Almost 2 months on Emperor
Avg listening 7 hrs in a day . ( for Emperor )
I can feel so much rage and impatience inside me, even in day to day activities.
I am aware of that and I even catch it moment it triggers. Before Subs I had lot of patience and anger/ rage would also trigger after many inputs but now I can feel it even while driving / or talking also.
Moment anything is not as per my wish I am not happy abt it and anger triggers, may be it will subsidise as I am not comfortable with this attitude of mine.
On brighter side, I am more firm in my decision making , I can envision how I want my business to be, as a company head I am giving everyone tangible targets, all this is good feeling.
There are days of sadness and reconciliation too but now they are all as in like a day and in morng I am energetic again.
I desire my girl more now, J am so much falling for her again, and she also loving me more ( may be this is magic of SM) . Our sex life is wild and passionate. But seems I don’t want to talk to any other girl apart from her … this is new for me.
I have started dressing up more nicely though that was not an issue before also but it feels better .
I have athletic body but I feel more toned / though I havent hit gym, all I do is run which is same as before.
I feel comfortable playing emperor and mogul and I will keep on doing it till December atleast.