Subconscious Virtuoso - Stumbling into the Light 🔥

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So, I use my visits with family over the holidays as one way to see how much I’ve evolved internally over the year.

It’s super easy to fall into old patterns and default reactions to specific triggers and situations – slipping happens even after years of doing changework – and this year marked a noticeable change for me…

I have a policy of not arguing – it’s a waste of energy and time; debating is a different story – but certain members of my family have a policy of argue first, understand later. Well, this time around I navigated those situations and interactions by taking a direct but honorable approach (instead of detaching or brushing it off), and the end result was surprising.

I got the results I wanted and there was very little to no friction in things playing out smoothly around me.

I was a little apprehensive running New Emperor while being there, but everything went great. The couple of times that people tested my boundaries, I handled it like I’d handle a kid doing something dumb, with compassionate directness. It was automatic. I didn’t have to think, I just responded to it and moved on. And they didn’t behave that way again the rest of the week. We had a good time.

I think the New Status Experience mixed with Hero’s virtue scripting is a really potent combination.

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When something enters your awareness that’s new and outside of any previous experience so there’s no frame of reference…what do you do?

Dismiss it? Rationalize? Or wonder?

As I was driving along the highway, at the peak of rush hour, I happened to look sharply up and to the left at a point in the sky where some object was reflecting the Sun…

…it didn’t match anything familiar in my memory banks (it was elliptical)…
…it looked much farther away than the highest plane in the sky…
…and it wasn’t moving?

My friend and I had completely opposite responses when it suddenly disappeared from the visible sky.

It made me realize that my level of openness and curiosity is growing…and having a little debate with a friend about a UFO is always good.

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It’s the last listening day of the cycle tomorrow, and I’m starting to feel like something needs to change in my stack…

Not sure what yet.

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For tracking, the amount of exposure for each sub so far is:

• 11 loops of Hero; started Sept 26th; 11th loop 3 days ago; currently in third cycle
• 10 loops of NRICH; started Oct 9th; 10th loop yesterday; currently in second proper cycle (this sub was a “stack breaker” and replaced DRLD before the end of its 4th cycle; recon was had but it wasn’t that bad)
• 23 loops of Emperor; started Aug 4th; 4 cycles completed
• 1 loop of New Emperor; started Nov 16th; replacing “old” Emperor for 5th cycle

I don’t think I’ll drop Hero. I’m at 15 loops of exposure now and want to keep it going to see what else I can do with it. At some point, I’ll probably put it in a custom with Spartan to kick up the training gainz.

As for the other two, I’ll have to do some reflecting over the next week…

We’ll see, maybe the next drop or two will speak to me.

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Dreams were vivid last night, and sleep was short.

I got up and immediately started on one of the tasks on my long list of tasks written down on the whiteboard. That was out of the ordinary. Usually, I get up and make something hot – been drinking black tea the last week, but I’m letting that go soon to get back to zero caffeine – then I read while I drink. The subject matter changes, but that’s usually the routine.

I’ve been considering the amount of time I spend consuming versus creating…

And I’m feeling the push to create more. To experience more.

Is that Nouveau RICH’s influence?

Maybe it’s New Emperor encouraging me to put things into motion?

I don’t know what it is, but there’s a massive change coming. And it feels like it’s happening in slow motion.

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I’m on day 4 of the break between cycles, and this has been the smoothest, easiest, most natural feeling of the subs executing without any recon flaring up I can remember in a while…

So far, I’m at 5 cycles of Emperor, 3 cycles of Hero, and 2 cycles of Nouveau RICH exposure.

It’s probably a function of that sweet NSE doing its thing.

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Sleep was short last night, only 4.5 hours.

I woke up from a dream where I was deeply sobbing…

…probably because I say goodbye to my stack tonight.

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It’s day 5 between cycles…noticed an increase in irritation yesterday, but only in very specific circumstances like drivers doing dumb shit (which is too common where I live), one cashier ignoring the line to socialize and another walking away from her register to talk to her coworker about personal stuff (college kids), and other minor things that normally don’t get under my skin like that…

…I usually have a more proactive focus, would take it in stride and keep flowing.

I think it had more to do with me not being present in the moment than anything else, so minor environmental factors felt exaggerated in scope and importance, like they were attempting to thwart my overall mission (that I was running on autopilot)…

…don’t come between a man and his raw milk and butter, man. Shit’s serious.

