EmpERROR - Every great Khan was once an Emperor

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#153

I’ll elaborate what I said previously about it boosting enthusiasm tremendously

Imagine you are going to the gym with the goal of looking better. You go there 1 month, 2 months, 3 months… and while you do look better, no one mentions it - brain be like “wtf why are we wasting time and energy then?”

and now imagine that a lot of woman that you find attractive start flirting with you, pointing out your gym progress and that you look amazing - don’t even have to have sex with them, though that’s gonna be a bonus. And the original chain of “Go to the gym → feel pain and suffering (while lifting) → get attractive woman complimenting you → feel great” turns into “go to the gym → feel great”.

I mean, working out can’t feel good by itself, it’s impossible in theory. Like imagine just going somewhere where you can spend a ton of precious energy, tear down muscles and wear down CNS for an hour and then just leave. It only starts to feel good when you see how it affects your Social/Sexual dominance or gives you more resources that you want. The brain then changes its opinion of the thing because of the dopamine and testosterone boosts that you get from the proof of becoming a better, more dominant specie

Yet you also mentioned porn and PMO, I fully agree that it’s a very negative habit.

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#154

I see your point. But…

There can be a sense of pride, of seeing the weight go down or up (depending on goal). And also knowing you did something hard and your body is sore. I can feel powerful and happy after a gym session. If you do cardio, it triggers happy chemicals as well.

The issue I think is related to validation in my case. Hot girls are surrounding me right now and it triggers this need for validation, and PMO. I need to get that from within. I don’t know man. I’m in deep processing right now. But doing the gym for the girls is part of the issue. Girls is a way for me to get validation. That’s not healthy for me.

Anyway, I think large part of my recon is also from having too many subs and limitless hitting on deep issues, which have been too much at once. I might cut it out next cycle, to check if recon is heavily tied to it as I thought. I already got IG in there.

I have also been eyeing AoH. But seeing as it might also deal with issues around internal validation and self- love, I’ll hold on that.

Emperor and IG: UPX.

I need focus and stable growth right now. Too many spinning plates right now.

#155

boring as hell. So what if the numbers go up and down? what do I get in return? Do I get my body sore just for some meaningless numbers? Of course not! Strength and looks are original goal until gym started to feel good

I’m yet to see an activity that people do which is not tied to increasing one’s own dominance. Even addictive behaviors.

Masturbation and porn → tricks your brain into thinking you are in some free sex paradise, obviously fake dominance but brain doesn’t recognize the difference between real and imagined

TV series → insane dominance, you are ABOVE the billionaires, kings, rules and whoever it is in the tv series and you are watching them and judge them. Fake as well but doesn’t matter

Gym → getting stronger, therefore increasing social status (pretty priviledge + are perceived as more dangerous by other man) + sexual dominance (able to get more and better woman if you are muscular).

Work → resources (money) + social status (from money and from work position) + indirectly sex (from having lots of resources and social status)

Even drinking coffee is addictive because of this. Coffee is disgusting yet the brain makes you like it because it gives you energy/masks fatigue, therefore increasing dominance - you can hunt for longer now

I can go on and on forever

I don’t think you should fight it and instead just accept it. It’s temporary - just until the brain builds a strong association between gym and eventually feeling great, because right now for you it’s like “gym → get validation → feel good”. Eventually you will have a “gym → feel good” association.

An exercise for you is to take the “gym” concept and figure out all ways it increases your dominance.

Actually, I’ve known about this dominance thing already but 30sec AoH made me realize how this is the key difference for me. I recently made a thread asking how to find an activity that I’ll love doing and monetizing and only after running my first AoH loop, I realized that I didn’t practice what I preach and therefore had my question in the first place lol. So yeah, AoH might work really well for you

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#156

Interesting perspective. :ok_hand: thanks for sharing

I agree with your point that sex ”rules” the world. Or I think that men do alot of things for just sex. It’s a powerful motivator But I think I can transcend that paradigm. I need to let go of the ” I’m good with girls” identity. Sure, initially it’s good as a motivator. I believe most men in self- help probably got into it because of PUA. But it’s just a paradigm, I believe there are better ones.

:cat: is power, as my favourite philosophers (rappers) like to say. I’m not saying suppressing sexuality, but not seeking validation through it. Not seeking an identity of being an attractive man. I’m just a man and that’s enough.

Perhaps it’s impossible.

Yeah, I might run AoH. We’ll see. After a good nights sleep I’m thinking I might need to stay on limitless and run shorter loops. We shall see. Currently on washout.

This project feels like it’s going to make me or break me. This is where champions are made. I just gotta crawl through it, one breath at a time.

