hitting a roadblock
Feeling really good about myself, although I’ve reached a plateau - getting used to Ascended Mogul and even doubting the effects consciously, Usually a plateau just means another breakthrough is imminent, just need to be a little more patient and playing a few more loops.
However those doubts about my new behaviour is manifesting as seemingly abandoning myself again for that delicious outside social approval. Frankly I still care too much what others think of me and I still care who my next girlfriend will be. Pathetic. Trying to forget about both is a challenge.
a new grind
Business sense is increasing, a big change is the subtle soft motivation to start a side business in an area I’m well suited to: helping others heal. A lot of progress has already happened with picking a domain name picked etc… the rest should come when I’m more motivated.
Roadblocks.
Getting used to it also takes time, but the idea of returning to agency work for pennies at some loud beer soaked hellhole or cleaning up the shit from someone’s plate is somehow supplying the rest of the motivation.