∆ peace + RICH + wdB∆
∆ rest day ∆
The season has officially started…
Threesome last night.
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∆ peace + RICH + wdB∆
∆ 2 rests days ∆
I’ve had one of the best sex of my life with the person who used to be my first girlfriend 10 years ago.
We met at a party and flirted a lot, but I dropped her off at home with no expectations. On my way back home, she called me and said something like, “You suck at this. How are you just leaving?” lol
So I went back and… wow. It was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had, right there in my car.
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∆ peace + eog st1+ wdB∆
∆ rest day ∆
My intuition told me to go back to EOG ST1 for now. I’ll see how it unfolds and whether it unlocks a bigger financial flow.
Anyway, that’s one more person I met completely unplanned and ended up having really good sex with. Someone I already wanted, and the opportunity was really more about me allowing it to happen than anything else. It was good.
But yeah, I’m definitely in a quantity-over-quality phase right now.
In just 3 loops of WDB, I’ve had sex with 4 people lol. I think something changed, like a switch flipped. Let’s see what keeps happening.
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Uh! Just got a like raise in my salary !
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∆ eog st1+ wdB + peace ∆
∆ washout ∆
One more new person — and this one was special. A girl that I’ve been wanting to kiss for, like, two months. This one really got to me. There’s potential for something deeper and real. Best kiss I’ve had in a long time, sweet lips… the taste of… being wanted. We were at a show and… damn… I think I kind of fell for her.
I’m really enjoying this flow. Finally, after two years since my last breakup, I’m actually able to enjoy being single without all the restraints and hang-ups.
But I’m going to have to figure out how to handle this, because… I had a situation with one of the people I hooked up with over the past few days, and I realized I’m going to need a certain level of management and communication if I’m going to keep moving at this pace. Like, laying my cards on the table with some people and saying that I don’t want anything serious with them right now. That’s the hardest part for me, because I usually communicate that through my actions and indirectly, and sometimes that can end up frustrating someone.
Other than that, that’s it. I’m really happy, and also excited to keep running EOG for a while. I really do need more money to do more of the things I want with my life.
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∆ washout ∆
I did a washout after completing 20 listening days. Since I was in an experimental phase, this last cycle was pretty diverse. It was only toward the end that I became more certain about some of the subs I want to stick with.
Anyway, it was good to have that period without exposure to see what actually stick and to notice the active difference that listening to the subs makes. I’m starting to see them more as a “tool” for consciously realigning myself with certain goals and objectives.
I also realized, looking back at my previous cycles, that Ascension brought me a lot of growth, and a lot of it became internalized during the time I used it. Of all the subs I’ve tested, it’s one of the ones that has already brought about some of the most meaningful changes for me, and that I could see myself coming back to in the future. It has the potential to keep bringing meaningful changes and become an important part of a long-term playlist.
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∆ NEW CYCLE ∆
∆ eog st1+ wdB + peace ∆
∆ 3 rest days ∆
Yeah, I don’t know exactly what happened these past few days, but I was integrating some deeper stuff around internal changes. The ZPU technology is allowing me to take more days off without constantly chasing the next loop, driven by fomo lol.
∆ eog st1+ wdB + peace ∆
∆ rest day ∆
I’m getting back into studying wealth mindset. I started reading a book about it, and I’ve already had some really good insights just from the first few pages. I’m going to keep going.
On top of that, a friend who’s financially well-off invited me to stay at her place for a while while she’s traveling. I’ll just need to take care of her cat and feed him. I think it’ll be really good for me — it’s a huge house with a pool and a hot tub. Today I woke up and got some sun before starting work, then read the book. It felt really good.
Besides that, I’m still following the WDB idea, and it’s been bringing some interesting things into my life. People are genuinely loving being around me and talking to me. I’m also making connections much more easily, while still being genuine in a lot of moments.
A girl who basically ate me up with her eyes at a show invited me out next Wednesday. She was very direct and straightforward, and I said yes. Someone else also asked me out. And another person came up to talk to me because we had hooked up before, and then I saw him kissing someone else at another party. He was worried about how I would feel about it. Incredibly, I was totally fine with it.
I’m really at peace right now, just going with the flow and allowing myself to move at my own pace, as well as respecting the pace of the people I’m interested in.
There’s one person in particular that I feel something stronger for, but I’m working on myself internally so I don’t try to force the timing of things or become too needy.
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Some rest and relaxation with a cat sounds really healing!
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That’s true! I hadn’t looked at it that way before.
∆ rest day ∆
So, I had a dream with the SubClub crew. We were all meeting up “offline.” There were some people from here, but I couldn’t actually identify anyone.
We were discussing ideas and opinions about subs, but in a really harmonious way. We were also in the middle of some kind of mission. Then we started talking about traveling and asking each other where we’d like to visit. Me and two other people raised our hands for Salvador, a city in Brazil. I thought that was pretty curious.
It was cool to see you guys “on this side.” Or would it be “on the other side”? lol
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When Heartsong is out, I’m in.
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∆ EoG +peace + WdB ∆
∆ 2 rest days ∆
Putting things in order. I made a big decision about something that had been taking up a lot of my energy and I came to the conclusion that it’s not worth continuing. This decision will free up a lot of mental and energetic space so I can focus on other things and take my life in different directions, especially considering how much energy I need to put into making money. Giving this up also means letting go of an expense that no longer makes sense and also let go of a worry that had been occupying my mind for 3 years.
Tomorrow I’m going to talk to the people involved and try to negotiate paying part of the debt I owe so I can “pause” the contract.
I want to direct more of my energy toward things that I actually want to do, and are actually artistic, because that’s what I came here to do. From there, I want to create more stability and financial means so I can really focus on what I love.
It was a difficult decision. I’d been sitting with it for about five months, but now it feels surprisingly easy to make.
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∆ EoG + Peace + Ascension ∆
∆ rest day ∆
Another very good one
So, the first conversation didn’t go the way I’d imagined. But I’m going to let things settle for a bit, give it some time, and see what to do from here.
In the meantime, I’m going to work on my frequency, on changing the way I see myself and how I imagine other people see me. Because I want the situation to resolve itself with divine justice and with me feeling honored throughout the process.
Without going into too many details because it’s a very long story, but I’m facing a major test and also a major “frequency break.” It’s my past self, people from my past, situations from my past and I just want this to resolve in the best and highest way possible.
I just had a thought a few days ago: when I start ASBR, I’ll be so social that I’ll propose having a SubClub summit, like once a year, where SaintSovereign, Fire, and reputable forum members can meet, exchange ideas, and get better feedback. Hearing about the real impact of their products in person would be very different, and it’s the kind of feedback that’s very hard to get while selling this type of product, apart from the usual testers.
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∆ EoG + Peace + Ascension ∆
∆ 2 rest days ∆
∆ EoG + Peace + Ascension ∆
∆ rest day ∆
It was really good spending those days at my friend’s house. Something genuinely shifted while I was there. I think it has to do with being distanced from some of my family’s conditioning and being in a environment of people who are genuinely abundant, seeing how good I feel when I’m surrounded by space and luxury. I even had someone cooking for me.
It was good to feel the difference between those energies in my body. And my body likes feeling abundant. I’m going to ride that momentum and keep moving forward. It was also good to see that the reality my father chose — one of limitations and scarcity — really is a choice, and that I can choose differently and intentionally create the life I want to experience.
Anyway, I’m grateful. I’ll keep following the teachings from the book and staying open.
Also, I had a date with that girl who gave me one of the best kisses of my life. It was goood. But yeah, I’m taking things more slowly and observing both my steps and hers.
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Now I’m a little unsure which title to drop in order to start running Heart Song. The playlist was really good as it was, and I also know the power of Ascension and what I’ve already achieved with it, considering what it’s opened up for me.
I’ll see. I’m going to sit down and meditate on it calmly and see what comes up.
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If I may opine, I’d recommend rotating PEACE out for Heartsong, since many of the concepts between the two are shared. Then, you can rotate PEACE back in later if you’d like. I think you’ll enjoy either stage of Heartsong, since you’re very active in meeting people and exploring relationships (based upon what I see in your journal).
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∆ EoG + Peace + Ascension ∆
∆ 2 rest days ∆
Yeah, I still haven’t fully resolved the whole situation. But I took the first step and managed to get out of one of the fronts it involved. Tomorrow I’m going to settle things financially for this part, and that’s it.