DAY 20:
last night i went to blonde chicks apartment
Kind of awkward to talk about this stuff so i wont get into to many details but basically
I showed up to her apartment and bro something weird was going on,
sexual tension from out the gate
She tried to seduce me the moment i walked in
I created a boundary idk why bro i am so different, the old me would immediately just give in and go straight to sex
But i am acting all high value, serious and assertive exhibiting ridiculous self control and delayed gratification
B/c i didnt give in and i stood my ground unphased like a rock and started asking questions about her im not really sure why
Its like im trying to perceive her value or something, i have no idea
Like she is projecting pure sex at me and i am seated, composed and ignoring it all and basically asking “who are you”
Idk what it is its almost like i was subconsciously trying to figure out why is she worth my time and that was more important than sex
The Old me would never even comprehend that…Wow have i changed…
I am so different bro i am too much controlled lmao i am in Emperor mode the whole time
I am trying to be serious but she is overly playful like a kitten the whole time
It felt like im with some1 immature
But i didnt get turned off because thats impossible lol she seemed even hotter than when i first saw her
Not sure if thats her or is it my perception changed? Idk. Idc.
Anyways she started touching me and then immediately something clicked in my mind like idk how to explain i went pure sex mode its like i absorbed all the sexual tension in the room in 1 breath and i became possessed
Its like i switched from from Emperor non sex version to Emperor sex version
The whole past weeks when your busy being productive, you dont really think about sex
But now that i was directing my focus on sex in that moment… it hit me like an absolute nuclear bomb truck, it was overwhelming me, i never felt that in my life, its not an urge. its more like your whole state of being getting smacked into a different direction.
Without details basically i had the best sex ever and i am not even exagerating LOL
Some weird things too like I was more forward and dominant the whole time than i usually am.
I had confidence as if i was a professional like as if id had sex with a million partners and i had maximum sexual confidence idk where it came from
Also the whole experience was different to me idk bro
Best way i can explain it is i was into it in ways that i never was before.
It was just way different
Like everything was “enhanced” idk man
I never had sex like that it was like im on drugs
Its gotta be from the subs, i mean i had sex after being on a long dry spell before but this was something way different
Anyway enough about that stuff
Today i woke up and i started looking at gym equipment online, i might buy some dumbbells or pull up bar
I am going to get very serious about physical health and exercise, today i am also gonna buy a good scale and track all my bodyfat % and everything
Also im getting well equipped for my job interview in monday, i am optimistic and super confident, i have a business plan i am working on too on the side and also some of my family members are getting more openminded and contributing to me,
Even though they were negative in the beginning, now they are coming around and respecting me LOL b/c they see all these moves im making im just too on top of my shit and i have the fire in my eyes, my eyes are like glowing with the strongest ambition you will ever see like im a little crazy LOL
People around me are more supportive now, even though i dont need it. I can be a oneman army and no one will ever stop me no mattr what… but still its nice to have support and accomodating me if i need help hahaha very nicee 
how convenient 
Also today i was texting blonde chick and now she is more forthcoming in learning more and having conversations. i dont blame her because she never had sex like that either
I found out she is actually like me as well very driven etc
Weird stuff man… weird stuff lol 
That would be trippy if she was running Emperor too and manifested me LMAO
But yeah bro i am on the trajectorys now and i only see it getting better my optimism is too strong now
I dont think i can see negative even if i tried lol
“It’s my first time, I never done that before. - Yeah sure.” Man you gotta love women for that shit, they are really crazier than us 
