’t want, often, if you listen, it leads you to what you actually want but are too scared to accept.
Wanted is here to stay, for how long? Based on my results so far I would say that I’m expressing maybe… 5 to 10% of Wanted’s potential–maybe more, maybe less. That little bit that I express has transformed my life. Wanted is here until I’m satisfied. When I reach my peak beauty, when I dissolve my inhibitions, when I reach a level of seductive power so high that I become bored, only then will I stop using Wanted. Why change it, it’s a gift that keeps on giving and the more I allow it to grow, the more I get.
That entry is my evidence that I’m not done with Wanted. I had my moment of breakthrough and then I found the next wall standing before me.
Weird Result From Wanted - An Aside
I’ve never spoken about this, but I need to document. Women pay for me. It happens constantly and it’s just what I expect. Women buy me things and pay for my drinks, food, etc. Every woman that I’ve been with since using Wanted has bought me things. I won’t say more now, but I did want to get it in writing.
What of the other two subliminals? At the time, RICH seems to be working well. I haven’t done much to express the subliminal, but there HAVE been internal results:
A few weeks ago, I was at work, I saw a poor woman, who like many poor people that live on the street, was clearly mentally ill. I can’t remember what I did, because at the time I still wasn’t Journaling, but I did something kind for her and made her smile. Right after I had a thought, “Being wealthy makes me a better person.” I held that with me all day with no resistance, analyzing it. It’s true, the wealthier I become, the better person I become. It’s because for me, money = freedom. And freedom = love and kindness. The poorer I am, the angrier, the more cynical, the less social I am. The more money I have, the more generous, open, loving, fun, and kind I am. It was solid evidence that RICH has already broken through wealth trauma, and done so fast.
Another day, I was on a date and we were screwing around and my date said, “You have rich person energy–it’s hot.” She knows that I’m not wealthy (in this temporary version of reality) but in that moment she tapped into my energy, and it’s the energy of wealth, and it does make me more seductive. REMEMBER THIS it seems like I don’t even need the actual money, it’s just the energy of wealth that’s attractive. You can be broke like me and still be more attractive just because you have the energy of wealth, it’s amazing.
Other results include more energetic stuff: people making comments that imply or state that I’m wealthy–again, I don’t lie about my wealth, my whole social circle sees the beat up car I drive and they know how much money I make.
I’ve also manifested money quickly. I filed my taxes late and got the refund 2 weeks early.
So, RICH is working for me and I haven’t noticed any recon at all. That means that I probably have far less wealth trauma than I realize, or Emperor helped dissolve much of what I did have. For now, RICH will stay, for how long? I’m not sure, I should probably keep it in my stack with Wanted for the foreseeable future unless I have a really good reason to change it.
Daredevil. This is the one that I’m least certain of. I don’t know what else to say, I’m just not certain of it.
Let’s try a different approach. My BIGGEST traumas are social. It’s a constant source of pain for me and I’ve spent far too long FEELING like an outsider and making myself an outsider. If I look back to a year ago, social skills were one of the very first things that I wanted to change with subliminals. DD core was in my first custom and I even dropped Emp for Stark partly because Emp was making me less social.
So, for now, DD should stay. It took a year with Wanted to reach this level, if it takes a year or more with DD to reach a level that satisfies me, then so be it.
The Big Picture of the Stack
What’s the bigger picture? Is this a stack that I can run for possibly the next few years? Say, 3 years?
Is this stack truly my Foundation?
I can look at this question from the perspective of healing, what is this stack healing? My sexual and social hang ups, two of the most important aspects of my life right now.
And, this stack is manageable. I get it all done and my life keeps improving.
Hmm
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Okay, so my morning has been good. Today is a day of relaxation. I’ve never shared this on the forums, but I’ve been working on a book in stages for the last few years. I was alternating between writing material for that book and playing on the forums and I had an epiphany related to the post above–healing.
Perhaps healing IS what I need in order to take this to the next level…I still have. 2 weeks of washout left, so that’s time to consider.
I know that I would keep Wanted and RICH in my stack, so I guess I would drop Daredevil for a healing title…but which one?
