Eternal Void - an Invictus journal

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#33

Okay quick update:

Gonna stop Alchemist till it’s updated to ZPv2.
I don’t know why, but it keeps feeling weird to use it in V1 :sweat_smile:

At this point, with Cosmic Transcendence and RoM, using V1 sub with 2 V2 powerhouses makes me realize just how great the new build is, so waiting is what I shall do.

In the meantime, I don’t know why, but I just couldn’t sleep last night, was in a very conscious rest.
I was very aware of everything, yet even my watch thought I was asleep due to my heart rate, stillness, and breathing.

At one point, I felt like I was in that one state between being awake and asleep, sort of a psychedelic feeling, as it felt quite hallucinogenic :sweat_smile: but still, this is weird :thinking:

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#34

I have had that happen sometimes when I practice corpse meditation to help fall asleep, or sometimes after an intense workout. The sensations are something else, sometimes I have dreamt while still also present.

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#35

It’s a very weird feeling, but surprisingly, I’m at the army camp for duty and I’m pretty chilled, zero fatigue or exhaustion… just a bit high :rofl:

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#36

Ego, higher self, the subconscious, other “me”, the shadow, the ideal self…

Why the fuck do we keep separating them as individual concepts :man_facepalming:t2:

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#37

Because we all suffer from various degrees of multiple personality disorder :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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#38

But then that doesn’t even make it a disorder, does it now :eyes:?

The way I see it, we’re just scattered mentally, with all conditioning happening around us.

Some tell us to contribute to the world, others tell us we have to be super confident to achieve things, while some other teachings influence us to be all spiritual and esoteric, and some telling us to just be content.

I say, all that is bullshit.
We don’t even tap into our natural selves anymore, everyone is striving to be something, instead of just being, and that’s not called giving in to your ego, instead, that’s what I see as being true to yourself.

I’ve been thinking about this, every spiritual teaching I’m coming across keeps mentioning to be our truest self, yet they say certain things need to be let go of, well, what if my truest self is an aspect they’re telling me to let go of?
Does that mean I’m bound to never be able to connect deeper with my spirit?

What if that certain aspect itself is the bridge that gives me my personal union with my spirit? Then does that make my own spirit “shallow”?

They say the Ego leads the self to comfort and self sabotage…
Then I guess my pride isn’t considered an “ego”, seeing as I’ve just been growing beyond what I’ve ever imagined.

I feel like all this time, I’ve just been approaching to this whole thing wrong, it’s not a part of me that I need to let go of, it’s that same part that I need to fully embrace and stop giving a damn about walking other people’s “ways”.

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Main Disc. Thread - The Revelation of Mind (Custom Module Available!) (2.27.23 Hotfix Available!)
#39

I know, I kinda wrote it with that in mind. I remember someone talking about this way back and also joking about when it does count as a disorder, because its all varying degrees of the same thing.

YEP, remember back when I was doing the whole “I don’t give a fuck attitude” just to show others how I didn’t give a fvck :thinking: :joy:

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#40

Was it last year when I started the mental disorders thread?

I think it’s less about giving a fuck about others and more about being in a state of harmony with yourself.

There’s no need to ever let go parts of yourself, cause you can’t really, as we are made to be whole, yet society with all its sub-societies just wants us to judge aspects of ourselves and slice them as if we’re pizza :slight_smile:

#41

Nah this was like a decade ago, I think it was David Hawkins who said it.

Mhm I realized that after 3023 tries of trying to be cool.

Self-development is a prime example of this when it comes to marketing. Problem Agitate Solution, this slice of pizza is the best and you’ll get a complimentary pink goat if you order today… [Insert Countdown Timer Here]

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#42

And this realization is gonna be changing everything.

or more like, bring back things I’ve had to bottle down :wink:

Everyone just wanna sell an ideology.
But I don’t blame them, the human mind is very gullible :joy:

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#43

Also very interesting when you start aligning with that harmonious state that is you, and you realize that most BS you thought you wanted and wanted to be was just not something you actually wanted (lot’s of wanted in one sentence), but just programs installed by the world around you. This leaves a kind of void which is so confusion in the beginning before you understant that this is actually your natural state.

