Hold up she actually says that out loud? That’s weird man. That would have me internally cringing so bad.
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@Fractal_Explorer in front of my colleagues as well… To be fair she is of Asian extraction, maybe it’s a culture thing…
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[Stacked] StarkQ Terminus
StarkQ Terminus - Q but turnt up.
Holy shit, it is intense. Even more intense than just Q which is already fuckin’ intense. One loop is enough for the day. Holy shit man. In the future I imagine we’ll all have bio USB ports installed directly into our neo cortex with Q subs downloaded directly. (@Fire is working on it as we speak…)
Reading back the No More Mr Nice Guy book and being pleased with actually accomplishing the task of putting myself first (or at least acknowledging that I have needs). The next step is to be a man, fully and unapologetically.
To enhance the romance aspects of StarkQ I’ve added PS/SMX to the mix. Can’t help thinking of @elme’s fantastic results with Sex Mastery X.
I’m looking sharp and sexy. I’m dressing to impress and arouse, this time without shying away from my sexuality. Early results are some of the 7s and 8s nurses are starting to pay attention. I’ve even got a few of the senior Sisters coy and smiling when I say something funny.
StarkQ Terminus early results:
Extreme nonchalance, everything is going to be alright, hate me, come at me bro, whatever. Rolling into work chilled and shit. Self assured and confidence.
Surprising change is that I’m eating better too, taking vitamins, drinking apple vinegar water (yuck) and not going too mad on sweets. Not sure if that’s part of the StarkQ script?
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Same happened to me since listening to StarkQ, so I would confirm this a result of the subliminal making you take care of yourself to reach optimal levels
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Wow great results my friend, in case your doing that you should also check immune system boosts to incorporate on your daily routine. What do you want to accomplish with this sub? Also do you feel like you need to work out? Just seeing if spartan was in it 
The new version of Sex Mastery seems more smoother, but again ill update you on the results.
Im cheering up for your success!!! 
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Funny you say that, I’m so desperate to work out in the gym, once lockdown has finished. Didn’t know Spartan was part of StarkQ too. Nice surprises!
Just reread your Sex Mastery Journal again @elme and thinking “my man!”.
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Pimp training:
At the hospital entrance, this blonde retracted her lips when seeing me, caught a glimpse walking towards me, then she did a massive hair flip as we passed each other.
Of course I also get the girls that fake the funk, whipping out their cell phone…
Predator meets prey
I fucked up a lunch order by mixing up two patients, a fairly ballsy student nurse who I’ve taken a liking to rubs it in: "you only have two patients! (how are you getting it wrong?) I retorted “shut up you!” to her laughing.
On leaving, I throw a paper ball at her, she snaps back “hope you don’t get the lunches wrong tomorrow…” I’ll admit, she got me. That did cut deep… Despite that, I’m kinda proud of her anyway.
The art career is dead
Sadly attempts to revive the art corpse fell flat again: rejected for another project… I must accept that it’s over. The new life is of service to others, working at hospital feels right in my soul.
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Life of a PS/SMX listener
Monday: ALL DA GIRLS! ALL DA GIRLS! DAFUQ!
Thursday: meh, not really bothered…
Hoping it’s to do with not needing their approval rather than reconciliation/switching tendency.
I’ve been getting more IOIs from a few blondes, I’ve been expecting them to have an attitude, but I speak to them and they turn a little shy. I’ve also been getting “that look” from a few in their 40s.
Taking care of myself, been power napping on the job to mitigate serving two wards last minute. But by taking action, starting by working earlier and planning in advance - I finished early and with more energy.
Taking the Piss
Having a colleague mocking me by pointing out that I’ve gained a little weight, even going so far as to grope my belly. “He’s going to end up like [another colleague with a beer belly]” and getting his friends to laugh at me.
However the second time he did this, I refused to laugh along and cut it short by asking him where the sugar was. But reframed it by saying “Not that kind of sugar, girl, calm down…”. Hopefully that’s the end of the “banter”. When someone feels comfortable taking the piss, gotta tap back.
