Finding Myself Again

Those interested in yoga and energy cultivation would understand what’s happening here:

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That’s what reuniting my own power and energy feels like - a union of the past and present, each dissolving and merging into one another. There is another metaphorical meaning to this pose too, which has also been happening out in the streets. With washout and cycle 2, this is what I want to happen with greater force and depth. Total reconstruction and rebuild of who I was and who I am now.

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Cycle 2 of DRLD is on and this is my early results on the first day:

  • My overall personality has changed to become a steady, radiating but stable masculine aura. It is remarkable that in 22 days, I am leaner, healthier and much more powerful internally
  • Other men that would have targeted me for my weakness have started to back off, or are trying to curry my favour.
  • Workplace that I have been at for 3 years doesn’t energetically fit anymore and am engineering an exit.
  • The little bit of the shy boy still left is actively dying off
  • Women are rapidly melting down, reflexively twirling and hair flipping before I see them.
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  • This included a female senior manager at my workplace, she sat in a very prone position…

More than the above, no one can fuck with me anymore, I do not allow it energetically. Not family, not work, not anyone who’s having a bad day. They see me and immediately avoid trying anything. That is what I’ve wanted since I discovered SubClub years ago. Protection, then power, then owning the world.

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“I belong here. I don’t need to explain my presence.”

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Love that position, gives a great bicep workout too if you help her out.

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This quote has me confident enough to install myself in public places, trying out new things and giving less of a shit what other people think. I enjoy myself and that’s the only thing that matters.
DR:LD with Invincible Presence makes sure anyone who feels like challenging me backs off rapidly.

Every memory starts to come up of me getting shouted at, whipped, humiliated, friendzoned, physically imposed on and feeling taken advantage of. DR:LD heals those memories by fire, my aura changes and that fuels my desire to get revenge for that little boy and never be dominated ever again. Imposing security guards physically back off, unstable alphas avoid eye contact as if I was invisible…

The cure for being a Nice Guy™?

Understand that what @Skadoosh describes a “beta male” is nothing more than a dominated, traumatised male. The core of a Nice Guy™ is childhood trauma.

Then acknowledge the lack of power that a Nice Guy™ demonstrates - being supplicant with women, bosses, friends, strangers, even yourself.

The next and final step is generate your own inner power. It will clash with the power others have been using on you for favours, laughs etc. but they will soon back off. Your inner power will confirm to you that you are alive and you mean something to the world (warning: you will even get high on your own supply as you become no one’s lapdog).

Some people will call this inner power generation “alpha”, it is just giving a Nice Guy™ a spine of steel. So someone calls you a dick because you won’t fall for being used like a sheet of toilet paper? A woman rejects you? (most likely because your spine hasn’t formed yet) So what?

You like you.

Take space for fuck’s sake.

alpha

I don’t use this term anymore as YouTube wankers, tossers and complete bellends act in completely unregulated ways that insult the term. Again, like @Skadoosh says, an “alpha” is an integrated male - no need to perform.

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I enjoy reading your progress @Michel. I find myself encouraged. :+1:

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Dragon Reborn Limit Destroyer progress

From initial diagnosis (no LBFH, LB due to crippling recon) to mid cycle 2:

DR:LD Diagnosis Current Cycle 2 Reality
Masculine freeze, false obedience, identity loss Masculine structure, erotic sovereignty, emerging archetypal embodiment
Not knowing who you are because you’ve never felt safe enough to find out You are now feeling safe in your own field — enough to let go of tracking, submission, and proving
Hiding under the behaviors of appeasement, underperformance, and shame Replacing with posture of weight, containment, and silent power
External referencing as survival Internal referencing as identity: you now “sit inside yourself” without asking permission
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Relationship templates before and after:

Before DR:LD Now – Cycle 2, Day 10
No coherent signal, others disregard you Contained field; men submit, women orbit unconsciously
Over-attachment to sexual signs Post-sexual polarity — sex energy is you
Fear of being seen or heard Radiating silent “don’t test me” command presence

Is it that good

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For my situation (described above), yes. I overlooked DR:LD before as a sort of superficial limit crusher.

Then I could actually breathe in life without the big boot of authority wrapped around my neck.

Life got a whole lot clearer and gasp I could actually choose not to get dominated, even wield power myself!!¡!!

So, yes it is that good.

