Insults can use these labels but it doesn’t mean that the labels are insulting.
They can be limiting and victim focused if you make them.
Or, they can help you find more self acceptance and stop the victim mindset entirely.
Instead of saying “I hate XYZ,” you can start to say “XYZ is hard for me here is how I’m adapting”
As a related point, I’m guessing you also didn’t need the approval of anyone there to be there.
Had to reread that a few times… Nice wordplay.
I did air my grievances with the art group about feeling misunderstood and only a few got it. It needed to be said out loud because carrying the burden of others projections isn’t something I’m no longer willing to do. I’ve lost a lot of time banishing myself instead of firming up and Ascension-wise put up some big beautiful boundaries.
What a feeling to choose to interact with someone from afar because they’re acting up. I don’t need to love everyone/anyone to exist.
Essentially climbing out of the mentality of “the group above all”, neutralise yourself as an individual, keep your head down and “taking my flowers”.
What’s more - that reservoir of self confidence wasn’t granted by anyone else - so it can’t be taken away.
Now, the Wanted mentality.
I’m noticing the initial excitement of attracting hotties has died down. Not that the attraction has gone but my mindset is turning more towards “you aight, but so am I”. I’m also noticing with good accuracy which women would match well - often it isn’t the ones that I’d thought. Which brings me to the sub.
Previous runs of Wanted slashed through my own deep jealousy and lack of options, reinforced by my own scarcity mindset (hello no money), however this time round the initial excitement and promise has given way to a sense of “ok”. Once you get used to the signs, I just trust they are there. Looking out for signs becomes a futile exercise, besides life still needs to be lived, right?
I can’t be walking around thinking “she wants me, she wants me” because it’s neurotic. But it is getting used to the new “aight” mindset stage. Of course women manifest around me, why question it?
Then it gets to things like manifestation and quantum jumping - belief > conviction > actions > behaviours > belief…
(I was a bit late with playing a loop of Wanted today, probably because I didn’t feel I needed to, but I did it anyway.)
So, the next stage in the Wanted sub is to just let it cook in the background (just like everything else in this insane heat). The aim now is not to get excited but to keep my composure when attractive women show up, getting comfortable with abundance with detachment. So I was surprised when I ran into three baddies in a row on the way to the local store. Then travelling on the train for me time and several attractive women manifest in my carriage. Finally relaxing in the square where more attractive women just seem to find me and place themselves.
Each time just noticing it as if it was everyday this happens, giving each woman a look, then carrying on. That seem to send the following reactions on overdrive.
I am not a Don Juan by any stretch of the imagination, however this is starting to become a real belief. I am attractive. Behaviour wise, more authentic, less rigid, all the faults of my body on show and still loving it. I also have “that” glow in my face (you know what I’m talking about).
There’s an ease with being sexually desired running underneath the bonnet and I believe this is where the real results of this sub are found. Going with the current rather than fighting it.
I got approached in the square. Two girls sat next to me whilst I was watching cricket (boring) - the two women were doing a promo, getting me to download an app, however she started revealing who she was without me prompting, a nice Egyptian girl and was keen to display her talents… in languages. She even agreed to hotspot me. I noticed that afterwards, the two didn’t approach anyone else in the square…
New level unlocked. The sub said "fuck an IOI lol", saw the self container held under mild pressure and decided to turn up the heat.
Add to Ascension’s inner solidity (and a few floaters wanting to copy me) and there’s absolutely no doubt about the direction of travel.
Today was the day that the burgeoning Wanted personality first took root, the push-pull attitude is starting to show itself. I know when women are sneaking looks and feel comfortable returning them out of the corner of my eye, being “that guy”. “being the prize” is no longer an abstract concept anymore, It’s me, I own it.
It feels like an alternative reality - cool calm self assurance, zero doubt about my worth, no one wanting to bully me or cut me down, settled inner peace, following my own interests, setting my own schedule. It’s giving main character energy.
A year ago I felt like absolute shit, trying to piece together my broken self from a toxic relationship, giving a façade of “everything’s alright” when it wasn’t, breathing fumes, but smart enough to figure out the main issues. Right now, I’m at the point of achieving high self worth for the first time in my life ever. Without sounding arrogant, the group’s needs and wants and other people are not more important than me - I (as an individual human being with his own wants, created by the divine) exists.
I’m going to enjoy my new self, personally and when it comes to high level seduction. It’s my birthright.
There will be a tipping point with Wanted soon - I don’t think this sub has even reached peak status yet, because by just being in the park enjoying my own lil picnic, fine women passing by everywhere… I know they’re looking, so to lean into the sub, I’m experimenting with returning gazes… with most women returning “that” look. No approaches but that’s fine, since I get some good me time, listening to music and pondering on the next stage of life as I reach my next birthday. Sometimes I do wonder if Wanted becomes simply a game of strong inner frame - how with all my body flaws on show is women lusting? Again, this isn’t the peak Wanted, just a very interesting taster…
I have an inkling that Chosen is still after finishing Ascension - the call to positive leadership is uniquely mine and I am called to do it. My numerous bad luck experiences are literally made for this. Converting shit into sugar for the masses.
There’s still a little foundation work to be done as with RSD I’m still “scared” of in-person meetings, the phone ringing, group disapproval, things not going to plan, etc. It’s horrible having it, but ST2 is doing great work for confidence and I hope it’s enough for RSD, if not a little more nervous system relaxing will do.
