Khan
ST4
Day 7
A short realisation: I’ve still got major healing to do. Feelings of disapproval, alienation, being accused of being wrong (shamed for being me) still bubble up, however they’re about 2/3rds less intense and crippling than before. I doubled up on Elixir and Regeneration to get that thorough healing.
I also realise that despite everything that’s happened, I’m appreciative of what I have - my health, living quarters, a passion in art and a steady living. Trying to look for better is kinda futile - the live I have is the one I was given. No point in wishing otherwise.
Regressing a little regarding assertiveness - couldn’t stand up to certain people (especially in the other city) but I am learning where not to invest in people, to quickly to cut it off and keep it moving. I deserve the best, if you’re not going to give it to me, they’ve got to go…
2020 is the year of the Khan.