Would might sound kind of weird if they actually said; I want to sell You! :laughing:

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#44

yo @Invictus can you link your best wanted stark custom? I wanted to take a peak at it

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#45

There

I wouldn’t say it’s the best (if you consider the fact that I don’t listen to 2 cores customs anymore haha)

#46

Maybe because they are individual concepts of ourselves? But that’s the thing, they are concepts of the whole who we call ourselves. So if it’s a part of us, are they really separate? What you’re describing is something I have been trying to figure out for about 1 year and still trying to figure out.

It’s like football right, You have a side that likes Real Madrid. The high-status club has achieved so much and we love having this side of us. This is the Wanted side you’re describing. It feeds your ego, but it also gave you a lot of positive results. But there is also West ham United. A club with so much history, authenticity, and healthy pride. It has not achieved that much, but we love watching it because it is real, there is almost no ego in it.

What we forget is that both teams are playing the game they love called football. So it seems separate, but it’s part of the same.

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#47

I’ve been nibbling on the same train of thought recently, thanks to Emperor Black. I’ve spent more than a decade on “personal development” but really… did any of it really help make me become more aligned with… my genuine self?

I suppose “Ego” can mean either “the avatar that represents me both high and low”, but also in a different context “a desire for something that I perceive will compensate for a lack or an anxiety regarding something else”.
Like me running Wanted because I initially feel/think it will compensate for something I lack or something I desire (attention and validation :man_shrugging:) , but truly it is not in alignment at all with what I deeply and genuinely desire from life as a whole, making it a “lesser choice.” an “Ego-choice”.

But to be rather crass… it’s a term widely open to interpretation and ergo utterly useless without relevant context. “Ego is bad” just doesn’t mean anything, IMO. That’s just toxic lightworker stuff :joy:

Ah, I almost forgot… circling back to what I quoted above… Wouldn’t Renaissance Man together with Emperor Black (and some RoM on the side) be just wonderful in terms of radical self-acceptance and exploration, as well as self-expression of one’s whole entity and life experience? :thinking:

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#48

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#49

@Solomon @Athanaxos

Both of you are right.
And with that said, I feel as if this whole topic coming up right around the time of my birthday is pretty significant, as with each minute that passes, I end up realizing more and more about what it means to be me, and not just a side of me.

I have made up my mind on what I wanna do and how I wanna lead myself going forward, but before I can do that, I need to let myself breathe for a while, in order to create that unified peace between all aspects of myself, and after that, it’s showtime.

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#50

I’m going to read this journal in full.
Want to understand a few things

  1. Your running Force of Nature, Cosmic Transcendence and ROM in this journal?
  2. You can have 5 ZP cores in a custom??!! does that work ?

Amazing art for the customs btw

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#51

Happy birthday in advance, in case I forget! :smiley:
Soo… you’re a sagittarian as well?

That’s just :fire: :fire: :fire: :blush:
And it is a great feeling, isn’t it?

I’m looking forward with great excitement to hear what kind of crazy stuff you will manage to accomplish in the times ahead :grin:

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#52

Nah
RoM is static, the customs are used as needed, since my recent customs have all been 70% the same, with only up to 4 modules changed, and up to 2 cores changed, and since the main core in all my customs has been Stark for the longest time, all my customs feel like they’re just different dimensions of Stark.

6 actually :grin:
And yeah, so far it works with me, but I had to really take my time breaking my mental limits slowly haha

Haha thanks, it’s on Saturday actually, and I’m a Capricorn :goat: that’s why I’m the G.O.A.T. :sunglasses::call_me_hand:t4:

You might be in for a surprise soon :eyes:
My custom for January has been planned, and let’s just say, no more Stark in 2023 :zipper_mouth_face:

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