It is maybe strange but Lots gave me quite a lot of energy to searching new things for my health regimen.
Like I have even been taking Ashwagandha before which helps with Anxiety and stress but rn I have started taking seaweed (Chlorella, Spirulina) and yeast which contain a lot of B nutrients that are crucial for good mental health also I am going into a rabbit hole and studying more about medicinal mushrooms and it is amazing what it can do for a human physical and mental health.
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I mean with the good stuff you can support difficult moments in your life through healing etc.
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B vitamins, that keeps coming up. I need to look into that.
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Update From Airport
I’ve spent pretty much the whole day thinking about my subliminal journey. For the first time, I actually started reading over my journals and I found a lot.
New Goal - Study all journals before washout ends
I noticed a lot. My goals have evolved but remained mostly unchanged from day one: physical perfection, sexual perfection, social perfection, money. I know that Wanted has been good for me. I just rediscovered that Stark was remarkably transformative for me. RICH seems to be a winner. Khan is a no go. Emperor has actually been amazing for me, but there have been things about it that have not aligned with me, perhaps? It just doesn’t seem to fully align with my path, and that’s okay, but what I’ve gained from it has been amazing. Despite what I said earlier, it seems that my brief time with LBFH was actually really good–but also that it made me a bit less seductive temporarily. Daredevil, I haven’t given a fair shake because I’ve been running it without journaling.
I also finally realized that Wanted is an alpha title and does have scripting for masculine qualities. I’m not sure what convinced me otherwise.
Alchemist appeals to me, especially now.
I’m waging a war against fear.
My vision is to become a true romantic, the socialite. The wealthy, seductive poet. Make me a Casanova, or a Don Juan. Wanted and RICH fulfill that much Daredevil ought to fulfill that much also. Stark is superior to Daredevil. After reading over my Stark journal, I saw tremendous growth in a short period of time. Who knows, this washout will almost certainly help with my direction.
I’ve come so far, but my goal is perfection. Call me ungrateful for seducing two women in the same day then whining because I failed 2 days later. My goal is perfection and I will accept nothing less. Why should I? If I show myself day after day that there don’t seem to be any limits in sight, why should I stop?
This is a question of what to do next.
Today I see nothing but options, but I know better. There is a single choice and over the next weeks of studying my journey, I’ll find the answer. When I do, I’ll commit to it, for now, I rest and I reflect on my wins and losses.
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Washout Update
Still thinking about the possibility of making a change after washout. Healing does seem to be the answer, as much as I resist it. I won’t beat myself up for my excuses and justifications.
What healing? Well there are no wrong answers, I think I’ll start with LD. I already own it and it seems more targeted and less intense.
Time will tell, time will tell. Healing seems to be the message though. I can’t ignore these nagging patterns that have held me back.
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Washout Update 2
I’m still around. Time means nothing on these international flights. All I know is that I got about 5-6 hours of sleep on my 10 hour flight and now it’s the late afternoon in my time zone on my last connecting flight home.
The last…what…16 hours, God knows, have mostly been spent thinking about the next steps. I think too much though. I think too much and I talk too much. What’s there to think about? What’s there to talk about? We just do it and things happen.
I’m now thinking about the classic Wanted Khan. Maybe I will do that. Who knows.
All I know is that my journey is ever upward. My intuition will lead me to the subliminals I need when the time comes. For now, I just relax and Integrate.
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Washout Update 3
@Deadpool didn’t you mention Stark earlier? I couldn’t seem to find the post.
I spent the last God knows how many hours and the solution was staring me right in the face: Stark.
I’m swapping DD for Stark and I’ll use healing titles later. I’m going to run Stark, Wanted and RICH for a few cycles and if after a year I’m still plagued with limitations, then I’m just gonna go all in for Khan and let it take me where it takes me.
I came to this decision after reading over my Alpha Nerd journal (Stark, Wanted, PS) and reliving the insane results I was getting. I was younger then or else I wouldn’t have stopped after only one cycle. I also read over most of my Emperor and Wanted journal. The results were better on Stark and Wanted. I gravitated back to Emperor because it killed my anxiety. But now I’ve reached a point where anxiety killing isn’t a priority.
In a few weeks, we launch Foundation 2: Alpha Nerd - Stark, Wanted, RICH.
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Stark 
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Like this combination, very potent.
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I had to do some introspection first, but I knew it when I saw your comment, Stark was the answer. 
I’m so hyped. This is gonna be a good year. After a few cycles with all three, I’ll probably drop RICH for healing.
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And this is for me a little strange about your anxiety. Because Stark should handle this, like social anxiety and Emperor is not per se for that, and from my own experience of running Emperor, I did not have this benefit as you.
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You can probably do it right away because Stark has wealth scripting too even though it is different. And I like the idea of LD.
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At the time, a year ago, I was very, very, very weak. I had just left my fiance, lost my house, was failing school, and in debt and borrowing money. I think the internal power and masculinity of Emperor was helping heal my feeling of helplessness. It made me feel like the master of my reality which took away a lot of the anxiety related to all those issues above.
I wouldn’t call myself an alpha today, but a year ago I was a textbook beta.
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I get it, yes the power of masculinity did its thing.
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This is interesting because Wanted should make you quite Alpha based on the description.
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I’ll keep meditating on it over my washout, but I think Wanted, Stark and LD is probably a good idea. After some time with LD, maybe I could use regen or SE for more healing.
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Yeah, that is a very good approach.
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When I’m a true alpha, then I won’t even know it, I’ll just be the alpha. I’ll say that I’m 100% more alpha now than I used to be.
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I have some healing to do before I can be a true alpha probably. I’m still too needy and scared of everything.
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For this is probably the best running Khan, Emperor, or GLM.
Or maybe just Ascension or AM.
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That will be next year’s project. Eventually, I will return to Khan and Khan will fear me.
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