Playing favourites
Everybody is born equal. Then God starts playing favourites - Vic Mackey (The Shield)
I don’t want to be playing favourites because Everybody Is Equal™ 
. But there’s no way I’m letting others who have had a bad day and feel it’s ok to dump their anger onto me - get away without repercussions.
I’ll have to re-examine my boundaries with these people and shut off those who have their cards marked.
Can I find value in myself? - @subliminalguy
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Skills.
I nominate this as one of your theme songs.
I should have included the slow motion walk away from the explosion. Next time.
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Okay. Couldn’t resist.
Here’s the Director’s cut of ‘Michel Shutting Sh*t Down at Work’.
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p.s. Yes, I know.
The first step is admitting you have a problem.
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Title sorted for next journal 
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The metaphysical question is: does the “problem” solve another…?
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indeed.
today, the problem entertained me, and gave me a break from working.
Do I actually deserve it?
If the world outside is a reflection of the inside, then I’m rich, biatch!
Another limiting belief uncovered by StarkQ “I don’t deserve prosperity” I was treated like a VIP at lunchtime by several (very charitable) furloughed staff working for the airlines in a charity give back for our COVID efforts. I fought the voice inside saying “this isn’t for people like me", "you don’t deserve this”. Then I decided that if it’s good enough for my colleagues, it’s good enough for me.
Passion always pays off
I keep getting gifted with food and treats, like a LOT of food. Whereas with the aborted art career I kept getting rejected.
I’ve come to the conclusion that if you’re doing the work God called you to do, you’ll be richly rewarded.
The SubClub journey revealed to me the painful truth that fame as an artist is a dead end. I wanted it badly, but the prophetic symbolic dream of bombing the Virginia mansion with the leaking plumbing said otherwise. It’s over. The Leo cycle of creativity and lovers is done. I had to leave what I built behind. The. New cycle of Virgo is here, it’s service to others, taking details and organising them, taking what I’ve learnt and applying them in a practical way.
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Mackin’ ain’t necessary
On a happier note, I initiated and had two decent length conversations with women on the job: first one was a student nurse colleague who is about to graduate from nursing school. I asked her why she was a nurse: “why not?” she said.
The other was a stewardess furloughed from her airline. I simply led with questions about themselves and how much they love their job. The stewardess broke herself away for a minute, but then spoke with other staff whilst facing me with IOIs.
Talking to women is easy, I couldn’t believe it was so difficult in the past. Macking isn’t really necessary, when she’s interested. Hit them with the raw sexual aura, then any conversation will have them all excited.
Shutting Sh*t Down - Part 2
Being NHS staff is no shield against being discriminated against.
Stopped in the supermarket for appearing to pay for two items when I had three. The security guard said: “excuse me, you had three items there, you didn’t pay for them” I showed him the third item, which was an store branded product from another supermarket. I simply took out the item, pointed to it and said: “since when did your shop change its name?” and walked out.
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Should’ve also hit him with “You want to follow me to my car to make sure I didn’t steal that too?” Just for that extra zing.
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Standing in Power
Facing the outside world and my self esteem is holding up very well, even in the face of disapproval of other men and women. Being watched as a sexual threat by men and one girl giving me a looking-down disapproving look.
When StarkQ gives a purpose in life, no-one else can touch you.
Shutting Sh*t Down at Work - Part 3
Unbelievably the work colleague repeated the same lame joke about my stomach (which hasn’t been expanding, btw) to his female clique. "He had a six pack, now it’s a family pack!" So I took the piece of paper I had, rolled it up and pointed it at him: “he had a full head of hair when he started, now look at him”
If he’s not careful, I’m going to have to, reluctantly, pimp slap this mufugga PCC-style.
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That guy is seriously jealous of you, with his display of beta simp behaviour. Good for you keeping your cool and making and even better comeback statement. He will learn soon enough, not to fuck with you. Great to see how well Stark and PCC work, from this info in your journal. All the best to you on your journey Michel.
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