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I would look into what hinders you most. Me myself I have nice social skills but where I fail the most is healthy defensive mechanisms against “toxic” and psychologically harmful people and before I go for honing my social skill I need to go for PCC to create those healthy defensive mechanisms. That’s my most immediate missing link in this regard.
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Make them pay for your mortgage 
What about changing daredevil for Stark?
In the Qv2 era, Stark had Daredevil within itself, plus you will get fame, wealth, and intelligence benefits.
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I’m gonna spend the next 2 weeks considering the whole product line. Stark is a great idea, I had good results on it the cycle I ran it. Luckily I know my priorities, I just need the right path.
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Yes sure and I like your dedication to Wanted and Rich, it is inspiring.
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As of now, I’m looking at RoM, Alchemist, and the healing titles. Alchemist has anti fear scripting and that sounds mighty appealing right now.
I think LBFH or Sanguine Elixir could be a good addon to Wanted thanks to their Love aura with healing included. So it is like sales in a grocery two for one
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I’m just gonna think through writing for a second.
I was looking at both of those too! I tried a cycle of LBFH, maybe 2?, last year and I did notice immediate results. People were interesting in the way they responded to me, I felt the pure love from others. At the time I ran it solo with no other titles and ended up dropping it because on it’s own, it seemed to make me less seductive. From what I recall it had a “friend zone” effect on me. But I ran it solo and didn’t run it long enough to really see what would develop.
I’ve seen SE come up several times on the forum today, including in the post I quoted above, so maybe I’m manifesting SE as the solution to my healing problems. Light healing does sound very appealing. I know what intense healing can be like and I’m just not in a position to go down that road again. I’d rather spend extra time and have less disruption…but then again…
Then, of course, there are all the other healing titles that I could be using. I’m also considering a second seduction title like PS since it has a healing component to it and might solve some problems.
Of course I could just keep it the same and count on time healing all my wounds. Eventually, if I run DD Wanted and RICH long enough, my present problems should pretty naturally disappear.
I actually might be able to handle TB these days. When I ran it in the past, I just wasn’t ready. Now I understand more about the universe and how this stuff works. Back then, I still kinda thought that Total Breakdown would just heal me on it’s own. But you still gotta take action. These subliminals and indeed the universe itself CANNOT violate free will, so it can only do what you allow it to do.
On that note, I’ve learned that lesson pretty firmly, the universe cannot violate free will. I manifest things all the time, and I’ve spent a long time wondering why and how I keep “ruining” situations that I’ve clearly manifested. Take the 4 girls from last night, I was so pissed because deep down I still feel like the universe will just do the work for me. It CAN’T, it’s impossible. All the universe can do is shove the manifestations in your face over and over again until you finally take the action to claim them. Now that I firmly understand this, maybe I’m ready for Khan…even though I vowed never to touch it again.
If I did run Khan, I’d need to run it on a very altered schedule and take it very slow. I’d probably need to run TB just once a week to start out and do that for a few cycles, working my way up to running it standard. Then I’d probably want to stack it with Wanted and RICH to keep things targeted and evolving in the direction of my goals. It’s possible…am I ready to walk that road again though? Do I even want or need to? Last time I ran it, it created untold disruption in my life and I pretty much had to get back on emp and wanted to fix my life fast.
I could also go back on Emperor, it’s been one of my best friends since the beginning…
So many options my friend, so many options. I’m gonna keep considering over the next few weeks of washout.
All that matters to me is that I get what I want and that I get more of it and grow and evolve day by day. That could be Wanteds striving for perfection talking, but I feel that in my bones.
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Maybe a good thing to run alongside TB is running something with a positive attitude.
For instance, I am running rn TB + CFW and Lots.
And honestly, despite it being my first cycle, I did not have any hiccups. Just today I was with my two friends, playing a board game and we had a lot of fun and positive energy.
I would guess it is due to CFW. Today was my listening day of it btw.
But I will see, maybe it can worsen in the future.
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I got a lot of trauma brother, could just be my fractured mind. Haha. Glad it’s going well. I wouldn’t wish what I felt on anybody.
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