Force in Motion - By Akin

Journals - Major Programs
#133

∆ CC 30s + Summertime 15s ∆

It’s been really good to open myself up to experiencing the WDB effect across all areas through Summertime, and to step out of the “dictatorship” of believing that only romantic relationships — and focusing on them — can bring happiness and fulfillment.

I don’t know, over the past few days I went through one of the biggest recons of my life, and it was centered around authenticity and purpose in life. It lasted from Monday to Friday: a lot of emotional release, a LOT of crying — like crying like a baby and coming into contact with a huge pain… Also, deep reflections on how I position myself in relation to others.

Summertime has been really good because now I’m actually able to look at MY life. And whatever interaction may come from others feels less contaminated.

I’m loving the no agenda script and the first impressions I’ve had from it. On top of that, the synchronicities script has also been bringing me many really cool experiences.

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#134

I’m feeling really confused right now. I truly dislike how hard it is for me to choose subs and stay consistent with them. I also struggle to clearly see which one is genuinely helping me with my life challenges and which one isn’t.

My mind really takes longer to process the inputs, but I also hate the feeling that, deep down, none of this may actually be able to help me.

I’m accessing some very deep pain and inner places with Summertime. And I’m tired of it feeling, deep down, like it’s always just about that — accessing more and more inner layers.

A new level of complexity, but none of it seems truly able to hold what really matters: the pain. What belongs to me. To my being. Help me with the things I really need to change.

It’s like everything I achieve somehow “slips away,” and I can’t seem to see the results in the actual materialization of all of this.

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#135

What do you feel would improve your life the most? Like if you had an idealized outcome from the subs what would it be?

#136

The main thing is to make money. To get back to having a steady and sustainable income. Enough abundance so that I could rent my own place. And from that more secure income, be able to start thinking about other things and life projects.

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#137

I might be wrong but it sounds like money is a secondary thing to you, in that the act of making money itself isn’t all that motivating. It’s mostly the security that comes from having money.

Maybe you’re having a difficult time choosing because you still haven’t landed on the right combination for your particular goals?

Have you considered RoW? Maybe an unfolding title for money would align with you better.

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#138

You know, I really appreciate your perspective and you sharing it here. In fact, making money alone doesn’t truly motivate me, nor is it really a “priority” in my life. But I’m at a point where I need to get this wheel turning, otherwise in a short time I’ll have to sell my car, which is my only major asset, just to keep up with daily and ordinary expenses.

But it was really important to hear you here because it brought me into a moment of deeper introspection and connection with myself. It helped me see something I wasn’t seeing before.

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#139

So, I had a moment of real introspection and called upon the intelligence of the Whole, of the Universe, which knows more than I do about what I truly need.

I asked for help so it could genuinely show me which subs are important for me at this moment in my life, within a range of options.

The answer was:

  1. RICH
  2. ASBR
  3. Summertime

(I did this by combining a ThetaHealing meditation with a pendulum)

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#140

I get it. I hate that we’re forced into that. I hope you find that security soon and then can explore what you really want!

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#141

∆ RICH 30s + ST 15s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I have the feeling that many relationship patterns and ways of relating are falling apart because of the learnings and inner insights I’ve been having with Summertime.
I say this because I’m noticing a movement around me.

Some people are unfollowing me out of nowhere (people I never would have expected), others are leaving old groups that had been inactive for a while, and people I used to keep more on my radar — who required certain postures from me — are also drifting away.

I don’t know, there was a big movement like this over the past week. I think it might be related to the “No Agenda” script.

I’m observing it. I hope to open new layers in the way I relate to others, while still being able to keep the people who are truly good for me.

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#142

Nice moment yesterday with a group from a dance and singing class. We really shared a belly laugh together.

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#143

∆ ASBR 30s ∆

So, ASBR is back in the game! I’m curious because I haven’t exposed myself to it since September 2025, six months ago. I’ve changed so much since then, let’s see how it goes.

Anyway, this “rupture” with her brought me many deep insights about myself. I was able to recognize valuable truths within me, as well as certain ways I had been showing up that are simply not sustainable in the long term, especially within the context of relationships.

#144

Anyway, today I confirmed the subs with the pendulum again, and the first two subs remained the same, but the third sub kept oscillating between Summertime and WDB.

Then, I received new a piece of information:
“There is the wisdom of the Whole, but you must not forget your own will.”

My guess as to why this happened is that, from yesterday to today, I recognized that there’s no point in denying my own desires because they move me.

It’s something deep and complex, but I realized that if the desire exists within me, and if there’s a wish or a sub that strongly calls to me, it’s important for me to pay attention to that, and take responsibility for my co-participation within the process of the Whole.
It’s not as if there is some higher voice that will tell me everything and every direction. My own desire also holds a living place within me, and it is by actively moving in alignment with it that who I am within the Whole is revealed.

I still don’t know what to do yet. For now, I want to observe ASBR’s social effects and feel how I respond to it, while keeping this guidance in mind as I figure out how to position the third sub.

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#145

∆ rest day ∆

I’m feeling ASBR so differently. I think it has to do with the adaptive script — I’m feeling so much power and strength. Today I took an important step in the spiritual place I attend, I’m happy.

#146

∆ RICH 30s + ASBR 15s + ST 15s ∆

Mind is totally focused on money.

#147

∆ washout ∆

I’m missing WDB. I’m feeling so bored without it and also without the contact with her.

#148

∆ washout ∆

I’m doing a proper washout so I can start this cycle the right way.
I made it to listening day 20, but along the way I went through two subs that I’m no longer exposed to. So, I’m giving myself a proper rest.

Anyway, I’m really enjoying ASBR again, it’s bringing a completely different energy into my life. I’m feeling way more confident about the future.

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#149

∆ washout ∆

I think these moments of boredom and contact with deeper emotional pain are coming in waves. Even so, my experiences with Summertime have been really good. It’s also opening doors for me to better express myself and strengthen my communication overall.

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#150

∆ washout ∆

I was underestimating the importance of the washout. It had been a long time since I had done one too. But this time, I felt it as a space to draw my own conclusions and look at myself without so much influence from the subs. It was really important.

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#151

∆ new cycle! ∆

∆ ASBR 30s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I had a really crazy weekend that shifted a lot of things for me.

Edit: It was an experience with a childhood crush that I encountered like 20 years latter.

#152

∆ RICH 30s + St 15s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

A lot of important energetic shifts are happening around money. Many inner keys are turning.

On top of that, I had an important conversation with my father. It was clarifying and brought more awareness to my next moves. I’m happy.