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Do you feel on confidence you grew?

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Not in the “I feel great” sense, more “no one’s trying to destroy me, so I can relax now”.

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Got it, and this is a feeling that is directly linked to your background and what you (un)consciously trying to achieve. Nice.

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Lol, yeah I agree - I mainly use the word for easy communication. If you’re a “beta male” and become an “alpha male”, it’s gives this false impression that you’ve somehow made it. “Oh, I’m the Alpha Male now”. The reality is that growth never stops for anyone. I don’t look at it as you becoming more Alpha or more fitting into a societally defined archetype - it’s as simple as you stepping into more aligned versions of Michel.

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Well…

DRLD is giving me a brand new me.

Exit wounded little boy.

Enter unmoving, unapologetic, still, masculine me.

However the 40 year old supine boy just won’t die without a fight, so a few adjustments are needed alongside another cycle of DRLD. Job prospects, health and actually deserving self care are my priorities as well as dumping toxic people and situations.

I no longer think I’m insignificant, in fact the feedback is other men have stopped fucking with me (passive aggressive), deferring, even thinking that I’m in charge of part of the transport system here. Security at a place I work at have shit themselves trying to figure out who/what I am… Women? Well, just check the Khan Black sales page and you’ll get the idea…

DRLD is the grow up, little boy subliminal.

Btw DRLD can stand in for Dragon Reborn Complete as a mini version.

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I’ve realised that I give off a vibe of

  • Don’t fuck with me
  • Fuck around and find out
  • I’m in charge (I’m not)

And for women

  • You’re safe to unwind in my presence
  • You and your child is safe in my presence

It is a far cry from verbal and racial abuse, “let’s be friends”, “you’re worthless” and “you’ll never make anything of your life” (actually said by my school teacher). A degree and a master’s later…

I like it when I see previously sensitive boys who got kicked around turn into people others can’t push around (unfortunately some become unbalanced “gangsters” and end up in trouble). Because that was me. It’s not about becoming “alpha”, it’s realising that you’re allowed to exist fully with no guilt/shame blocks installed by parents and society.

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This guy gets it.

DRLD breaks you and burns you in order to create the pre-foundation needed to be a man with strong presence.

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Something to look forward to. A clear progression from what DRLD is doing which is breaking down the structures that prevent masculine embodiment and rebuilding them from scratch. Containment, spine and sheer pressure. Something that says “don’t even try it with me, see what happens…”

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Again an absolute steal of a subliminal product. £35 is too cheap for a whole life turnaround. The destruction of lifelong false beliefs for 40 years in one cycle.

Cleared a lot of self imposed shit, trained by others but maintained by me out of misguided loyalty to “superiors”.

  • Why can’t I act on what I want, always trying not to upset others with a hair trigger and an anger problem?
  • Why can’t I put my own happiness first? Why do other people have such a problem with me and my existence?
  • Why when I flex my own muscles (in a small way) it is powerfully shut down immediately?
  • Why can’t I just show joy out loud for once?

Add to the above with abuse and trauma and you have a recipe for a disempowering boy trying to figure life out with his hands tied being his back.

Well, no more.

Cycle 2 is clearing even more crap to do with obeying faulty beliefs - now the ones targeted are in adult life.

  • Why was I so blind to being treated like shit by others at work?
  • Why did I let them get away with calling me a dickhead?
  • Did I have a sign on my head that said "please treat me like a pub toilet, I love it!.
  • Why didn’t I just get up and leave a relationship earlier when it was clearly unhealthy?
  • Did I love being belittled and led like a sad puppy?
    The answer was yes.

Now it’s fuck off.

Yes I’m angry.

At laying down and taking it for so fucking long. With zero reply, a middle fingered, justified response to everyone that fucked me over and knew it.

To those who saw what I was and stayed clear, thinking “this guy’s weird/lonely”, thank you for dipping out on me. You selected yourselves out. At least you didn’t take the piss.

For those rare ones that not only stayed, but added to my life - the teachers and lecturers that saw my potential, friends who stayed, gave tough love and shared experiences - a big thank you. It took far too long for me to get right, but I have.

New GLM looks promising, I promise to develop myself to the point where no one fucks with me EVER AGAIN and if they do, the response will be very swift. But also enjoy life too, free of others’ limiting bullshit, because I deserve it.

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