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Start of a new cycle today…

• start of 6th with Emperor
• start of 4th with Hero
• and start of 1st with True Sell

Nouveau RICH had to be let go…it’s not Nouveau, it’s me. I’m just not ready, lol. It’s funny because it’s true.

The idea was to use it to innovate on ways I could put together licensing deals, but I put the cart before the horse: my networking skills need some work. Probably a complete overhaul. Might have to scrap 'em and get some new ones, tbh.

Opening conversations that bear fruit has been my bottleneck. So, who knows, maybe all I need is a single cycle of True Sell to kick things into gear while I improve that skill, or maybe two.

Like, I really wanted to buy Emperor: Will to Power and run that…the upgraded title and new description are boss af. It really let my imagination run a little wild with possibilities. And I will run it eventually in 2024.

But as much fun as it would be to experience the development and understanding of power – and I’m sure it would’ve helped me towards my goals in some fashion – I have some other more specific things than power to address.

The plan is to finish off December strong

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Short sleep last night, 4.5 hours, but I felt rested enough to get up.

Maybe it has something to do with running a loop of New Emperor and True Sell right before bed? Maybe not.

My dreams had a sense of freedom, and adventure in them. And there was no sense of “needing” to get up and do stuff…

…I laid in bed relaxed for almost an hour before getting up.

I do notice a tweak in my midback from the workout I did yesterday, but I’m not worried about it. Going to do another workout before training this morning, or at least do some mobility work, maybe some yoga.

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@RVconsultant would you please change the journal title to: Empire Virtuoso - Hero, NE, NRich, T$

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First impression of True Sell…

Main Disc. Thread - True Sell ZP v2

I ran a loop of this last night, and today I was on another level socially. There was an effortless flow to my responses, and silences, and my humor was landing over and over, seamlessly weaved into conversations. Decided to run this after learning that it would directly support the negotiation process and networking… First loop did not disappoint.

The plan for this month is to focus on improving my skills in networking and making deals. I’ll dive into and apply the strategy and tactics of a negotiation program and a charisma program that I’ve already picked out. Heavy emphasis on apply.

Focusing on study and over-preparing was a sticking point of mine in the past, but my mindset has shifted.

I know from martial arts, you learn the most when you do the technique for yourself…where you got it right, and where you need work. You can talk about techniques and wax philosophical forever, or watch someone else show you over and over, but it isn’t until you put some skin in the game that you truly learn.

There are things that only practice can teach, so that’s my mindset going into this phase of skill development this month: read only what I need so as to put things into practice. Fall on my face, get up, and repeat. Then, get it right, and profit. Success is inevitable with that strategy.

I feel good about it, and adding True Sell turned out to be exactly the right choice for this moment in time.

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I watched this last night before bed on 2x speed, and I’m about to go through it again and take some quick notes while I drink my tea…

How to Win (at anything)

How to Win (At ANYTHING)

It’s fascinating that one of his examples is learning charisma. I love little manifestations like that…they let me know things are flowing.

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I like to prime my mind for making offers in a small, weird way: I go to FB marketplace and buy or sell something. Something that doesn’t matter. Usually a small thing.

Pulled up this old unpurchased thing I’d listed that no one’s even asked about, so I switched up the tone and positioning a little bit to relist it…

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I think it’s gonna crush, lol

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This weekend was one of the first weekends that I can recall in a long time that I felt completely at ease with not being “productive”.

There wasn’t any stress about the long list of tasks on my whiteboard. No judgement of myself for not already being as successful as I’d like. No worries in the back of my mind about anything.

And I still got a couple things done from the list as a natural part of my days, without forcing it.

I’m not living in denial or delusion now… I just know that I’m going to take care of those things as I get to them, one at a time, and there’s no longer an identity around money/business that makes me feel “less than” for not accomplishing more.

There was a moment where I had an odd sense of not really knowing what to do with such a peaceful state. I thought, “Is this what normal people feel like?”

It might sound like I lost a “drive” or “hunger” that gets espoused by some business goo-roos as necessary to “always be (insert whatever)”…but that’s not even close to what I feel. I haven’t “lost” a thing except an identity that didn’t serve me well.

I actually feel like I have more energy to direct towards my goals, not less. Dropping the identity that had me feeling bad or anxious about the gap between where I am and where I want to be has released a tremendous about of raw energy for me to do whatever I want with…including business development. More training. More anything.

I might be explaining myself poorly here, but it’s like I feel more ME than I have in a long time.

And when I asked if anything seemed different about me, I was told I seemed lighter and unburdened. And that I’d gotten funnier this weekend…

It’s an awesome experience that feels so normal and familiar. And free. Like breathing.