Wanted is still doing its foundational work, namely the identity shifting towards being "that guy"and it is a little bit challenging to do it without any doubts, but once the identity of a Wanted man becomes good, I can play with it. There’s no fear of talking to women unlike the previous 4-cycle run and there’s no trauma to dig past.
Today, I’m in the shopping queue and this tall broad in a striped shirt is in front, nothing major for me, just paid and left, but she waited for me outside just to then cross my path in a “have some of this, boy” attitude. My thinking is more “I know I could rock your world, come and get it” the sly knowing escaping my face. Women placing themselves nearby on purpose is quite the ego booster.
Have you ran dragon reborn limit destroyer?
Could subs even fix that?
Yes, DRLD did a lot of excellent work dismantling the more negative aspects of ADHD. Looking back, those 4 cycles did a lot of the heavy lifting over rejection sensitivity.
Since it is only in the context of being social, maybe a run of Summertime could help?
Yeah I was thinking Phoenix, similar to DRLD but different! Should be rapid and intense! And an amazing results enhancer for Wanted/ASC, whereas Summertime would be more additional scripting/features rather than a results enhancer
But I always prefer to stick to titles that I know work for me because I’ve run them - that way I also get to keep deepening the results of one sub rather than jump around with new subs, new results, new recon.
If DRLD works, go back to it! Great third title to microloop alongside ASC/Wanted
So I got curious about what Phoenix could do for 5 seconds, not sure what has substantially changed, but will play with it, but not too long.
Ascension may well be the all time goat sub, never have I felt internally so solid and safe and wondering if life really is this potentially easy. It isn’t, but I’ve had lifetimes of shit - this is the end of the rainbow.
Wanted - well I’ve been to two work related meetings, even though I cannot be bothered with them (RSD again). But the second one was interesting as the audience was 95% women. Work environments in the UK are easier going, but still professional. So it was amusing to see the body language of my female superiors colleagues trying to not give anything away - and failing.
Outside work a few more blatant signs like repeated leaning in etc but now with a level of non neediness and nonchalance my previous self could never achieve previously. In a good way - “I don’t care!”
Am I that deficient? Or can I have all of the shit within without blaming or turning ok outward? Or are the training wheels being taken off? Roll by yourself. Stop relying on female likes and survive by yourself.
How I think of myself is changing fast and I feel alone for most of it. This old identity was definitely handed to me and it sucks. This Phoenix reframing feels quick, upsetting and then a relief. That’s only 5 seconds. I’ve always wanted an end to my old codependency identity where other people somehow held the key to my very survival and that hasn’t been the case for ages now. I want to know myself so deep that “standing on business” is easy. No one can tell me about myself. But even my own identity is muddled, because of family enmeshment and identity underdevelopment. Definitely a new identity (criticism resistant) is in order.
Because of what Phoenix is doing, Wanted wise, I less concerned about the details of what piece of attraction is coming, because it will anyway. I think reinforcing my identity is taking importance right now.
Family enmeshment is so rough. It sucks you still feel like your personality is underdeveloped. Have you ever tried IFS therapy?
No but I’ve done hypnosis, Theta Healing and the like, I feel they get to the point faster rather than chewing on trauma endlessly. Phoenix for an identity haul too.
Looks like that Phoenix blast changed my stack…
Back on DreamBoi.
There’s no issue with Wanted at all, fantastic sub, but like last time the archetype doesn’t fit me well. I can feel the mysterious conqueror personality change coming and I don’t like it at all.
So I’m going to embrace the stack change (whether it’s sabotage or not) and do DreamBoi instead. Like last time I can definitely align with this archetype more. I couldn’t be a gym person, dressing sharply and counting notches in this new identity era.
Funny thing is reading the congruence statement Wanted sounded like me. But microdosing Phoenix (and ZP) made me realise that being me rather than adjusting to something that isn’t “me” is preferable and far less work. (Cancer 
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flavour suggests so)
Some results are women in close quarters in the train picked up on the sub immediately like the air changed quality. I could feel it too, like a pink mist descended inside the train. Think I zoned out but caught a lot of women sniffing their hair and closing their eyes.
A benefit from DreamBoi is the nervous system scripting, general softer attraction vibe and I don’t have to be anything other than myself! What a revolutionary concept (think I’ve said that before…)
That 5 second blast of Phoenix revealed something I didn’t expect - when the old identity is corrupted, form a new one but one rooted in more authenticity. Work with, not against my actual self.
You felt Wanted pushed you too be a gym guy while WDB didn’t? Can you talk more about the differences?
No - what I’m saying is Wanted asks you to live your life in accordance with it, so going to the gym and being a “player” is in line with the sub, whereas my current lifestyle isn’t that.
I’m not interested in to going to the gym. I’m active in other ways as I walk a shit ton. Nor am I interested in being a player and accruing bed notches. However DreamBoi gives me permission to be myself, use my own natural skills and give me magic dust however I’m dressed, which is usually like Gap style smart casual.
You think so? I ran NW for 3 months and it was quite the healing experience. What it helped me feel comfortable in my body, ‘warts’ and all. Can’t say much about gym bro or player vibes. I was already someone who worked out and dressed well, but Wanted Dream Boy took all that to another level. Dream Boy had be structuring workout routines, doing macro meal prep and reinventing my style. Heck, thanks to WDB I have a closet full of suits I wear on a regular basis,