Divide and conquer!

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#157

as I said, I think it’s just a matter of time until your brain builds up the strong enough association

Now, if you mean to truly transcend it… then I have no idea if that’s possible lol. Maybe monks did, though I’m not quite sure since the perspective I mentioned can be applied to them. Anyway, I wish you good luck with this

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#158

Highly inspiring post:

Every recon wave I go through seem to hit harder, be more unbearable, and last longer. But when I reflect and explore and persevere, I come out feeling like a damn super hero dude.

We keep going. I can’t not.

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Time to level up the reflections and journaling.

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#159

A new leadership position opened up today for a community in my field of work. I’m going to seek it.

At the party, a guy was also seeking a spokesperson or ambassador for a inclusion task force, being I’m a minority in my job and career in general. He came up to me specifically because he think I would be a perfect match, not just because I’m a minority but also because of my personality. Time to take on bigger responsibility for people like me who perhaps never thought they could code or learn math. Minorities.

Of course, I’m thinking they could have positive reasons for this. But it could also be just another form of ”green washing”. I don’t care.

My head says, I don’t have what it takes.
The emperor in my head says, let’s find out.

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#160

Got great feedback today. I’m making progress on this imposter syndrome bs. I just had a revelation a few days ago and then got great feedback today.

”You’ve made more progress the last two weeks than the last guy did the past 3 years.”

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#161

I’ve come to the realisation that Wanted is actually a pretty advanced title if you come to it from a PUA/seduction mind.

There’s a difference between approaching and just socialising, saying hi to people.

I do not recommend Wanted unless you understand this.

If you understand this and want to cultivate it, then go for it.

Being great with woman is not something you do, it’s being, something you are.

Hard to explain I guess.

Wanted doesn’t chase, if you don’t get that then you’re not ready for Wanted. :slight_smile:

#162

Cycle 5 - here we go!
This cycle I’m continuing Emp, IG and Limitless. Bumping the duration to 5 minutes.
Happy holidays! :fire:

Time for time off. I’m going to do some heavy introspection.

#163

Striving for greatness :raised_hands:

I have a good opportunity to work out more during this holiday weeks. But also study some code.

#164

Health goal: Stand on the scale and it should say 80kg.
Then we take it from there. I might go down further after that or just start bulking or lean gaining.

Career wise we’ll see. I need to make it S.M.A.R.T er

Skill wise, become super sayan swe. I want to be so good I won’t have to look for jobs again, and I can get any job. So that means I need to go through the fundamentals, take on tough assignments/projects at work, read books and code alot.

#165

This is gold:

#166

I used to try to heal everything once and for all and then start living. The problem is this:

You heal and build yourself up or whatever, thinking if you get it all handled you can go out of your shell or house or moms basement and faceroll the world, the girls, the business, your goals and success.

But that’s not how it works. What you’re actually doing instead is building neural pathways in your head or strengthening already existing pathways of:

  • I’ll be happy when…
  • Success is in the future.
  • I’m not ready, I’m not good enough for action.
  • Inaction

TLDR: you’re coping and very immature, glhf

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#167

I’m officially under 100kg now :clinking_glasses:

Most likely water weight, but feels good nonetheless.

Regarding the above, I don’t have it figured out. But I’ve been and still am that guy sometimes. I guess the neural pathways are that strong. It’s going to be a challenge overcoming them and making new ones.

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#168

This documentary about a guy who was going to do all these things on his retirement and instead he is now just waiting to die. Did nothing. Pure apathy.

It’s an anecdote, but nonetheless, something to consider. It’s your life, it’s important. Also you are usually your worst enemy.

It’s like the people who get a lot of money fast and then lose it all quicker. Their mindset is the same when they became rich. It didn’t get upgraded.

Anyway, that’s all.

#169

Distraction… what an elusive concept. 🫡

Happy holidays.

Need to cut down the distractions like a sashimi chef.

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#170

Distractions, still a thing. An ongoing battle fought in many quantum moments. Lol

-3.1 kg
CW: 98.9

Pog

#171

Lately I’ve been thinking about running ASBR instead of Emperor. It’s a good idea in a sense that it’s probably more fitting my current career goals in tech, but it’s also a bad idea because:

  • Recon (a symptom of switching subs, that’s growth)
  • Building a pathway of switching subs. A weakness.
  • Is short term thinking. Long term I should and will switch to ASBR at some point.
  • FOMO / Lack of patience

If you switch, you lose more than you gain.

#172

Mood:

(PROTIP: Switch every occurrence of the word gold to code, i.e Codefinger) :smirk: