Force in Motion - By Akin

Journals - Major Programs
#195

∆ RICH 30s + ASC 15s ∆
∆ 2 rest days ∆

Yeah, guys.
It turns out that this situation with this girl wasn’t what I was expecting. I had a challenging situation with her on Sunday.
I had some revelations about it at the spiritual place I go to on Monday. I’m still not sure exactly what it is, but I needed to receive protection, and there was a certain energetic disconnect with her.

I’m kind of sad because the journey with WdB hasn’t been easy for me. Very revealing situations always come up, where I usually attract people who, deep down, aren’t good for me. I thought it would be different with her. I don’t know if the “wanted” archetype leads me into situations where I end up harming myself and undermining my own worth just to get what I want from the “other person.” But all the relationships I’ve attracted with it have been situations where I didn’t feel whole, and where I went out of my way just to get “crumbs.” I don’t know, I’m really reflective and sad about it all.

I’m afraid to keep opening up and keep with the expositon because these emotional experiences have been too intense for me. There’s something I need to change, and I haven’t quite figured out “what” it is yet.
I’ve been thinking a lot because the desire to “be desired” ultimately just puts me in dangerous situations or ones of great emotional vulnerability, where I end up getting hurt and wearing myself out for the other person. I don’t know.

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#196

∆ ASC 30s + RICH 15s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

∆ STB 15s + ASC 35s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

∆ ROW 15s + ASC 30s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I’ve been MIA for a bit because I’ve been processing those things. It was also my birthday (yay!), I’ve been following the Club World Cup here (people are obsessed with it here in my country), and I’ve had a ton of writing and editing work.

I decided to take a break from WDB and, a couple of days ago, I felt a strong intuition to restart my exposure with Revelation of Wealth alongside Ascension. I’m really enjoying the combination—it feels much easier to absorb the concepts this time.

During my first loop, I became aware of many deep scarcity beliefs (a flood of insights), especially those rooted in my childhood, family, and identity. I can see that changing my financial reality will require changing those core beliefs (and, consequently, change who I AM —or at least who I firmly believe myself to be.)
But I also feel a much deeper sense of optimism, like, “This is finally happening.” I’m more introspective lately, but overall I’m feeling more abundant. I also want to stay with RoW longer this time since it feels much easier than it did before. (In the past, I was only able to deal with four loops. :sweat_smile:)

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#197

Happy birthday!

Really looking forward to reading your results with ROW. I’ve been eyeballing it for quite some time but haven’t run it yet

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#198

Thank you! I know some people say it’s not an easy ride, but I’m feeling confident. I genuinely want to experience some deep transformation in that area.

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#199

∆ RoW 20s + ASC 30s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

Definitely making a course correction. I’ll test RoW in the place of RICH. I’m also replacing Stabilizer with Dragon Reborn: Regeneration.

Today I had an AMAZING class about the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems in my Core Energetics training, and the whole concept behind Regeneration and its healing model suddenly made a LOT of sense to me. I want to experiment with it and open the door to healing things I may not even be aware of yet.
We’ll see. I’m going to test it. If it becomes too much, I’ll readjust it.

#200

∆ 2nd rest day ∆

Over the past few days, I went out to eat with my friends after our training sessions, and on both occasions, they wanted to pay for my share of the bill. I ended up enjoying two nights of abundant meals without expecting it at all.

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#201

∆ Regen 15s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I had the feeling that a part of me had been yearning for this sub again.

The first loop was really good. Even though it put me more into a “healing” mode, it coincided with the immersive days of my Core Energetics training, and I went through a moment of profound emotional release.

It was a deep cry, but I was being held by a beloved ancestor there and by my entire group.
I simply let the process unfold and cried one of the deepest, most natural cries of my life. I didn’t hold anything back, force anything, or feel ashamed of the sounds I was making.
It was deep and emotional, but it didn’t last long. One of my teachers used therapeutic tools that helped me come back to the present afterward.

My intuition, along with the intuition of two other people, suggested that it was the release of pain carried from past lives.
After that, my energy and energetic flow started moving much more freely. And my spine became straighter .

#202

∆ RoW 30s + ASC 15s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

Just processing… nothing I want to share so deeply.
I’ve just noticed that my inner authority is growing. I can already see some differences in what I’ve internalized in that area and how people see me.

#203

∆ Regen 15s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I did a really good ThetaHealing session on myself, where I was able to release ancestral patterns related to deservingness. I also did a healing command that shifted energetic aspects of my brain related to abundance.

Also, this guy and his teachings are still keeping me company.

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#204

∆ RoW 30s + ASC 20s ∆
∆ rest day ∆

I can feel a lot of subtle shifts happening, but I can’t exactly put them into words yet.

I’m also happy because this week I stopped procrastinating several things I had been putting off for no apparent reason. I took my car in to be repaired, I’m redoing some written assignments for my Core Energetics training, and I caught up on some overdue payments.

I’m also feeling much more grounded about my current financial situation. I’m making more measured decisions and accepting that some goals will need to be built over the long term, while others require my focus right now.

#205

Another nice thing: I realized that June was the first month in a long time when I was actually able to add money to my savings instead of taking money out.

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#206

I’m happy that I’m able to handle 30s loops of RoW without experiencing rough recon. It’s already been four loops.

Last time, I only managed two 10s loops before giving up. I’m starting to see the results of consistently sustaining the inner work.

#207

∆ ASC 30s + Regen + Wanted ∆
∆ END OF CYCLE ∆
∆ 2 rest days ∆

At some point, while a little drunk at a party, I listened to a 15s loop of new Wanted just to see what would happen. I got some results, but afterward, the recon hit harder.

Regen has been taking me into some really deep places, so everything kind of mixed together. I had a very important moment in my body therapy session today—truly a significant one. I’m still letting the experience settle, but I’m grateful to have had my therapist’s support and to have gone through it.

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#208

∆ WASHOUT ∆

So, I’ve had a shift in perspective regarding how I approach subs, the amount of exposure I’ve been doing, and the actual results I’ve been getting. I realized I’m not really happy with the way things have been going.

I’ve come to see that I need to take a more active role and engage intentionally in the process. More importantly, I need to move away from the constant “healing mode” that I somehow internalized as the main purpose of using subs.

From my perspective, staying in that mode without seeing tangible results isn’t the direction I want to keep going. At the end of this cycle, I questioned that very deeply, along with the real attitude I need to have toward subs. So, I’m going to do a washout, refresh a little and start this next cycle with a different mindset.

Also, once again, my pendulum pointed to RICH as the title I should be the most consistent with for wealth. I tried taking it out of my stack, but I’m going back to it and staying the course.

Monarch also came up as the title that will help me create the biggest changes in my external reality, so once it’s released, I’ll adjust my stack accordingly.

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#209

Wow! Another really great video. It gave me some valuable insights into the questions and feelings that had been echoing within me.
Especially the part about the difference between trying to manipulate external reality and genuinely influencing it.

#210

∆ WASHOUT ∆

While Monarch isn’t out yet, I’ll be using NW because I felt it working on some really interesting aspects of my self-esteem and self-worth in a nice way.

#211

∆ NEW CYCLE ∆
∆ RICH + Regen ∆
∆ rest day ∆

Regen has a way of making some aspects of healing feel so effortless… It moves beyond the obvious and toward what I truly need, even the things I sometimes don’t admit to myself.

Here we go. A new cycle.
I’m hoping to build some strong positive momentum with these subs and create new patterns in the way I function.