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I’ve seen the concept of flow mentioned recently, but haven’t read any books about it or anything…I’ll get around to it one of these days probably. What I do know about it is I experience it a lot in martial arts, but I couldn’t tell anyone else how to do it. And saying “just focus” seems like a crude over-simplification…

But I think I can better explain it now.

Yesterday while I was suffering through 30 minutes of lunges (with push presses at the top of every minute), I found flow.

I found the sweet spot. It’s like a rhythm of effort, presence, and acceptance that takes you deeper into the thing you’re doing. And it unlocks a greater level of ability within the body. At least that’s how it felt because at one point I didn’t think I would make it, lol.

It’s such an incredible thing to think about the complexity behind a single movement the body makes, and we get to pilot these meat machines simply using our will.

In other words…

You’re a bone mech operator, Harry.

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A cool synch just happened listening to a podcast while having breakfast…

The guy speaking was a high level athlete and he said, “In flow state, you’re not there doing it. It just happens. Perfection happens through you. As much as that body can be perfect, it is perfect in the flow state. In the flow state, the extra energy that comes in…you didn’t sponsor that. That’s eternity that’s flowing through you.”

I like that imagery.

What I labeled as acceptance (of things as is), he labels as “surrender your ego”. (He goes on to say as much, but I was’t about to type out the whole transcript, lol.)

Language is fascinating, and difficult to do well so that the intended meaning is transmitted…yet even though I used different words to describe my experience, I was able to pick up what he put down. It resonated.

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My new baseline is normalizing, and at first I wondered if I wasn’t in as good a mood as I was over the weekend, wondering if I’d lost “it”…

But then I realized that the only thing that I wasn’t feeling as obviously over the last couple days was the “acceleration” up to this new baseline. I’ve reached a new cruising altitude, so the sense of an obvious change has diminished, even though the results are still present. Everything feels stable and balanced.

And I know this because I got an instant test in the form of a lost deal and another person lagging with a response: I felt nothing more than an acceptance of facts, and gladly moved on to take care of other things (and I’ll follow up with the laggard later).

No strong emotional response. Actually, not much of a blip at all.

And that same non-reactivity is also playing out with something valuable that I have up for auction: I didn’t set a reserve price and started bidding super super low as a simple test to see whether I am truly shifting into abundance or if I’m fooling myself…

And again, even though the current bid is not even close to what I expected to get for it, I feel no negative emotions about it. There’s only a sense of “huh, thought there’d be more interest”…like I’m just gathering data without much attachment. Sure, there’s still 4 days before bidding closes and it’s not big thing, but this is definitely a deep shift in my perception to not be concerned at all about it.

Actually now that I’m writing this out, it sounds like it could be part of the bloom from two cycles of Nouveau RICH…studying the market response and simply collecting data.

Either way, it’s obvious the New Wealth Experience is having a profound effect on my relationship to money. There’s tons of it out there, waiting for me to leverage the right opportunities to collect more of it in the way that facilitates the life I choose to live and reflects the values I hold. And that’s all there is to it.

If I had to sum it up, I’d say the identity shift is along the lines of going from service provider to investor. Reality will catch up as I do things differently now.

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The results are starting to flow in effortlessly and surprising me with how they’re showing up…

I had just put a task on my whiteboard that I chose an arbitrary number for i.e. open conversations with five plumbing business owners that have at least 4 employees, 3 huge ads, 2 mini-vans, and a partridge in a pear tree…

(don’t be alarmed, that’s just a little Christmas joke for ya)

And lo and behold, while on a group call with my business mentor, he issues a challenge to incentivize us to take action: to reach out to FIVE people that might be a good fit.

Sure, that’s “random”, and 5 is a commonly used number, right? Right.

So as the call goes on, he then addresses perfectly the exact issue I’ve had with wrapping my head around a specific concept to create higher leverage opportunities. And it was delivered in a perfect way for me.

It clicked.

I want to write that I’m pumped, but I’m not.

I’m in a state of knowingness: new reality incoming…

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Note to self:

You can’t save anybody, you can only send them Love. They have to figure it out for themselves.

Be careful of too much of your Time, Energy and Attention being harvested in the name of “helping” someone else.

It’s better to be kind, than to be “a help”.

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@RVconsultant would you please change the journal title to: Empire Virtuoso - Hero, NE, NRich, T$

Pinging you again since you’re a busy man, @RVconsultant